Sometimes I look back
And I just don't know what to say...
You were a blessing in disguise.
You are the one who got away...
And I can't undo what I did,
No, I can only wish I stayed...
I was caught up in her lies
And all the shitty games she played...
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She was taking everything from me
While you wanted to give it all...
But I was so afraid to leave her.
I was too afraid to fall...
And I can't tell you how I wish I had
Just turned and left it all...
You were brandishing your heart for me
So written on the walls...
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I was lost in her.
So lead astray.
So blinded by the words she'd say.
And you were just
So perfect there
That I could hardly look away.
Those halls were filled with children
I still hear them
Till you would walk in.
Then all the noise would fade,
Your bright parade
Was all I needed then.
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I'm sorry.
I was not ready
For the love and life
You had for me...
I'm sorry.
I was so far gone.
That love for her,
It lingered on...
I'm sorry.
I did not step up
And leave her,
I was just so stuck...
I'm sorry.
That I was not better.
I wish that your love
Had just made me forget her...
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Sometimes I think of you
And I hope you're okay.
It's been years,
And I still can remember that day.
We made love just that once,
But it won't go away.
You were captivating
Anyway that you lay.
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Yes, I hope you are happy.
I hope you are loved.
I wish that I could have been
What you dreamed of.
I was just unevolved...
I was just immature...
I was just so afraid
Cause your love was so pure...
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But I missed out,
That's my fault.
You are not to blame.
I just hope that you smile
When you think of my name.
I'm so sorry.