Yuan's hands touched mine and then everything just started feeling all right for me. Yes, I am in my unconscious state, but still I can recognise my Yuan's touch, as it's his touch that makes me feel safe, that I am okay, nothing bad is gonna happen to me, nothing. These thoughts kept on going and going in my mind.
Please wake up my silly girl, what did you do to yourself, just look at you lying down so pale, motionless here, how could you even think to do this with me hmm, Yuan asked me while holding my hands in his. I am not able to reply to him, but still, still I can hear him, his voice reaches my Mr heart and I want to say to him that Yuan please don't cry, please don't, I am okay, I am totally alright, there is nothing to worry about me, just relax, but I can't, I really can't, no one knows how much helpless I am feeling just right now.
Stop it Xu Yuan, Ji Juan said it to him in quite an ordering tone, she needs rest, I'll call the doctor. Ji Juan takes out his phone from his pocket and dials the phone number of a doctor. After talking to that doctor for a minute he hangs up that call and said doctor will be here within half an hour.
But Yuan is just seeing my face while holding my hands in his like a silent prayer he is doing, his eyes started forming tears but those tears didn't fall like they are scared that if they fall then it will disturb me. The half an hour has passed, the doctor has arrived.
Hello Mr Qi, Ji Juan said it to the doctor.
The moment doctor enters the room he saw Yuan and immediately recognised him and got shocked after seeing him and me both and said you again to Yuan, but Yuan didn't even turn around, just like he is not getting affected whatever is happening around him.
But Ji Juan does, he gets a little shocked after doctor Qi recognised Yuan and he asked doctor Qi that do you know him, I mean are you his family doctor or something.
No no it's not like that, we just knew each other from a month, just two months ago Mr Xu Yuan met with a car accident, not a huge one, just a small car accident, that accident didn't cause any damage to him but this girl just taking the whole hospital in her hands and she was just just I can't even tell you, she was taking the whole hospital in her hands at that time, even she was fighting with me at that time, but then after seeing her doing all things on that day I just realised that this is how it looks like.
Ji Juan gets a little frustrated after hearing doctor Qi's words and he said doctor Qi please check her she needs it.
Yes yes of course, doctor Qi said it to him and came forward to check me.
But Yuan is blocking his view so he goes to another side of the bed to check on me as he knows very well that Yuan is not gonna move from here so doctor Qi didn't even ask him to move, he just changed his side. Then doctor Qi holds my hands, checks my eyes and forehead. After checking me for a few minutes he said she is weak from inside, extreme exhaustion her body lets her have this much high fever, her body didn't rest properly, no proper sleep, yes no nutrition, is she doing dieting.
Ji Juan said yes she is.
Then that's why also, she is already very weak from inside and maybe her dieting and exercise makes it worse as she is not eating properly, just ask her to eat the food properly, I am not saying to eat junk foods but at least eat the nutritious food that her body requires, she needs proper food, proper means proper nutritious food, tell her that it won't affect her dieting schedule and also that eating nutritious and healthy food doesn't cause fat in her, it only builds her immune system and gives her enough strength in her body.
Now I am leaving, she'll be fine after a few hours, just place a cold cloth on her head for a few times, her head is burning, her fever will eventually get down after applying it on her head, doctor Qi said it before leaving from here.
But do we need to give any medication to her, I mean any kind of medicine, Ji Juan asked him.
No, you have already given her the syrup for fever that you have already told me in our phone call, so no need for that, don't worry her fever will get down after a few hours, there is nothing to worry about it, doctor Qi said it to Ji Juan, but he is saying this while seeing Yuan, just like he is indirectly saying these words to Yuan.
Doctor Qi patted the shoulder of Yuan before going out from the room and said don't worry child she'll be alright and then he leaves the room.
The room went quite silent. Ji Juan walked out from the room to get that cloth and cold water to place it on my head, so he went out from the room. Now the room is so silent, there is only the sound of my breathing and him like he is counting that breathing of mine that I am breathing properly or not.
Then finally Yuan lets his tears roll down from his eyes uncontrollably and said why, why did you do this with yourself, you think about others so much but who will think about you, tell me who, he asked me and kissed my hand which he is holding for hours in his hands.
Aren't we supposed to go out to have a good meal together, then why are you lying on the bed, just get up, get up come with me.
I frowned my eyebrows a little after hearing all this because only Yuan can make it happen, making me feel his presence even in my unconscious state, as he is my consciousness in my unconscious state.
See didn't you say you wanna look the most prettiest version of yourself, then why didn't you get yourself ready properly hmm tell me why didn't you, he asked me.
Then hours have passed and Yuan just slept right there holding my hand in his, his face on the bed and him sitting on the cold floor, he didn't even realise when he drifted off in that sleep, but after the hours when he opened his eyes slowly he sees me already staring at him with my big eyes and smiling shamelessly while sitting on the bed.
You, when did you wake up, are you really alright, how are you feeling right now, should I call the doctor or—
But I hold his hand a bit tighter and said, Yuan be relaxed I am totally fine, I said it to him.
Totally fine, do you really have the guts to say that after having high fever just a few hours before, do you really have the guts to say all these things, Yuan said it to me.
I took a deep breath and said Yuan it happened about an hour ago, you don't need to talk about it, the only thing that matters is that right now I am feeling good and my fever also got down so we can go out to have our meal together like we have planned, I said it.
No we are not going anywhere and you are taking proper rest today, tomorrow we need to resume our shooting schedule and then your body will get more tired after that, he said it.
I gave my dramatic expression to him and said please Yuan please can't we go out.
Stop making me fall for your plan while making these puppy eyes in front of me, it's really not gonna work, he said it.
Did it really not gonna work, I asked him.
No it's really not, he said it very clearly.
Ok fine then I am not wasting it, I said it.
You should better not, and from now onwards you should eat properly and I am personally keeping an eye on your diet, whatever you are eating, he said.
I am not a five year old baby, I said it.
Then stop behaving like that one if you are not, he said.
I am not, it's just it's just you are having some special lenses fitted in your eyes that sees me in that particular way, I said it while folding my arms.
When you'll stop behaving like that then I'll see you as big girl but right now you are not eligible for that, he said it.
And tell me why are you doing this much strict dieting and workout, do you know that your body gets so weak from inside, it needs proper nutritious food and you are not letting it have this, can you answer me this why just why, he asked me.
I looked down at myself and said in my tiny little voice that I just didn't want that when you carry me on your back you don't feel any weight because I have seen you carrying other co-actresses of yours on your back, they are so fit and lean, I didn't want myself to be a burden on you and that's why I did all this, that whenever my Yuan carries me he doesn't feel any weight on him.
He laughed a little, you are just like your name, he said it.
How, I asked him.
Silly girl, he said it, what do you think about me, am I that weak that I won't be able to handle your weight, you know what I can carry you with just my one hand, you are just one-hand thing.
He makes me a little bit shy with his words and then I said…