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Chapter 151 - 151: Myself

"I choose… to remain myself."

In the instant before the final crack in his head could split open, Li Yuan made a choice that changed everything.

He did not choose to become the universal Dao.

He did not choose to save the world at the cost of losing himself.

He chose to remain Li Yuan.

A soul that chooses.

A soul that is aware.

A soul that can say "no"—even to its own understandings.

What remained of his head—those cracked gray eyes—suddenly stopped breaking.

Not because his body was healing.

But because something far more fundamental occurred.

The Understanding of Wrapping.

The first understanding he had learned, years ago. The one that taught him that not everything good must be given all at once. That true love wraps itself so it doesn't harm the one receiving it.

The understanding he had used countless times to shield others from a reflection that was too bright.

Now, he used it to protect himself.

Wrapping himself once more.

Drawing the ten understandings back into a new vessel.

A vessel not of flesh…

But of a soul that chose to remain… Li Yuan.

Like water called back to its spring, the ten understandings began to flow inward.

Water that had spread two hundred kilometers gathered again—but not into the body that no longer existed. It pooled around something subtler: Li Yuan's consciousness, which had chosen to stay separate from the universal.

Silence, which had made entire regions oppressively still, drew itself back, though it remained—gently wrapped, as before.

Existence, whose light had grown blinding, dimmed—but was not extinguished. Only filtered, so mortal eyes could meet it without going blind.

One by one, they returned.

Not to the physical body—that was gone, dissolved, part of the battlefield's earth.

They returned to Li Yuan's soul.

A soul that chose to remain an individual.

That chose to keep its boundaries.

That chose to still have the power to say "no" when an understanding tried to spread too far.

Nothing physical reformed where his body had been.

His head—the last remnant—finally melted away. The gray eyes that had been a mirror to thousands vanished like morning dew in the sun.

Nothing remained to the naked eye.

No body. No face. No physical form at all.

Li Yuan was truly gone from human sight.

But…

The unseen soul.

Li Yuan still existed—now as pure consciousness wrapped in the Understanding of Wrapping. A soul that chose to remain Li Yuan, yet could no longer be touched or seen by the physical world.

Like wind you can feel but not see.

Like the warmth of sunlight you can sense but not hold.

Like a presence that is real but invisible.

This is what happens when a soul chooses to remain itself, Li Yuan felt his awareness return whole, return… Li Yuan. Even if it can no longer be seen by human eyes.

With the ten understandings still present, still passive, but now wrapped correctly.

He could no longer lift a hand—he had no hands—but he could feel the familiar vibration of the ten understandings within his unseen soul.

Water—still flowing, but not sweeping away.

Silence—still present, but not stifling the world.

Existence—still shining, but not blinding.

Doubt—still questioning, but not paralyzing.

Breath—still harmonizing, but not controlling.

Sky—still vast, but not erasing the ground beneath.

Body—still healing, but not imposing.

Loss—still releasing, but not stripping away.

Fear—still honest, but not terrorizing.

Wrapping—still protecting, now binding them all with wisdom.

His radius of influence returned to three meters—just as before. Just as it should be.

Around him, those who had witnessed his total disappearance stood frozen in shock and confusion.

Wen Zhi stared at the empty space where Li Yuan had been, disbelief in his eyes.

"He's… truly gone," he whispered, voice shaking. "There's nothing left."

Mu Yi and Fan Tu exchanged a glance, their eyes filled with grief.

"Li Yuan?" Mu Yi called into the empty air. "Are you… still there?"

No visible answer came. No figure appeared.

Only silence.

But a different kind of silence. A silence… that listened.

The boy Li Yuan had saved ran to the empty spot, tears streaking his cheeks.

"Where did he go?" he cried. "Is he gone?"

And from the empty air, a familiar voice answered gently—its source unseen:

"I'm still here." The voice was like the whisper of wind, yet warm and clear. "You just can't see me anymore."

"But I am still Li Yuan. I still… am."

The field of understanding that had stretched two hundred kilometers now shrank quickly.

One hundred kilometers. Fifty. Twenty.

Those who had been overwhelmed by too much understanding at once began to feel relief. Anger returned when it was needed. Quick decisions could be made again in emergencies. Loud voices could be raised when danger came.

But… something had changed.

Those who had been touched by the field were not quite the same as before.

There were seeds left behind.

A seed of Water that made them calmer when angry.

A seed of Doubt that sometimes made them question before deciding.

A seed of Silence that let them enjoy moments of quiet.

A seed of Loss that made them value what they had more deeply.

Not forced. Not dominating. Just… there. Like the lingering fragrance of a flower after the blossom is gone.

This is the true path, Li Yuan felt a peace he had never known. Not forcing the world to change according to my understanding.

But offering understanding to those who need it.

Giving choice, not imposing decisions.

Being a spring that one may choose to drink from, not a flood that forces all to be wet.

His radius was back to three meters. Yet now, that three meters felt more meaningful than two hundred kilometers ever had.

Because three meters was a choice.

The choice to step close and feel calm.

The choice to see one's reflection in clear gray eyes.

The choice to ask and be given the space to ask.

The choice to drink from the spring—or walk away if not thirsty.

General Zhao, who had fallen earlier after seeing his own reflection, slowly stood.

He looked toward Li Yuan—the softly wrapped, unseen soul—with eyes no longer holding hatred.

"I… I don't understand what happened," he said. "But I know something has changed in me."

"Not forced change. Just… the chance to see."

Li Yuan nodded softly.

"True understanding is never forced," he said. "It is only… available. To anyone who chooses to see."

"And everyone is free to decide whether they will look or not."

"Whether they will drink from the spring or not."

"Whether they will change or not."

"That is their most fundamental right."

"The right to choose their own path."

The sun began to set on the fourth day of war.

But the battlefield no longer looked like a battlefield.

Thousands sat in small groups, speaking in quiet voices. No one still held a weapon with the intent to kill.

Some were still confused. Some still doubtful. Some still didn't understand what had happened.

But none wanted to continue fighting.

Not because they were forced to stop.

But because they had been given the chance to ask: Why are we fighting?

And most could not find an answer worth dying for.

Li Yuan—in the form of an unseen soul—moved slowly among them.

No footprints were left, for he had no feet. But his presence could be felt—like warmth passing through, like calm flowing from place to place.

Each invisible "step" left no mark on the ground, but left something far subtler: an opportunity.

The chance to feel a presence unseen.

The chance to believe in something invisible yet real.

The chance to choose.

This is the true Daojing, Li Yuan thought as he walked in the quiet of dusk. The path of understanding that does not force itself to be understood.

That flows only where it is needed.

That leaves room to say no.

That honors each soul's right to be itself.

Even if that means rejecting kindness.

Even if it means choosing the harder road.

Because a choice that is forced is not a choice.

And an understanding forced is not understanding.

And night fell peacefully.

Not because the war ended in victory.

But because the war ended with choice.

The choice to stop.

The choice to ask.

The choice to be human again.

Li Yuan, in his unseen yet still present form, felt a deep peace as he looked to the stars—though he no longer had eyes to see them.

I am still Li Yuan, he thought with quiet gratitude. Even if no one can see me anymore.

I can still feel, still choose, still… be.

And that is the most precious thing of all.

The ability to remain myself.

Even when nothing can prove I exist.

Even when I must be without being seen.

For true existence needs no eyes to witness it.

It only needs a heart to feel it.

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