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Chapter 65 - Chapter 65: Introspection

The moonlight outside the camp dimmed, veiled by a passing cloud, and the tent sank into half-darkness.

Kakashi sat motionless at the table. The tea in front of him had long since gone cold, its surface a dull mirror that faintly reflected his weary face. His single visible eye was clouded, not with fatigue alone but with an unrelenting turmoil that words could not capture.

Obito had already left, yet silence lingered, thick and oppressive, as though his presence still haunted the space.

Kakashi let out a long, unsteady sigh, his gaze drifting toward the adjacent tent where Naruto slept peacefully, oblivious to the burden weighing down his future teacher. The boy's quiet breathing was a fragile reassurance in the midst of his storm.

He knew exactly what he was doing.

Though he was a shinobi of Konoha, bound by loyalty to the Hokage and the village, he was—of his own will—assisting Obito. His old friend. His rival. The boy who once dreamed with him of protecting comrades… now bent on dragging the shinobi world into destruction.

Each step he took alongside Obito was another step into contradiction, betrayal, and despair. And yet, Kakashi followed.

The awareness gnawed at him, an endless swarm of ants burrowing into his heart. He didn't want to see the world end. That much he knew. But when he stripped away the abstractions—the "world," the "villages," the "system"—what remained in the center of his heart was not duty to the shinobi world itself… but the faces of those he cherished.

His comrades.

Obito and he were, perhaps, the loneliest people left alive. Their bond was twisted, but undeniable. They understood each other in ways no one else could. They had been children who lost everything to a merciless world. If Obito demanded his support—even if it meant walking into ruin—Kakashi could not turn away.

Perhaps this twisted devotion was the curse of Uchiha Gen's aberrant Sharingan. Perhaps his will had been subtly warped, cognition eroded bit by bit. Yet, what terrified Kakashi most was that he did not reject it. A part of him embraced this bond, clung to it, even welcomed it into his heart.

But acceptance brought no peace.

For in the shadows of his heart lingered another constant companion: guilt.

As the Third Hokage's trusted subordinate, as the son of Konoha's White Fang, he should have been a pillar of loyalty. Instead, he had betrayed the Hokage. Betrayed the village. Betrayed the legacy of those who entrusted him with their hopes.

The guilt pressed against his chest like a blade, robbing him of sleep, leaving him haunted in every quiet hour.

If he had been completely brainwashed—obliterated, consumed—perhaps he could have felt nothing. No guilt. No regret. Just obedience.

But no. Uchiha Gen's curse left him cruelly aware, left him lucid enough to know exactly what he was doing, lucid enough to suffer.

If you want to control me… why not strip me completely? Why leave me half-free, half-bound, watching myself fall, step by step, into betrayal?

That question often clawed at him. But every time the thought surfaced, Obito's face rose in his mind.

"Create an ideal world where Rin lives…"

Kakashi shut his eye and rubbed his temple, weary.

A soft, muddled murmur broke the silence.

"…Kakashi-nii…"

Naruto's voice.

Kakashi's head snapped up. He rose at once, pushing aside the flap and stepping into the boy's tent. Naruto shifted in his sleep, his small hand clenched against his chest.

Kakashi knelt down, adjusting the covers with a tenderness he rarely allowed himself. His gaze lingered on the boy's face—still innocent despite the scars of loneliness, still stubborn even in dreams. Something inside him eased.

Naruto. This child bore the hatred of the village, the curse of the Nine-Tails, yet still clung to dreams of recognition, of bonds, of a better future. His persistence was both heartbreaking and miraculous.

Perhaps, after Obito, Naruto was his deepest concern.

In this world where life was so easily discarded, Kakashi's heart always returned to his comrades: Obito, Rin, Minato-sensei… and now his sensei's son.

His father, Sakumo, had once chosen comrades over the mission, and paid with his life. The village called it betrayal. The elders crushed him with condemnation until he chose death by his own hand.

But Kakashi bore no hatred for the Hokage or the elders. The true enemy wasn't them. It was the cruel laws of this world itself—the "shinobi code," the rules carved into their lives like chains.

And so, from deep within, he dreamed of becoming Hokage. Not for glory. Not for pride. But to change the rules themselves. To protect comrades without punishment. To make life sacred, not expendable.

When he thought of it clearly, how was this dream so different from Obito's?

Obito wanted to create a false world where Rin still lived. Kakashi wanted to create a true world where no one had to suffer such loss again. Different methods—but in their essence, both were born from love, from grief, from defiance against the cruelty of fate.

That was why, even as guilt tore at him, he walked forward with Obito. Even as he betrayed Konoha, even as he betrayed himself, he could not turn aside.

Kakashi's gaze softened as he looked at Naruto one last time.

If this world must be broken before it can be remade… Naruto, I pray that you will awaken in the ashes and carve a path of your own, unbound by fate.

His whisper was a confession, a plea, and a resignation all at once.

The reflection of the soul is not always restraint—it is clarity.

Perhaps this… was Uchiha Gen's true aim.

Inside the Fire Temple, the thin flames of the candles wavered, their light barely strong enough to push back the darkness. The vast hall was empty, save for the lone figure sitting cross-legged before the towering Buddha statue.

Sarutobi Shinnosuke sat in silence, his eyes fixed on the serene, impassive face of the stone deity.

Asuma had already returned to Konoha, Chiriku had departed as well, and the affairs of both the Daimyo's Mansion and the Fire Temple had fallen entirely onto Shinnosuke's shoulders. The scrolls, reports, and endless disputes were tedious, but he knew they were not the true weight pressing on him.

The real burden was the world outside—shifting, breaking, sliding toward something uncontrollable.

The confiscation of the Daimyo's authority in the Land of Fire had shattered the old order. The shockwave had spread like wildfire through the shinobi world. In distant halls, daimyo whispered of rebellion, of war.

The Land of Lightning, the Land of Wind, and the Land of Earth had already demanded their shinobi forces act against Konoha, urging their Kage to crush this dangerous precedent before it devoured them as well. Their words smelled of panic, of desperation.

But the Hidden Villages had not moved.

Kumo, Suna, Iwa—all of them held their hands back, ignoring the cries of their own daimyo. Their silence was not peace, but caution, restraint… the tense pause before blades are drawn. They waited, all of them, for the Five Kage Summit, where the future of the shinobi world would be decided.

And the Land of Water… its silence came not from restraint, but from collapse.

The chaos of the Blood Mist had boiled over. A horde of rogue shinobi had stormed the Daimyo's palace, slaughtering the lord's entire family and leaving the country in ruins. Yagura's grip was weak, the Kekkei Genkai families were massacred in droves, and the Land of Water bled from every wound.

The Fire Daimyo at least lived—stripped of power, reduced to a figurehead—but alive. In Water, even the seat of rule had been erased.

Shinnosuke had watched these reports pile up, each heavier than the last. He was a jonin, a Sarutobi, son of the Hokage… but not Hiruzen. He lacked his father's unshakable authority, his calm command. In the shadow of his father, he felt painfully small. And in the shadow of the world's collapse, he felt even smaller.

Now, in this hall of silence, beneath the cold stone gaze of the Buddha, his helplessness pressed down on him until he could scarcely breathe.

He looked up at the statue again. The Buddha's face was unchanged—calm, serene, detached from the suffering of men. Yet the longer he stared, the more it seemed to exude an intangible weight. Not mercy. Not warmth. Something older. Something that pressed against the heart with both awe and dread.

Shinnosuke's lips moved before he realized it, his voice a rasp in the empty hall.

"Can you really give me an answer…?"

His words fell into the silence like stones into a deep well, vanishing without echo.

And yet…

The candles guttered. A faint draft stirred the still air, brushing cold fingers against his neck. Shinnosuke stiffened. His pulse quickened. Slowly, his gaze climbed back up to the Buddha's eyes.

For an instant—just an instant—he could have sworn they had changed.

No longer calm. No longer empty.

Deeper. Colder. Piercing.

As if the stone gaze was no longer lifeless, but alive. As if it reached past his mask, past his skin, into the marrow of him—sifting through his doubts, weighing his fears, peeling back every hidden thought until nothing was left unexposed.

Shinnosuke's throat tightened. He wanted to look away. He couldn't.

The stone Buddha sat unmoving.

And yet he felt as though he had been seen.

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