My body exists in a state somewhere between death and consciousness, slumped at the kitchen table like a puppet with cut strings.
Every muscle aches. My thighs burn. My lower back throbs with a dull, persistent pain that suggests I've done permanent damage to something important. Even my jaw hurts, though I can't remember why. The shower we took an hour ago helped wash away the physical evidence of last night, but it did nothing for the exhaustion that's settled into my bones like concrete.
Shame crashes over me in waves so intense I have to press my palms against the cool wood of the table to ground myself.
I watched another man fuck my wife. Four times. Then I fucked her while she was full of his cum. Multiple times. Until neither of us could move anymore. The memories play on loop behind my eyes, vivid and inescapable.
My cock twitches weakly in my sweatpants, and I want to scream at it for being such a fucking traitor.
Emily hums something cheerful and off-key as she moves around the kitchen, the sound impossibly bright against the weight crushing my chest. She's wearing one of my t-shirts and nothing else, her silver hair still damp from the shower and hanging loose around her shoulders. She looks radiant. Glowing. Like she just had the best night's sleep of her life instead of getting absolutely destroyed for hours.
The domesticity of it makes my brain short-circuit. She's making us lunch. Sandwiches, from the looks of it, arranging ingredients on the counter with the focused attention of someone who actually enjoys this kind of thing. She looks like a cute housewife. Content.
Emily's smile is devastating as she brings the plates over, but instead of setting it across from me like a normal person, she slides into the chair right next to mine. Close enough that our thighs press together. Close enough that I can smell her shampoo.
Her eyes are practically hearts when they find mine, soft and adoring in a way that makes my stomach flip.
"You're feeling bad again, aren't you?" she asks, and there's no judgment in her voice. Just gentle observation.
"Yeah." The word comes out rough, honest.
"Danny." She sets the plate down, her hand finding mine on the table. Her fingers interlace with mine, squeezing gently. "I need to say something, okay?"
My throat closes up. Here it comes. The regret. The realization that last night was too much, that I'm too fucked up, that she can't do this anymore.
"If last night wasn't what you wanted, or if you don't want to do it again, that's completely okay." Her voice is earnest, almost pleading. "I need you to know that. We never have to…"
"Emily…"
"But baby." She cuts me off, and suddenly her cheeks are flushing pink. Actually blushing. "What you did to me last night..."
She trails off, her free hand coming up to touch her face like she's checking if it's really as hot as it feels. The blush deepens, spreading down her neck.
"I've never felt that wanted in my entire life."
The words hit me like a physical blow. She leans in closer, and the expression on her face makes my breath catch. There's something almost obsessive in her eyes, something hungry and desperate and completely unguarded.
"The way you looked at me," she whispers, and her grip on my hand tightens almost painfully. "The way you touched me. Like you'd die if you couldn't have me. Like nothing else in the world mattered except proving I was yours." Her other hand comes up to cup my face, her thumb stroking my cheek. "Danny, last night? That was... consuming."
My heart hammers against my ribs. The shame that was crushing me moments ago shifts, doesn't disappear but transforms into something more complex.
"You made me feel like the most precious thing in existence," Emily continues, her voice cracking slightly. "Even after watching me with him. Especially after watching me with him. You still wanted me that badly. Still needed me that desperately." Her eyes search mine with an intensity that makes me want to look away but I can't. "Do you understand how that feels? To be claimed like that?"
I swallow hard, my throat tight. "But he wasn't better than me?" The question comes out uncertain, almost pleading. "Emily, he was so much bigger than me. His thing..."
Emily waves her hand dismissively, cutting me off mid-sentence. The gesture is so casual it almost makes me laugh despite everything churning in my gut.
"Brian's all surgery, baby," she says, and there's something almost pitying in her voice. "Every inch of him. Not only his dick, even his calves are fake."
The information takes a moment to process. Surgery. Brian's massive cock wasn't natural, it was purchased. Constructed. The knowledge should make me feel better, but it doesn't quite reach the core of what's eating at me.
"He made you cum over and over again," I say, the words tasting bitter. "I watched you. You were..."
"Yeah." Emily interrupts, but her voice is soft. Her hand cups my face, forcing me to meet her eyes. "But Danny, what you did to me? You made me feel like I might transcend."
The word hangs between us, heavy and sacred.
"Transcend," I repeat, testing it on my tongue.
"Yes." Her thumb strokes across my cheekbone with infinite tenderness. "Brian made my body feel good." Her eyes search mine with desperate intensity. "But you, baby? You made my soul feel good. You made me feel like I was the center of the universe. Like I mattered more than air or water or anything else you needed to survive."
My chest tightens, something warm and painful expanding behind my ribs.
"The way you reclaimed me," she continues, her voice dropping to something almost reverent. "It wasn't just fucking, Danny. It was worship. It was devotion. It was love so intense it bordered on violence." Her other hand finds my chest, pressing against my heart. "Brian could never make me feel that. No one could. Only you."
The shame shifts again, cracking at the edges. Not disappearing, but making room for something else. Pride, maybe. Or purpose.
"Really?" The question comes out small, vulnerable.
"Really." Emily leans in, her forehead pressing against mine. "You're mine, Danny. And I'm yours. What we did last night just proved it. Reinforced it. Made it undeniable."
Her lips find mine in a kiss that tastes like promise and possession in equal measure. When she pulls back, her smile is soft and genuine.
"Now eat your sandwich," she says, her tone shifting to something more playful. "You need your strength back."
I pick up the sandwich, and the first bite hits my taste buds like a religious experience. The bread is perfectly toasted, the ingredients layered with actual thought instead of just thrown together. It's simple, but it's perfect in a way that makes my exhausted body wake up slightly.
"This is really good," I manage between bites, and I mean it.
Emily's smile widens, that pleased expression that makes her look almost shy. She watches me eat with obvious satisfaction, like feeding me is somehow as gratifying as anything we did last night.
I swallow, gathering my thoughts as the food settles in my stomach. "I had a lot of fun last night," I say carefully, my eyes fixed on the sandwich instead of her face. "But I don't think I can do it again. Not for a while, at least."
The admission sits heavy between us. I force myself to look up, bracing for disappointment or frustration.
But Emily just shifts closer, her body pressing against mine more firmly. Her hand slides to my thigh, rubbing slow circles through my sweatpants in a way that's comforting rather than sexual.
"Danny, there's no schedule," she says softly, her voice carrying nothing but reassurance. "We can do it whenever we both feel comfortable. No pressure. No expectations."
The tension in my shoulders loosens slightly. I nod, taking another bite of the sandwich to give myself a moment to process. The simplicity of her answer, the complete lack of judgment, makes something in my chest expand.
"You're really easy to talk to," I say, the words coming out more vulnerable than I intended. "About all this. About everything."
Emily's hand moves from my thigh to my face, turning me to look at her. Her blue eyes are soft, tender in a way that makes my throat tight.
"You are too, baby," she murmurs, and her thumb strokes across my cheekbone. "That's why this works. Why we work."
Her lips find mine before I can respond, the kiss soft and sweet and completely at odds with the depravity we shared last night. It tastes like gratitude and promise, like she's sealing something between us that goes beyond words.
I melt into it despite my exhaustion, my hand coming up to cup the back of her neck. The kiss deepens slightly, her tongue sliding past my lips in a gentle exploration that makes my spent cock give an interested twitch. My body's already betraying me again, wanting her despite being completely wrung out.
Emily pulls back with a knowing smile, her eyes tracking down to where I'm sure she can see the stirring in my sweatpants.
"Down, boy," she teases, her hand patting my thigh. "You need at least a day to recover."
Heat floods my face. "I wasn't…"
"You absolutely were." Her laugh is warm, affectionate. "And I love that about you. But seriously, Danny. Rest. Eat. We have all the time in the world."
I nod. "You're right."