Ana looked perplexed, blushing, and shaking... She couldn't do nothing but hang up the call.
I started to somewhat understand the situation, even though being tied is still ungraspable, at least now i know her motives.
After she hang up, she looked so disappointed and embarrassed of herself, which made me want to step in and break the tension.
"Look it's fine really, there's nothing to be embarrassed about, we all love and stuff..."
Ana still kept being motionless, in fact she started getting worse, i was hearing her silently crying, which made me tense up heavily i could hear my heartbeats.
Slowly i breathed and eased up, i wanted to comfort her and dry her tears,at the same time i thought to myself about how absurd is this. [getting embarrassed like this all because you love someone?, is it because Inna's a girl?, just say something already...]
Finally she has lost it, to the point where she started hitting her head on the wall while saying : "I'm sorry... I'm sorry".
I couldn't guess who she was sorry to, all i knew was that this situation just got a lot muddier.
Seeing her like that made me weirded but mostly worried, so i started hollering at her to stop.
"Ana... (Grasps). Ana. Stop it! You will seriously hurt yourself!"
"Ummm, i swear it's not that bad i get it, come on! don't go mad and hurt yourself because of it."
"SHUT UP!!!"
The loud scream was very powerful, she might've put herself in danger of being caught.
But i still wanted to know more about her love with Inna, and why is she hurting herself over it.
...She got up, about to approch me looking terrifying and menacing, clearly she was about to beat me up.
Ana looked like a mess, she did not try to dry her her tears or try to fix her hair, instead i was met with a mad and furious figure walking up towards me.
"Listen here pest, i couldn't care lesser about what you think or what you have to say.. for me i wanted you to die the moment Inna started to get a liken out of you."
Ana grabbed the top of my ear and started twisting it.
"Don't you dare put me and you in the same level pig, so you better act like it too and save me from the work I'm gonna be doing if your head turned out to be stubborn, girl."
In that moment i realized two things, one is that Ana is deeply in love with Inna to a crazy degree.
And two, ever since i started my relationship with Inna I'm being treated by a lot of people in school like an unwanted guest who showed up at their private party.
And that's when i said to myself that it was time to play dirty and to start fighting back, i can't take these insults and just stay silent.
"You're pathetic, you think getting rid of me will make Inna like you back, that not going to work, she don't want to be with a freak like you, learn to just accept that."
I might've gone too far, i mean I tried to be on her side and be supportive, but she still acted crazy. This might be the language that she understands.
"Oh..."
What was a threatening tone became a person who's looked like she's about to tear my face up.
"Ruby.... (breaths heavily)... I didn't know you can say things like that..."
She brought herself closer to me, her breaths were felt on the left side of my face, it's like my words got into her but not in the way i thought it did.
Instead she looked like she was about to hit her climax, all while using my left shoulder to rest her head.
"Alright Ruby... good play... but I'm not going to fall for it, you're nothing but an airhead i can't take you seriously... If only you looked just... properly, i would've fell in love with you."
"But the fact is you don't, and maybe that's the reason why all my work to be loved by Inna is just failed attempts, she likes the ones like you to be on her side."
I never saw things between me and Inna that way, i saw myself as a seeker for bettering my life, not whatever this dyke is claiming.
"You think I'm friends with Inna because she... That's disgusting, we just happen to share a thing that we have to one another..."
"Hahahaha... You sound just like me when me Inna were still cool... you need to understand that you're just a side character on an extra bonus who will be annexed eventually."
When i heard that it brought one of the worst feelings i have experienced in my life...
"I know a lot of things about you, i could turn your stupid life into a misery and destroy everything you've got, bar hopping... your job... It's so over..."
"Do you understand the risks now? did i made myself clear?."
From the way it seems... i have been blackmailed with heavy stuff, I'm under a serious threat here.
Things could turn ugly if my private life were to be exposed, i think she has won, that's what i thought at the time.
"Alright... I guess you left me with no choice at all, I'll not talk to Inna anymore."
Those words were the heaviest word that had came out of my mouth in a while, I'm the kind of person to not give her words any sort of meaning, but this time, i felt i was carrying a heavy person on my back.
"Hmmm... You really gave in, and here i was having other torturing plans for you dumb brain... anyways, i guess that would do for now."
And that how my whole life changed in just a second and my choices are coming to hunt me, all the joy chased is now a curse.
All i was thinking about was how hopeless i am, i keep trying to grow and finally get my life together.. .but life keeps blocking me anf pushing me back, like I'm bound to be in this form forever.
I was having a crisis in my mind. Negative thoughts possessed my mind with failed trys of clearing them out.
But in the middle of all this chaos, only one thing remaid clear to me like day, something that made calm and breath easily... I wasn't going to give up on Inna for whatever it costs.