Chapter 212 No Regrets
"Having lived two lives... I don't seem to have any regrets."
Chen Chang'an suddenly laughed self-deprecatingly.
People from Blue Star live at most a hundred years or so, but he has lived for several hundred years, already having gained tremendously!
But the next moment...
"No, there are still some."
He looked down at his palms, the lines on them clear, his fingers long and slender. It was embarrassing to say, but these hands had held his daughter from infancy to adulthood, yet they had never truly held a girl's hand.
"Damn, I only realize now, after two lifetimes, I'm still a virgin who has never been in a relationship..."
The moment this thought emerged, he couldn't help but laugh out loud.
"Isn't that too pathetic?"
In his previous life on Earth, he was an ordinary corporate drone, working overtime late into the night every day, not even having time for blind dates, let alone falling in love.
After transmigrating to this world, he became a cultivator, signing in all the way to the Saint Realm, busy with preserving his life and raising his daughter, where would he find the mind to consider romantic feelings?
"As a result, just as I'm about to die, I realize I've never even held a girl's hand..."
He sighed, a sense of unwillingness suddenly surging in his heart.
"Dying like this would be too much of a loss, wouldn't it?"
A bold idea suddenly sprouted in his heart.
Immortal Spirit City was not without brothels.
With his Saint Realm cultivation and status as the sect master, as long as he was willing, what kind of beauty couldn't he find? But as soon as this thought emerged, he shook his head with a bitter smile.
"Forget it... even if I'm about to die, I don't want to place my first precious experience in such a place."
Deep down, he was still a stubborn person, stubbornly believing that certain things should be left for someone truly worthy, even if that person might never appear.
"But... have I really never liked anyone?"
He suddenly froze.
This question, he had never seriously considered before.
In the world of cultivation, it was a jungle where the strong preyed on the weak. Along his journey, he thought every day about being cautious, afraid of making the slightest mistake, how could he dare to easily fall in love? But now, with his life on the line, he instead became honest with himself.
"It seems... there really is someone."
Because when he just thought about the person he liked.
The first figure that appeared in his mind was actually Miss Ah Li.
That Miss Ah Li with a cold personality, that Miss Ah Li who seriously told him "All things have spirits" in Fu'an City, that Miss Ah Li who glared at him fiercely in the dilapidated temple, saying he owed her one...
And that Miss Ah Li in the mundane and ordinary Ping'an Fang, who greeted him every day.
"Well... speaking of which, I still don't know what exactly I owe her."
He couldn't help but smile.
But she said he owed her, so he must owe her something.
Over the years, he could actually sense the changes in Ah Li.
The first time he saw her in Fu'an City, she was like a sword drawn from its sheath, sharp-edged, with suppressed anger hidden in her eyes, as if she could cut through everything at any moment.
But later, the hostility on her gradually faded, replaced by a calm that was almost compassionate.
This was probably her true personality.
She had a mysterious compassion for all things in the world.
This was extremely rare among cultivators.
In the world of cultivation, the strong preyed on the weak, and the powerful regarded all living beings as ants, often slaughtering entire cities and clans, who would care about the life and death of ants?
But Miss Ah Li was different. Over the years in Immortal Spirit City, he had personally witnessed—she would stop for the withering of a spiritual herb, heal an injured spiritual beast, and even linger in the stories of mortals, listening to elderly people with no cultivation speak of their ordinary lives.
Perhaps it was this point... that had always attracted him.
Because he was also such a person.
He grew up at his grandmother's house, and his grandmother believed in Buddhism—not the evil Buddhas of this world, but a truly compassionate Buddha.
She taught him to revere life, treat all beings with kindness, even an ant has its meaning of existence.
So after transmigrating, he always held a sense of reverence for this world.
He was actually not foolish at all; besides being afraid of death, how could he not know what kind of power he possessed?
With Saint Realm cultivation, one thought could sever mountains and rivers, one thought could destroy cities.
But he never became arrogant because of this; instead, he was more willing to mingle with ordinary people.
"I don't want to become that kind of 'Homelander' who 'doesn't eat beef'."
This was what he told himself every day.
There were too many people in the cultivation world who, once they gained power, became forgetful of themselves, regarding mortals as grass, often slaughtering for pleasure. But he could not do it.
In Spider-Man, it was said—the greater the power, the greater the responsibility.
This phrase, he remembered for two lifetimes.
Unfortunately, he was not so great, he could not be Spider-Man.
Then at least be a kind ordinary person who does not bring burden to the world, nor harm to others.
This was his thought.
Therefore, in this world, he was lonely.
The memories of two lifetimes made it impossible for him to truly integrate into this world of cultivation where the strong preyed on the weak.
But the existence of Ah Li made him feel...
He was not so lonely after all.
He could always feel that she should understand his persistence, just as he understood the compassion in her heart.
They never spoke of it, but tacitly guarded certain things they both believed in.
"So... the final regret is probably this."
He looked at the red moon in the sky and suddenly laughed with relief.
"Not being able to tell her in person..."
"I actually... like her."
He took a deep breath and turned to fly towards Immortal Spirit City.
—This time, he would not flee.
—Nor did he want to leave any regrets.
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