2: Since My Life Is Screwed, I'll Become a Molester
"Ah, fuck... I've done this before too..."
A beggar bastard.
Anyone who sees me would definitely say that.
29 years old. Outcast, shut-in, unemployed.
I want to deny it, but this is my reality.
There's only one thing I do all day.
I waste my days looking for updated erotic games.
No matter how much I masturbate, even as I near my thirties, I'm still going strong.
"Why don't they make a game that really moves my heart... one that's killer?!"
I'm a complete idiot.
I know. I really do.
But what am I supposed to do about it?
Yeah. I went to a third-rate university.
There was a clear limit to my brain, and though I studied during my student days, my grades never followed.
So I ended up at a third-rate university. That woke me up.
Because of that, I busted my ass trying to get a job at a good place.
What can a third-rate university grad show off?
Certificates.
It's all about certificates.
I worked myself to death to get every relevant certificate, even more than others.
Even in the army, after returning to school, even with heat rash on my ass!!!!
I studied in the library, eating raw ramen.
The result?
Of course, I passed them all.
I cried my eyes out and graduated from my third-rate university with pretty good grades.
Maybe it was just because the guys next to me were idiots.
Anyway,
I thought only a rosy path awaited me.
But...
"You're from a third-rate university? You're rejected."
Fucking bastards.
They don't even reject you at the document stage, they call you in for an interview just to piss you off.
Fine! Lower your standards and apply.
At those places, the document screening is meaningless.
You get a call just seconds after submitting your application.
When you answer and go to the interview, it's always the same.
"You have a lot of certificates? That means we'd have to pay you extra..."
REJECTED
Fuuuuuuuuuuuck!!!!!!!!!!
What kind of bullshit is that?
This is 100% a true, touching story.
A dogshit life.
But I can't just sit around and do nothing.
I worked manual labor, desperately trying to save up some money.
Someday, there'll be a job for me.
Surely, a dramatic future will unfold for someone who worked as hard as me.
Screw that.
When I finally saved up a bit of money, I hurt my back doing manual labor.
Bad things really do come all at once.
Suddenly, I hear that my mother collapsed.
I spent all the money I'd saved on her surgery and went to see her.
The first thing she said when she saw me:
"My son, thank you. But... where did you get this money? Are you working at a company?"
Fuck.
I lied right away.
I said I got a job. Told her not to worry.
Yeah. Hurting my back and not being able to do manual labor anymore,
And spending all my money those must be chances for me to soar even higher!!
With my mother's blessing, let's go!!!!!
So I started job hunting again!
Put on a suit and went to interviews!!
The result.
Haha, fucking sex.
The same reason every time.
Do you know what happens when a person endures and endures unfairness?
It goes beyond being fucked up you're so empty you laugh, but tears still come out.
Is there a limit to willpower?
Even after that, I scraped together my strength and tried again, but after the same result, reality hit me square in the head.
Well. You don't care about this depressing story, right?
That's just how it was.
Back again to my 3-pyeong study room.
I've been living here since college, supposedly to study, and I'm still stuck here.
If I masturbate a bit too loudly, the guy in the next room hears everything. That kind of place.
I'm playing erotic games on an old computer in a place like this.
"Whew... That bitch. She's so fucking hot."
I'm busy.
I'm raising my excitement gauge, stroking the thighs of the heroine on my monitor.
Excitement: MAX
"Yeah~! This is really killer. Alright~ Let's go for insertion~"
My unwavering taste.
Always chikan (molester) erotic games.
Why am I such a pervert?
Chikan. It's awesome.
A woman that men sneak glances at...
Even in public places.
With the thrill of "if I get caught, I'm screwed," you grope her body.
If you tease her just enough that you might get caught, you see the woman's flustered expression.
Hesitant... restless...
If someone else catches her, she can't even speak, worried she'll be seen as a slut...!
How great is that electrifying expression?
Then, as the woman gets more aroused, she starts breathing sexily and doesn't resist.
You even have secret sex, dodging the gazes of countless horny wolves nearby...!
Ah~~~~!! I want to be a molester.
But in reality, that's absolutely impossible.
Rather than feeling anything from my touch, she'd scream right away, call me a pervert, and I'd get dragged off to jail.
Hmm... Is that why it's even more arousing?
"Ah... I'm getting tired of this game too..."
I've played chikan erotic games dozens of times.
Maybe because people don't like them, there aren't many out there.
I skip the subpar ones, and keep replaying the decent ones, but my dick complains that it's bored.
"Isn't there a chikan god game out there??! I'm holding my breath, fuck."
I literally held my breath, turned on the internet, and wrote a post.
[Isn't there any developer bastard who'll make a chikan god game?]
"My dick's about to explode, so someone just make one, you idiots. Stop wasting time."
Welcome, criminal scum.
Reported, bye lol
Crazy bitch lol, potential criminal bastard.
"These fuckers...! They play even worse shit like mesukaki and whatever..."
I get pissed off over nothing.
As I was stupidly replying to comments, I heard a knock on the door from outside.
Thump thump thump-!!
"Mr. Kim Chi-hwan?"
"Wh... Who are you?!"
A deep man's voice I'd never heard before.
It instantly makes me shrink in fear.
"Could you open the door? Let's talk nicely."
I nervously open the door, and some tattooed thugs barge in.
"Uwaaah??! Who are you?!"
"Are you Mr. Kim Chi-hwan?"
The guy who looks like the boss flops down on my bed and immediately lights a cigarette.
His underling lights it for him, and he takes a deep drag.
"Phew~ We called you before, right? When are you going to pay back the money you borrowed from our company?"
"What?? Ahhh~ I have the money ready!!"
"Where? Let's get it now, then."
"Ah..! I left it at my parents' house...!"
"Sounds like you're trying to pull a fast one... Hey, search the place."
At his word, the underling moves quickly.
The boss continues.
"Did you really leave it at your parents' house?"
"Yes... I really did..!"
Then suddenly, a sound comes from the speakers.
"Haa-♥ Haa-♥ Haa-♥ Iyadaaa!!-♥ (Means 'No')"
The boss looks at my monitor.
"Heh, were you watching porn or something? While you should be paying us back... jerking off. What's this?"
"Ah.. No, that's because of a virus... I'll really get the money from my parents' house right away..!"
"Boss! There's not a single penny here even after searching!"
"Tsk... Phew..! Really? Then Mr. Kim Chi-hwan, write down your parents' address here."
The boss rips a page out of a book in my room and hands me the paper.
"I... I don't have a pen..."
"Just a moment."
Thud-!!
"Uwaaah!!!"
"Did that hurt? I hit you lightly."
Because the boss punched my nose, blood starts pouring out.
As I feel the hot flow and hold my nose, the boss gets annoyed and raises his hand again.
"Hurry up and write. Is it not enough?"
"Ugh... No!! Just a moment!!"
Catching the dripping nosebleed, I hastily scribbled my parents' address.
I thought about lying, but my heart was pounding so hard, I wrote it honestly.
"Hmm. That's pretty far. Sounds like a lie..."
"It's real!! I'm from the countryside...!!"
"Then I'll give you a bit more time. But if you don't pay by then... you know, right?"
"Yes!!!"
"Alright, we're leaving. Oh, make sure to answer if we call."
"Th... Thank you, goodbye!!"
Bang-!!!
As I bow deeply, my head feels blank.
Because I had no job, I couldn't get a loan.
When I asked my parents for allowance, they said, "Why are you asking for money if you're employed?" so we fought, and I turned to loan sharks.
But the collection agent who called was so polite, I thought it'd work out somehow and completely forgot about it.
"Fuck...! It's at least three million won...! How am I supposed to pay that back?!"
Then, another knock at the door.
Trembling with fear, I spoke up.
"Ah... I already told you everything earlier?!"
"Chi-hwan? Open the door..! What's going on..!!"
It's the study room grandma.
Barely calming my pounding heart, I opened the door.
"Hey~~ Chi-hwan, did you do something wrong?! Why are gangsters coming after you?!"
The grandma I've seen for years.
But selfishly, I want to blame someone else.
"Grandma!! You should've stopped people like that from coming up!! What were you doing?! Seriously??!!"
"What... What are you saying?! Am I not a person?! They suddenly asked for you, what was I supposed to do!!"
"Ah!! It's all ruined because of you..! What are you going to do about it?"
"Oh dear~ This is going to kill someone! What the hell did you do!! This is too unsettling. You have to move out today!!"
"What!? What do you mean all of a sudden??"
"I don't care!! Move out today before other people get dragged into this!!"
"No way. Why should I?!"
"Are you serious??!"
Suddenly, the grandma throws my blanket and all my stuff into the hallway.
As I stare in a daze, she tries to throw my computer too, snapping me back to reality.
"No!! Not this!!"
"You leaving or not!!! Get out now!!"
"I'm leaving!!!!!!"
I packed up all my stuff and left the room.
I debated whether to talk to the grandma at the counter, but I had to.
"Grandma..?"
"Leaving now?!"
"But... shouldn't you return my remaining rent?"
"Oh dear~~ I kept it just in case you'd ask!! Here, take it!!"
She throws me an envelope.
Still, I'm so desperate for money that I catch it quickly.
"Thank you, grandma!!"
"Tsk tsk... How did a diligent guy end up like this!! Get lost, you!!"
She even tries to throw her back scratcher at me, so I run away in a panic.
As I step outside, it's broad daylight.
It's been so long since I've felt sunlight, living as a shut-in.
All my stuff in my hands, and the leftover rent just 50,000 won.
My mind shatters.
Feeling like I can't endure anymore, I head straight to the convenience store and buy a bottle of soju.
Even as I pay, my hands are shaking.
Right away, I drink soju straight in an empty lot.
"Argh...! Fuck!!! Fuck!!! I even sold out my parents... you bastard...! Seriously...!"
What should I do.
I have no idea.
I don't even cry, I'm not even sad.
I just truly feel like my life is totally fucked.
...As I get drunk, my thoughts become clear.
Yeah. Let's die.
These days, even loan sharks can't touch the family of the dead, apparently.
So at least I won't be a burden to my parents in the countryside.
Thinking about dying, the computer on my back feels unbearably heavy.
So I immediately take it out and smash it to pieces on the ground.
"Fuck this!!! Seriously!!!!!"
But regret hits me right away.
All the erotic games I've played so far.
I remember all the Easter eggs I unlocked that others couldn't.
"Oh right..! No!! My save... my save files...!"
But even the hard drive is completely shattered.
Even in this situation, I wonder why I'm so obsessed with such things.
"Uwaaaaah!!! Seriously... why am I such a loser...!!"
Let's really die. What a pathetic loser.
But the faces of the heroines from the erotic games keep swirling in my head.
"Sena... Rina... Kaguya, and... Sohee...!!!"
...Most of them are Japanese eroge, but I custom-made and cherished one heroine. Jang Sohee.
A passionate career woman, but she can't resist my molestation such a lovable girl.
"Haa.. fuck..!!! Sohee... I want to see Sohee again!!!!"
If I'm going to die anyway, I want to masturbate to Sohee's image and die.
Until my dick is literally on fire. Get third-degree burns and go straight to another world.
"Really... what a pathetic bastard... sob... sob..."
Now the tears finally come.
Even so, the stupid desire to be a molester keeps rising.
Even if it's pathetic, I'm just so pathetic.
But as time passes, my thoughts become certain.
Molester. I really want to be a molester.
"Sob... Yeah... fuck... If I'm going to die anyway...!"
"Let's try being a molester properly before I die..!!!"