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Chapter 188 - Chapter 188 Ashes and Milk

The legal exoneration came swiftly, clinically. The authorities, wading

through the lurid wreckage of the Cohen dynasty, saw a clear victim. Julian,

the adopted heir, unaware of the biological theft, a man who had resigned

before the scandal broke and who had discovered his own genetic material had

been weaponised against him. The struggle with Steven was ruled self-defence

compounded by Steven's catastrophic health event. Vivian's death was a tragic,

private conclusion to a very public unraveling. Arthur, a broken husk, offered

no defence and was quietly remanded to a private psychiatric facility, his

empire now a carcass for lawyers and vulture funds to pick over.

 

Julian was free. And he was in hell.

 

The baby girl was born a month later, delivered via emergency C-section

after Vivian's body was discovered. She was small, perfect, and entered a world

where her birth certificate was a legal and ethical minefield. She was

registered as Cordelia Cohen. Mother: Vivian Cohen. Father: Unknown.

 

Julian knew. He was the only one alive who knew the full, horrific

truth. He stood in the neonatal unit of a private hospital, looking through the

glass at the sleeping infant in an incubator, wires like delicate vines

monitoring her existence. His daughter. His sister. A living, breathing symbol

of a love that was a crime and a jealousy that was a madness.

 

Elara and Silas handled the practicalities. They secured a discreet,

temporary live-in nurse. They liaised with social services, with the

labyrinthine legal guardianship petitions. They were a fortress of competence

around the unspeakable tragedy. Julian was grateful in a distant, hollow way.

 

He moved into a modern, secure, and utterly characterless apartment

Silas had vetted. It had a view of the river, rooms that echoed, and a nursery

that was functional, not fantastical. He bought a crib, stark and simple. He

didn't paint murals.

 

The first time he held her, he felt nothing. Then everything. The nurse,

a kind, no-nonsense woman named Fiona, placed the tiny, swaddled bundle in his

arms. Cordelia's face was a perfect, pink blossom, her eyes closed, a faint

dusting of dark hair on her head—his hair. She yawned, a miniature, vulnerable

gesture.

 

A wave of such profound, biological tenderness washed over him that he

swayed on his feet. It was pure, instinctive—the pull of his own DNA, the

protective urge of a parent. And then, crashing into it like a rogue wave, came

the revulsion. This is Vivian's child. This is my child. She is my sister. I am

holding the proof of my own violation. The love and the horror fused into a

white-hot nausea. He didn't drop her. He stood, frozen, until Fiona gently took

her back, her eyes soft with a pity he couldn't bear.

 

That was his life now. A pendulum swing between two unbearable poles.

 

He learned to change diapers with meticulous, detached focus. He learned

to prepare bottles, testing the temperature on his wrist. He performed these

tasks not as a father, but as a custodian of a devastating crime scene. He

would watch Cordelia sleep, her tiny chest rising and falling, and his mind

would splinter. One thread saw a fresh start, an innocent who could be saved

from the past. The other saw a living ghost, the ultimate Cohen secret wearing

a pink onesie.

 

He stopped sleeping. The silence of the apartment was filled with

echoes—Steven's final, quiet words, Vivian's eerie calm in the nursery, the

sound of his own voice saying "She is my daughter." He began to have waking

dreams. He'd be feeding Cordelia and look up to see Vivian standing in the

doorway, smiling her empty, beatific smile. He'd wake from a doze on the sofa

convinced he heard the clatter of the brass weight on marble.

 

Silas visited regularly, a silent, solid presence. He didn't offer

platitudes. He checked security protocols, discussed the ongoing legal

guardianship battle, sometimes just sat with Julian in the quiet, a shared

vigil over the ruins.

 

Elara came too, often with a meal, her own pregnancy now a gentle,

hopeful curve. She'd hold Cordelia, her touch naturally maternal, and Julian

would feel a jealousy so sharp it shocked him—jealousy for her simple, clean

bond with the life she carried. One afternoon, as she rocked a fussy Cordelia,

she said softly, "You don't have to feel just one thing, Julian. You can love

her and be horrified. You can protect her and hate what she represents. The

feelings don't cancel each other out. They just… coexist."

 

He didn't answer. The concept was too vast for his shattered interior.

 

The breaking point came on a Tuesday. Cordelia had been crying for

hours—colic, Fiona said. The sound was a piercing, relentless siren that

drilled into the heart of his silence. He paced the living room, his hands

clenched, each wail feeling like a condemnation. This is your fault. You are

the source. Your blood did this. You are the sin.

 

He found himself standing over the crib, the cries vibrating in his

skull. He didn't want to hurt her. God, no. He wanted the noise to stop. He

wanted the truth to stop. He wanted to un-exist them both.

 

Fiona appeared beside him, her hand a gentle pressure on his arm. "Mr.

Cohen," she said, her voice firm. "Go. Take a walk. Breathe. I have her."

 

He stumbled out into the cool evening, the city lights blurring through

a film of tears he didn't know he was shedding. He walked for miles, past

couples laughing, families dining, a world of normal bonds and simple stories.

He was an exile from all of it.

 

He ended up at the gates of the old Cohen estate, now dark, a "For Sale"

sign already planted in the manicured lawn. The tomb of his old life. He didn't

go in. He just stared.

 

He was exonerated. He was free. He was the legal guardian of a baby

girl. He was also a ghost, haunting the borderland between two impossible

identities, his mind a field of ashes where nothing healthy could yet grow. The

war was over. The survival had just begun, and it was a lonelier, more desolate

battle than any that had come before. He turned his back on the house and

walked toward the apartment, toward the crying, toward the tiny, innocent heart

of the calamity, because there was simply nowhere else to go.

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