"Yes, it is, but you can't deny our attraction!" he stated. He was attracted to me. But why? I was not his type. I stared at him for a few minutes and could see anger bubbling in his eyes. Mine started to surface. What was he expecting? He was attracted to me, so I needed to comply with him. Just give him what he needed for him to toss me aside when he had enough.
"We only met ten days ago Emilio; we cannot just get carried away by some hormones. We must stay together for one year. How do you think we will do that if continue down this path?" I tried to calm down and sighed.
He narrowed his eyes at me and simply stared at me for a few more minutes. I was scared for the first time in my life. I never had strong emotions and reactions to a man before and this man, yummy man, standing in front of me had the power to unwind me in ways I never thought possible.
"If you were thinking about the contract, why did you let me flirt with you?" he demanded. I was lost for words. When was he flirting with me? I must have looked confused when he continued
"Those goodnight kisses and all the time we were together" It was almost like he was accusing me.
"I thought you were practicing for when we will be with your relatives. Meghan asked us to change our body language."
"You thought what?" he roared. I was taken aback and instantly took a step away from him. I did not know what to say. I have never been in such situation. What did he wanted me to say? In that instant I wished I had more knowledge in relationships and physical relationships so that I could come up with an appropriate solution.
"I do not know what to do Emilio. What do you want me to do?" I whispered. He stepped closer and grabbed both my arms and pulled me closer to him till our faces were centimeters apart.
"You very well know what I want Jane." He released me when I did not respond and continued to stare at him confusingly.
"I will not believe that you were a victim, Jane. You gave just as much as you took back there" he snapped.
"Look Emilio, let's just forget anything happened tonight. It will be best for both of us" and with that I ran to my room without looking back.
As soon as I locked the door, I hit the pillows crying. Why did it have to be like this? I wanted him so much, but I knew that he could be my downfall. It was a sleepless night for me. The next day as I got ready early and left for Meghan's room where we would be meeting with the security consultants.
Emilio's door was still closed when I left but I did feel some remorse. One hour later he joined us and chose to sit close to Meghan which was across me. I glanced at him and saw that he was completely ignoring me. I could not help but feel sad. Why would he want someone like me? For him it was not like there was a dearth of women. He simply had to press a button and an army will be flocking around him. I tried very hard to control my emotions and listened carefully to whatever the consultants were saying.
They were planning for bug jammers if ever our rooms had bugs and cameras, there was protected phones which no one could hack, there was also a nail polish which they ask me to wear as it could detect poisons in the air and water.
I started to feel something constricting around me as the implications of these gadgets started to sink. As soon as the session was over, I rushed to the washroom as I could not breathe. I tried to splash water on my face, taking deep breaths but nothing was stopping that constricting feeling around me. The more I fought it, the more constraining I felt its grip around me. My panic rose to dangerous levels and in my uncontrolled movements I knocked over some toiletries. The sound was enough to make me go overboard, my breathing became more and more labored as I felt my vision going dimmer.
I was quickly pulled into someone's warmth and I hang tight that person letting his perfume seep into me. I was taken somewhere where I could feel the breeze on my hair. My face was still buried into that person's neck as I took his pulse as my guide. I felt my heartbeat slowing and my breaths becoming longer and deeper. There was a hand caressing my hair and whispering encouraging words into my ears.
As the words and perfume registered into my brain, I knew I was in Emilio's embrace and truth be told I did not want to be anywhere else. I slowly extricate myself from him and then looked down placing my hands next to be and tried to take deep breaths. I did not want to look at him. I needed to get myself under control. He sat there silently waiting for me to come back to normal. After several minutes, I looked at him and thanked him. He simply replied by a welcome and stood. He waited for me to stand up. I did not want him to wait, and I stood immediately regretting my rush action. It was as if my legs did not have life and I wobbled. He placed his steady hands around my waist and asked.
"Are you ok?" There were tears stinging my eyes and I closed them tightly. I did not want him to see my frazzled state. I simply nodded and took support on him to stand. I knew he did not want to talk to me so I would not impose myself on him. I straightened my back as I mustered all my might to stand without toppling over. I started to walk when he called me. So, I turned to face him.
"I know it is too much to assimilate in few days' time Jane. And I am sorry. I wished it could be done with more time." He told me. I looked at him before admitting.
"Emilio, I feel lost. Why do we need so many security details?" He looked over my shoulder staring into a blank space before continuing.