(A/N:very much 18 plus and very gruesome thoughts and stuff just what my dark mind can create)
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Jaune arc pov :
I set the bandit down as he struggles in his slack weird why his chest so big ?.
As I sat down giving look from the cart tent as I give the thumps up to the guys as they carry the dead guy to the village at least from what I heard is his village for a proper burial.
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Why can't I feel anything? Sure I knew emotion well enough but seeing a guy die in front of my eyes should really do something to me sure I did killed grimm and put down animals back at the farm but why I don't give a shit? You know.....
I check the system as I using my thoughts search in debt of it.
Stas still the same still lock on Bloodborne need to get others ways of tech then just you know dealing with eldritch horrors.
Looking at the bandit still squirming and his gag shove down his mouth as I let out a sigh before grabbing the guy and telling him to stay still as I grabbed the gag pulling it out.
"There you go breath now no need and squirm all over the pl-"
"FUCK YOU!" wow big mouth this one
"You know I could just shove this gag back if you like this" as I heard a click from him
"Fine ass hole what you want with me?" He said as I sat down on the cart bench
"Give you to the authorities and knowing frontier villages don't take kindly to bandits you be in a ditch somewhere , your group just did killed someone dad or brother don't really know didn't ask" as I said to the bandits glancing for any too sudden of movement.
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Am I really that hollow? I never did anything like this, sure I was an earth person raise well didn't see guys die in my life time but cutting a man neck should make me feel something I just said to a guy that he be killed and his body be in a ditch
isn't something jaune or ME to do.
I think hard and hard as I close my eyes to focus on the system as I search it I more detail
[EMOTION STATUS: DAMPENED]
-[INSTINCT:QUITE]
-[EMOTIONS:QUITE]
-[OTHER: NOT DEVELOP]
What the absolute hell?!!! That why I'm so calm I literally can't feel fear or my own nature as a person why is it not naturaly on how much does it controlled me does this thing? What does this thing want from m-
"Hey HEY tin can I'm talking here!"
I looked at the bandit as I give a harse glare as he froze.
"Ok sorry someone piss in your coffee or something" he said in a quite tone
As I clenched my fist why does this life already pull shit out of my control it hate that so much you took my emotion and didn't even tell me system!
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It didn't respond as I turn on my instinct and-
"SQUEAK SQUEAK man-you safe safe right now hurt hurt"
Why is there a rat toy and why it taking skaven
(Image)
"SQUEAK thing man man thing hurt you hurt you you kill keep safe-safe you cut neck NECK !" Holy hell it loud as I see is this my body instinct? Why chose the voice and talking style of a skaven and why a rat?
"Man hurt you ! hurt other man-people PEOPLE! kill keep safe keep other safe!" As I felt in the back of my mind now I some reason shee that he FELT the bandit a threat now for some reason.
Weird that I can feel everything now like how my skin to sensitive for my armor how everything about what I'm wearing would be to a normal person meaning not really comfortable sure i made it with my measurements but plate armor aint ment to be worn 24/7 for days if you aint use too it and felt my flight or fight instince back in my body then just numb.
"MAN THREAT ! Can -" I test something as I close it mouth using my mind it let out a surprise squeak and then muffle squeak as i felt my emotion just been silence.
"You are littalry my voice of instinct but why a rat" I thought to my self.
"Um there tin can who you talking too" as I heard the bandit talk as I realized I just said it out loud.
"Nothing.... Anything to talk ?"I asked changing the conversation
"not really you kinda made me stop thinking much but my well death..
.....when you say I be you know...in a ditch don't really know how to react I usually thought I end with just a bolt in my head not captured and get executed less shame that way.... or what my group said he" I saw in the man eyes he didn't really know what too say or react that he gonna die....shit I feel like an asshole now
SQUEAKKKKKKK!!!!
but holy hell the damn rat still squeaking in the back of my mind.
"I could give you a quick death now just a quick slith and I said you killed your self when I wasn't looking sure they won't trust me but won't really care and with how the milita were starting at you they really want you gone" I said with my tone num as I I look in his eyes.
"You can just let me go right ?" He said with a half smile of what seem like a joke but just a gave up as I let out a sigh as I sat down leaning back a bit.
"Before I let you with the milita let .e ask you why you got into banditry?" I ask
"Well anyone desperation i was a lost child raise my self in the wilded with meeting eh groups of outsiders or people got kicked out of towns from what I heard I was a kid... Desperate and all that short of sob story was eating grass just to have something and rely on the groups form here to there" as I lean back as I give him a look why does he look weirdly feminine? Like I noticed when his ass was a big fatter and there something weird at his chest?
"Why didn't get in a village or you know an orphanage " as I he look at me and laugh.
"Oh you fucking fool you think those villages want a wild Born like us in there huh? orphanage and from what I heard most of the wild Born get out just becomes child soliders for the front milia groups " he pause remembering
"heck even just force Labor ain't nobody gonna care of a wild Born no parents or person will take in a wild Born even heck if they a faunus wild Born even more chance that they get actively beaten on the streets! Ha he "
As I see the man laugh as turn from a joking laugh to small sob as I saw the man cry just some tears here and there but he suck himself as up looking up before letting out a breath.
Well shit remnant frontiers are shitter than Though I didn't see that in my village.
"Well there should be some reason why you guys doesn't take in well people? People ain't Inherently that much of monster" I said looking at the man red eyes....why was his eye lashes so long?
"Ay just wild Born just too wild for this soft villages you know kids jumping at sounds or just attacking any kid even if they were doing anything because the sound they making is fucking annoying! Got kids crying are fucking want to drill my ears out , including starting at in the distance don't like talking or just reclusive or just don't fit in with others that why we get kick out " I listen to him as I think and think...
Isn't that just PTSD ? Or heck just trauma does remnant not have therapy well if it like any southern places or just farther out feelings ain't really cared for and being that people constantly die do to grimm.... I could see why there a orphans and wild kid proloms.
As I felt the silence come back to the cart as the bandit look down.
"I'm sorry for the guy" I heard the bandit said not looking up...
Fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk jaune hero instinct and modern instinct are making me want to help him.