The gnawing hunger is his stomach demands he eats, he will try eating it again looking panicked
He won't be able to eat it
He try's again even more nervous
He won't be able to eat it
…he try's over and over again failing each time
Finally he will cover his mouth with his hand to force himself to swallow the wolfs flesh and it works…
Until he vomits once again this time…blood pours out like a waterfall
It won't stop for a minute on end and the pain is excruciating, like literally vomiting his own organs out
Minutes pass and his body grows skinnier and boney until he finally stop vomiting
*cough*
He coughs a lot trying to regain his breath and get rid of the painful and uncomfortable feeling in his neck that reaches all the way down to the pit of his stomach
"W-why can't I eat? Is this body incapable of eating? What kind of fucked up world am I in?" He will ask himself his hands going to his face as if to calm himself
He will look at the pool of blood and crawl away backwards in fear "I-I should be dead after losing that much blood…I don't need to think about that right now…just find something to eat!" He will slap himself and move
He will follow his sense of smell to find berries…he tries eating them and vomits
He try's eating ferns…he vomits
He finds and kills a chicken and tries to cook its leg and eat it
He vomits
Out of desperation he will try eating it raw…it will actually stay in
For two seconds until his body rejects it
He will punch his own stomach is desperation "Just fucking accept something please!" He is practically begging it
He will continue trying to find something he can eat.
Day after day…he hasn't drank water so he doesn't know how he even survived these seven days but he is hungry…
His body controls his every move at this point, it follows a scent to try and eat something…and it's been running for the past seven days.
Boars, hawks, small cats, wolves. Double checking to make sure he can't eat them
And so he wanders, the feeling of hunger overwhelming every though
If one saw him from the outside he would look rabid but without foaming at the mouth
And on the seventh day…three days after his body took over. He smells something
'Is that mom's pancakes?' For the first time in three days he has had a coherent thought
And so he will run… running towards the smell
'I don't care what it is at this point anything will do!'
His running will progress to all fours and make him look like a wolf animal.
As he get closer and closer, each footfall kicking up fist behind him. The scent will grow more and more intoxicating
'This has to be it the one thing my body can eat!' He will think continuing to run
And jumping five meters he will lunge at it biting down on the meal
*Neigh*
He will continue feeding and the taste is euphoric, like a wagyu steak with its own compound butter and a side of mash
Bite after bite the taste is more addicting until he can register something…
'Why is the wind so strong?'
Looking to his left he sees a horse that's pulling a carriage he is on. The wind blowing past his face.
And the horse looks…terrified
He will look to his meal
And there lies a woman with her throat but out and her stomach nearly completely devoured
"W-wait…what…don't tell me I…the only thing I can eat is-"
He will gag and try to throw up over side the carriage…but as much as he was able to before his body refuses to let go of it's prey
"Fucking let it out of my body I-I'm not a cannibal, I'm not a monster. Oh god what have to done this woman probably had a family, maybe even kids. Oh god" tears will slowly drop out of his eyes…but as he processes it more and more will fall
"What kind of fucked up god would interpret my dying wish to be able to live no matter what like this" of course he won't blame himself for his actions
He was controlled by his body
It isn't his fault right?
He didn't really mean that he didn't care what it was to eat right?
As he try's to process what happened he will see a village coming into view beyond the tree line and panicking he will hop out into the bushes right outside town
The carriage will continue on into town parading the woman's defiled corpse like a parade before the horse is stopped by a man wearing a blue martial arts gi
"Whoa calm down" the man will say stopping the horse before grimly taking a loot at the scene
"Some demonic bastard got to her" he will sigh
Two kids playing in the town with a normal looking middle aged man come into view
And when they see the corpse
"Darling?" The middle aged man will ask in shock
But the kids minds will register what happened faster
"MOMMY, MOMMY WHAT HAPPENED. Mommy please say something!" The kids are held back by the martial artist but they just want their mother
The mother that has been taken away from them
The mother he took away from them
Yes from his viewpoint he managed to see the whole interaction
"I'm sorry, im sorry I'm sorry" he will say like a chant…his own red fingers digging into his temple and drawing blood
The only thing keeping him sane is the pain as he continues apologizing to something…
Wether that something is god? The woman? The kids? The father? Himself?
Not even he knows
But even at this distance he can smell her corpse…he is desperate for one more bite before he punches himself
Over and over and over again till that thought disappears…for now