Sitting here on Valentines day.
Things never seemed
So dull,
Oh, so gray...
I can't recall the last time
I said
Those words in order
I cannot say...
The scales are always tipping
On me.
Keep leaning on me.
I had to sway...
You never cared to aid me.
Instead you
Piled it on
Until it would break...
-
I never thought
That it would end like this.
Tried my best
To give you all the stars
I...
Thought that we would
Go the whole distance.
Never thought that I
Would end up with scars...
-
But you knew how to make me sick.
You knew exactly what to do
To make my pieces tick...
And I was blinded by your love
I wanted all of it...
But you would never give me nothing
But your faded shit...
Yeah...
Yeah...
And you knew how to make me sweat...
And I remember all the shit
That you forgot you said.
And all that time, the love I had for you
Was in my head...
Now all the shadows chase me down
And fill me with regret...
-
I would bite
Your gaslight...
I would bite
Your gaslight...
-
Walk around,
I still can see your shadow...
Etched in dust,
Buried in the gravel...
Left me up the creek
Without a paddle...
Shattered all my peaks,
Left me raddled...
I never thought
That you could be so twisted...
Pedestals...
They never felt so lifted...
Tore me down,
I never did feel gifted...
All my inner gears
Are now quite shifted...
-
I never imagined
I'd have to leave.
If I didn't, my loyalty would have killed me...
I never thought
You were cruel and selfish.
I lived by all your rules...
-
And you knew all my secret shit...
You knew exactly what to say
To topple all of it...
And I was never your first pick,
My heart would never fit...
And you just kept on treating me
Like I was fucking shit...
Yeah...
Yeah...
And you knew how to break my head...
And I remember all the shit
That you forgot you said...
I used to see in every color,
Now I just see red...
I can forget you
But I never will fucking forgive...
-
I put out
Your gaslight...
I put out
Your gaslight...
-
I felt like I was never enough.
I hate that I could not call your bluff.
I know that you were just full of fluff.
So cold to me while acting so tough.
I...
Never knew why I deserved to be treated like that...
And you'll never care,
So I'll move on.
I'm all healed from that.