The day went well, and our shooting for today also ended after a tiring day. I changed my costume and asked Yang Lulu, "When is your marriage?"
She smiled shyly and replied, "Next month."
"Ooo wow, congratulations! Don't forget to invite me," I said.
Then we both reached the main exit door.
"Okay, then I'm leaving," Yang Lulu said.
"Okay, bye-bye," I replied while waving my hand.
I also started moving, but suddenly he came, held my hand, and took me with him.
"Come with me," he said.
He made me sit in the passenger seat, and then he sat in the driver's seat.
"Xu Yuan, don't you need to go to the award show?" I asked him.
"Leave all this. I need to talk to you about something," he said, looking so nervous. I had never seen him like this before.
"Yes, say what you want to say. I am here."
He took a deep, long breath before saying anything. Then he closed his eyes for a while and said,
"Why did you say yesterday that I can't be with you because I have a girlfriend?"
I looked down for a while and said, "Because you do have one."
He exhaled sharply and asked, "Who told you?"
"I have seen it with my own eyes. She is the only girl who appears on your Weibo account, and there are many videos of both of you together. I know you love her like hell." Tears started forming in my eyes.
"Please don't push me, Xu Yuan. I am getting hurt while saying all this. Please."
"Okay, okay, relax," he said. He put one hand on my back and gently massaged it to calm me.
"Breathe with me. Relax. Why are you so sensitive, my silly girl?"
He pressed his forehead against mine.
"My silly girl," I repeated.
He cupped my face with both hands and said,
"Yes, my silly girl. Always mine. Since the day you were born on this earth, you are mine—mine to protect, mine to look after, and above all, mine to love."
"But your girlfriend," I said.
"Stop this rubbish. We broke up a long time ago. Yes, I did have a girlfriend, I won't deny it, but we are no longer together. She is not anywhere—nowhere."
"Everyone has a past. Didn't you have one? Oh, sorry, I forgot. I take my words back. Since birth, you are mine," he said, and kissed my cheek.
"Xu Yuan, please don't do this. I am overwhelmed. Please don't. Your love… I have craved your love for so long. I can't—don't do this to me, Xu Yuan."
My breathing became uneven. He hugged me tightly and said,
"Be with me, my silly girl. I am not overwhelming you. I am just expressing something I have been holding back for so long."
One of his hands was on my back and the other on my head, trying to calm me.
"Why, and how can you love me so much, you silly girl?" he asked.
I broke the hug, looked into his eyes, and finally said,
"Who told you I love you?"
His expression changed slightly after hearing this.
Then I continued,
"I have never loved you. wo chongbai ni (I worshipped you). Love is a very small word in front of my worship for you."
"No, no, please don't say such things. I don't even deserve it. I am just a normal human being," he said and hugged me again.
"I am just stating the facts, Xu Yuan—just stating the facts. And I am a normal, ordinary girl. You don't need to be with me. I don't deserve you."
He cupped my face, looked straight into my eyes, and said,
"Don't you dare say that my silly girl is ordinary, because she doesn't even know how extraordinary she is."
I asked him while crying, "How? Tell me. I want to know."
"I am not good at expressing, but just hear this—'Zhao Shiza's beauty lies in the eyes of Xu Yuan.'"
I laughed and hit him lightly on the arm.
"You are so dramatic," I said.
He smiled and replied, "From now onwards, I will worship you back."
He hugged me tightly again and thought to himself, How can this silly girl love me like this? She didn't even think of anything—she just worshipped me. Do I deserve her worship? I don't know anything, but I just want to hold her here, right in my arms, always and forever.
Then he kissed my forehead.
We both cried. We expressed something we had been hiding from each other for so long. Today, our hearts felt lighter, free from a burden carried for ages. Maybe this is how love—no, worship—looks.
Today, our hearts beat in the same sync, we breathed the same air, and loving Xu Yuan became the best thing Zhao Shiza ever did in her lifetime...