Summary: Finally, he had the one person that can be considered his equal in his grasp, to walk the earth for all eternity together… However, that one kiss destroyed his last hope for sanity as he held her chilling body. There were so many new emotions that were too overwhelming, and he just wanted to get rid of it all. WARNING consist of rape and necrophilia.
Chapter 1 A Loss of Sanity
Zeref's heart was pounding in his ears as he fell to his knees overwhelmed by the despair of the constant reminder of the world shunning him. His body couldn't hold itself together anymore as he broke down sobbing. His heart felt like it could explode with Mavis's confession to not reject him, he thought finally he wasn't alone anymore. That there was someone just like him, finally after nearly three centuries, he would have a companion. He had lean down to kiss her, the urge deep within him craved for this attention. For centuries his soul had been deprived, and he couldn't push it back any further he just wanted to kiss her.
For a split second when they shared that passionate kiss he felt intrigued by the growing warmth that ran throughout his body – he couldn't place this sensation it had been so long since he allowed himself to feel. Then the feeling of dread washed over him as he felt the all too familiar surge of dark energy overpowering the warm sensation. He pulled away from her, tears stream down his face as he watched in horror as Mavis's body became stiff. He could feel her life force draining from her paling body, time seemed to pulse in slow motion as her body fell back, her hand falling away from his face. He kept a strong grip on her before she hit the muddy ground.
Zeref stared at her, he felt himself lose any sense of self control when the multitude of emotions flooded over him. He clutched her closer to his chest, he glared up towards the sky and screamed. He could never get any satisfaction of life, for once he wanted to appreciate life – it was so exhausting to cut himself off from the basic components of humanity. He just wanted to finally let himself go, break down all his barriers – to finally feel human…
Zeref cried into her chest, the emotions were too much to bear, he wasn't used to them. He could feel that warmth feeling slowly disappear – he desperately wanted to keep that warmth – it reminded him of his mortal life, before his village was burned down. Zeref kissed Mavis's cooling lips, he tried to force the warm emotion to take over him.
Zeref brushed her hair out of her face, "I wanted to be myself around you Mavis. I have kept my emotions buried for so long, I never anticipated that you would bring them to all rush back at me. I thought you were immune – I'm so deeply sorry…" Zeref could feel more tears falling down his face onto hers.
Zeref shivered feeling a rush of emotion attacking his body, he breathed heavily as he stared down at her. She looked so beautiful even in her demise… Surrounded by a dark decaying forest, and here she was with her light perishing just like everything else. Zeref's breath hitched as he laid her down, it's a shame for such beauty to be diminished by me… In the back of his mind he felt the urge to preserve her.
Zeref grimace from the eminence of pressure within his abdomen, he stared at her feeling himself grow warmer. Even in death she affected him with this light sensation that pushed away his darkness – he just needed all these emotions to go away… he had to keep them in check before he can move onto other civilizations. He needed to release his bottle up emotions once and for all, staring back at her he slowly moved himself above her. He caresses her cheek, tears stream down his face as he kissed her more roughly.
I wish this would be more passionate, I never intended this. Zeref could feel his body slowly taken by the growing emotions – he never felt so much death magic within him in such a long time. The effect she had on him was clearly present and it pains him that his love for her was much more then she had ever mustered for him. Zeref sighs his eyes ran over her, a darker feeling surfaced from within him the sense of burning retribution. He wanted to show her what love truly looks like, he guessed she was too naïve to understand it – to value the companionship that she took for granted. Her mere comrades were unaffected by the curse, it goes to show that Mavis never truly seen the value of life.
Zeref grins darkly, well Mavis had slowly become aware of the value of life by his revelation of her use of an unperfected Law spell to save Yuri Dreyar. Zeref brushed himself over her cooling body, his eyes gleam with red, his sanity unraveling by the raging emotion of betrayal – she told him she wouldn't reject him, it was a lie. Zeref thoughts fueled his emotional insanity, he glares into her angelic face.
Zeref chuckles to himself holding one hand to his face, to try to seize the emotions but he could feel himself spiraling out of control. Zeref's head felt like it would explode, tears stream down his face as he chuckled again, "Look what you have done to me Mavis. You are making me spiral out of control, there's so much feelings – maybe you can help me one final time." Zeref spread her limp legs before him. He clutched his head, giggling manically, "I need to get rid of these emotions, I'm sure you would understand. I'm a threat to the rest of the world like this."
He breathed heavily as he undid his tunic, the tension below his abdomen was almost too much to bear. Slowly he raised her dress, his eyes gleaming at her petite frame. Zeref leaned over her inhaling her scent from her neck, he positioned himself over her taken in her features. He pushed himself into her, he grunts at the sensation feeling the rising emotions quivering from the interaction. Tears stream down his face as he grinds into her, a sense of self-loathing consumed him as he continues his rhythm when his sanity momentarily came back to him. He hated himself for teaching her magic, hated how she was able to get into the fragments of what was left of his soul, and most of all he hated how her death shattered centuries worth of control.
He never felt this overwhelmed by emotions, the last time he remembered was when he first activated the curse and wiped out the whole Mildian Magic Academy. It took him years to grip himself from the massacre, and it shames him that one mere girl could crumble his centuries worth of constructing walls upon his emotions. His emotion shift to rage on the thought of it, and he quicken his pace making her body jerk and flop on the decaying ground. His eyes glowed red, he worked so hard to protect every living being from him – centuries of mental blocks and seclusion to prepare himself for when he would be face to face with his brother again. All that preparation destroyed, and now he was desperately trying to reseal his emotions.
His rage was fueling his thrusts, he was angry at the dragons that murdered his family, spiraling him to this fate of devastation and death. He cursed Ankhseram for making him into this broken soul, a soul that could barely hold his sanity because of the self-torture of negligence and depression. He was angry because of the false hope of having someone that can understand him, that can ease the suffering of walking this earth alone. Ankhseram had a cruel sense of humor to bring Mavis into his path – to give her the same curse to only give her what Zeref desired the most – death. Why her? Why couldn't it be him that was limp on the ground surrounded by decay? He had lived with this curse for centuries and Mavis merely had it for a few years. How come she couldn't be punished and endure this curse for centuries like him? Does Ankhseram only see him as the sole creature that truly deserved this curse, and made sure he knew it by allowing his curse to overpower Mavis's?
Zeref thrust harder screaming towards the sky – glaring at the sun that merely mocked him with its light and false comforting warmth. Zeref turned his gaze on Mavis, she once held so much light. His dark aura engulfs the perimeter increasing the decaying process of the wilderness, he shifted her to straddle him as he sat up and held her close to him as he inverts into her. Tears threaten to fall from his eyes as his emotions shift to her state, how he had done this to her, and he was still defiling her. "I'm so sorry Mavis." Zeref whispered as he kissed her, brushing away her long hair from her face. Zeref had a distraught thought of losing her light and his body seemed to move on its own desperately riding out the last bits of her light before it fades forever.
He groans feeling himself almost reaching his tipping point, he thrust every bit of emotion into her – his despair, anger, confusion, disgust, and evidently love. Zeref moans into her shoulder as he felt himself release deep inside her entrapping his build up emotions into her empty vessel. Zeref lift her off him and he set her back on the ground. He could feel the walls of his mind entrapping the once fleeing emotions. He smiled bleakly down at her, "Thank you." He stared off into the deafening silence of the forest, lost in thought with his eyes blankly taking in the surrounding.
"I suppose I should return you to your guild." Zeref shift his eyes to the girl on the ground. He chuckled meekly, "At least you have people that value you, who knows maybe this was for the best. If you had found value of their lives you would have been in the same predicament as me – burying dozens of corpses in mass graves wallowing in your own guilt for the demise of your guildmates. I saved you from hardships by putting you out of your misery." Zeref's expression darkened slightly as he picked her up.
"I must thank you again for showing me how much emotional turmoil love can create – I would keep that in mind when I come across my brother." Zeref walked through the forest carrying Mavis with ease. His mind closing off any emotional attachments as he walked further meeting the forest that was untouched by his curse.
Zeref hoped when he sees Natsu again it would finally be the time he can die. However, if Natsu cannot kill him the last shimmer of hope for this world would fall on his hands. He will wipe out every living thing on this planet just to spite Ankseram to force the god's hand to uplift the curse. Zeref hoped it wouldn't come to that conclusion, so the light belief in Natsu's power was the only thing that is keeping this world habitable.
There you have the twisted ideology of how August was conceived. I haven't come across any stories that goes into depth of August's being. Next chapter sheds some light on August's upbringing. Hope this dark Zervis tale brings out another side to this iconic coupling that we haven't seen too much in the show.
Let me know on your thoughts of this twisted factor of Zeref's and Mavis's 'miracle' baby in the comments below.