AVELINA
October 20th 2000
I tried not to think about the diagnosis. This could be fixed, right? Or maybe it was a very bad dream I couldn't wake up from.
But the subtle change was real. Dominic didn't say anything but the bodyguard always shadowing me says it all. He is scared I would hurt his daughter.
Braelyn's nursery was moved far away from my room. Far enough I didn't even hear her loud cries anymore. It was a good thing that her cries wouldn't bother me anymore, but the thought that they were keeping my daughter away from me because I was dangerous to her still stung in a way I didn't like.
They don't even let me wander in that direction anymore. Dominic, who always excitedly spoke about Braelyn, never mentions her again. It was like she was systematically erased from my life.
I had no link to Braelyn. I had never held her, not even once, since she was born, nor have I directly breastfed her.
