She is always late but she is not a type of girl who would make her mood off when any teacher would scold her or even if she has a little argument with anyone she manages to stay calm and in happy mood and I like her this personality that she easily forgets what makes her angry and does not care for that and yes she gets angry too much. May be her mood swings.
I was completely lost in her thoughts when she came in the class. Today she is wearing black shirt and baggy jeans and I have known her dressing style enough that she doesn't like to wear dresses that are revealing and she doesn't wear makeup too much, as far as I know she just have pink lipstick or may be it's her natural color because I have never seen her lips in any other shade. And Mr. Kim was asking her again for being late and as always she would never make lame excuses.
She said "Sorry I woke up late." People usually lie to save themselves from these type of inquiries and then punishments also but she has never done this and I wondered why. I always want to talk to her to come close to her but I have a feeling that she is quite shy and nervous type of person so I should wait for the right time.
Again Mr. Kim is now going to punish her.
"You will dust all the furniture of this classroom when the lectures end."
"Okay." This is the only word she says whenever being punished. I think she doesn't like to have arguments.
The class has ended and her friends are saying her good bye but they still have lectures with her after this 1 hour break.
"Hey! You coming with us?"
"Yes my friend why not!"
"Great because today it's your turn to pay for the lunch."
"I know."
I know she was looking at me while talking to her friends and wishing for me to not leave but I think this is not the right way to have my first interaction with her. I have a plan.
I'm in the cafe and now I know she will be alone in the class room and all our bags are there. I don't want to show her that I came for her. I want to make her think that it's a coincidence. That's why I have left my wallet in my bag.
"Hey Sam! You order something for us both I will be just right back I forgot my wallet."
"Yes I know why you have forgotten that." He felt amused. He knows that I like her as he is my best friend so why would he not know?
"Okay I won't be late."
I hope she is still there because I never found her being alone. She is always with her friends how would I have talked to her then. I was just waiting for this exact moment that I could go and talk to her. And also I don't want to show her that I'm interested in her. More than that I'm interested to know what feelings she has for me.
Yes she is there. Dusting the chairs but she is far from my chair. Still not bad I would walk towards her then.
She saw me.
"Hi! You need any help?"
She is quiet as if she has watched a ghost.
"Are you okay?" Because her face has turned red like a tomato. And now I'm loving to tease her because I know it's because of me. I started walking towards her. She was getting more nervous. Her hands started trembling. I didn't expect this reaction. So I stopped there.
"I just came for my wallet." And just after then she ran. She ran?? Like I seriously
Couldn't believe. Am I that terrible looking that she ran because of me? I thought she liked me. I was an idiot. Fuck!
Lavin
"Why he came there?? Why??" I was not ready for this sudden meet up. I'm in the toilet and what he would be thinking of me? He might have noticed my nervousness. My heart is still beating so hard I couldn't even breathe when he was there. My cheeks were getting heated up like someone is burning them.
"God what have I done?" He was so close to me I have never imagined and then he started talking to me when I was completely unconscious. He smells se good that he felt totally real and I couldn't just bear that. Now I don't know what he would be thinking of me.
"Lavin is this you? I know this is your voice. Is everything okay?"
"Yes I'm okay. I will be out just give me sometime."
"I saw Aariz coming from the class. Did something happen?"
"No everything is fine. Just give me some time."
"Okay. I'm waiting for you in the class."
I need to talk to someone because I don't know what he would think of me now. Emma understands there nature easily I should tell her. I went in the class but she was not there. I find it suspicious. I sit in my chair and her bag was beside me. I see there is that missing piece of my earth model stucked inside her zip pocket. It made me completely strange like I couldn't even think how in the fucking hell she has it?? I need to know but I know her quite well she would never tell me the truth. So now I'm going to keep an eye on her.
"Hey sorry! I was meeting Abby our junior."
"Yeah, no problem. I'm okay now."
"You sure?"
"Yes."
Our next lecture has started and I just don't want Aariz to look at me because how can I explain him my earlier behavior.
Oh no! He looked at me. Fiercely.
This is not good. I never meant this. I have to make this misunderstanding clear.
"Why is she looking at you now?"
"How would I know Sam? Go ask yourself if it's bothering you that much."
" No I was just trying to make you understand that may be it's not true that she was afraid of you. May be she just got nervous."
"No one runs when they get nervous."
I just don't want to talk about her right now. I just want her out of my mind. Because my mood is so bad that I want to beat myself for whatever happened there. She was like I have done something wrong to her. Like I was trying to harass her. Now I will never go near her
or allow her to come close to me either.