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Chapter 19 - Complicated Feelings

(Sonny)

When Killian gave me a cold look, "Are you here to help me or not?"

His hand around my wrist sent a chill down my bones, and I nearly wanted to pull back, but Killian was stronger than me, so he didn't release me.

I forced a smile on my face and calmly said, "Yes, don't worry. I'll help you this time."

The man narrowed his blue eyes, trying to decide if I was telling the truth. He released me and turned around, his back turning to me.

The robe was clinging to his back so that I could see some of his visible scars.

I rubbed my sore wrist and shook my head, thinking what a pain in the ass he is.

I told him, "Stay here. I'm going to get something."

I'm going to do something that's not exactly allowed in front of a righteous cultivator, so I need to leave and make sure nobody is around me.

I got up to my feet and looked at Raika, who was lying on the slick rock, "Don't go anywhere."

Raika let out a soft growl, making me smile. Killian watched the interaction between me and the fox, and a furrow appeared in his brow. "How did you meet this fox?"

I turned to him with a raised brow. "I saved him when he was a baby. He was almost killed by some wolves, and he has stayed with me ever since."

Killian frowned and pursed his lips, "Do you understand harboring a demon pet can get you severely punished if you ever get caught?"

His words were tinged with seriousness, and if I didn't know any better, I'd think he was worried about me. But I shook my head, thinking I must be imagining things. "Don't worry, I took care of him for three years, and I never got caught."

Killian sighed and turned away. His face turned back to an icy cold mask.

I walked away and further into the forest, and looked around, making sure I didn't see any presence. When I made sure I was alone, I held my hands together and chanted with my eyes closed.

My hands burst into flames, but I didn't feel any pain, and I kneeled to the ground, not worrying about my robes getting dirty. When I touched the herb, the red flame touched the herb and created something called—Emberleaf.

When I finished creating the healing cream that heals within minutes, but I used the healing process to heal a week later, because I didn't want Killian to be suspicious of me when I shouldn't have any cultivation in the first place.

I lifted the warm cream into my hands and went back to the pond where Killian was staying. He turned around and lifted his head in my direction, "What's that?"

I knelt by his side, and the warm grass touched my robe. I responded lazily, "It's something called Emberleaf, and it will help you heal within a week."

I smeared it within my hands, and with my clean hand, I was about to push Killian's robe down, but he grabbed me in an instant.

Killian sharpened his tone. "Why should I let you put this stuff on me? How do I know it won't harm me?"

I frowned and asked, "Do you want me to cut myself to prove it to you?"

Killian looked deeply into my eyes and took a deep breath, as if trusting me was a difficult task for him. That hurt for a bit, but I wasn't surprised bc in his mind, this was our first meeting.

How can he forget me so easily?

I shook my head to forget the process. I asked. "Are you ready?"

Killian turned away, and his back stiffened. I told him, "Don't be too stiff or you'll hurt yourself."

Killian said in a cold voice, "Don't tell me what to do."

I shrugged. I carefully pushed down his robe, and my hands felt warm and wet from his skin. For some reason, my stomach was tightened with nerves, and I wanted to look back, but I couldn't.

I look at his shoulder, which was filled with white skin and scars. It should disgust me, but for some reason, it didn't.

I gently spread the cream on his shoulder and heard the man hiss silently through his teeth. I said in a gentle voice, "Bear with it."

Killian nodded. "I know."

I spread the cream on his shoulder and his lower back. His back felt smooth and slim in my hands, like I could easily bend it if I wanted to…

I shook my head. What thoughts am I having??

Killian turned toward me like he knew what thoughts were on my mind, which made me nervous. For a brief moment, my mind went blank, and my chest tightened.

Killian asked, "Who taught you the spells for this healing herb?"

My mind shifted with suspicion. Did I accidentally expose something I shouldn't have?

"Why? I learned it from a friend."

Killian narrowed his sharp brow. "It's very advanced. I can sense rich power coming from it, but I sensed no cultivation from you."

I smiled, the lies spilling from my lips with ease. "I was born with no cultivation, so I have to look into different resources to help me survive. There's no meaning behind it."

The man furrowed his brow, which tells me he doesn't believe me. But I said nothing in response.

Killian turned back around, and his long, silver white hair fell on my hands, which felt soft and shiny.

Before I knew it, the words came out of my mouth, "Your hair is beautiful."

Killian shifted, his back nearly tensed. I felt extreme embarrassment flushing through me. Why did I say something stupid? I need to learn when to keep my mouth shut.

Killian responded in a composed voice, but I thought it was fake and forced. "Thanks, my hair was born like this."

"Really. You don't add hair chemicals or anything to it."

I smiled when I realized it. I looked closer at the side of his cheeks, which were a bright red.

I felt relief running through me, knowing I wasn't the only one here being awkward.

Before I knew it, my mouth spoke with confidence. "It reminds me of the waterfall; full of beauty."

Killian pulled away from me, his eyes turning into a sharp glare. If I didn't know any better when I just saw his red cheeks, I would've been intimidated by his glare.

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