My whole beign has not been that easy to cope with. Sitting here by the window watching the trees outside wave as the wind blows through their branches. I am really sad that i won't get to see this ever again.
Hi, sorry that you had to read this emotional part of me, but lately, nothing seems to go well. My name is "MARA" and Yes as my name implies everything about me is bitter.
This bitterness is not something i want to feel, i yern to feel something different, i yern to feel a spark of change in this life of bitterness and pain i am into.
Lately things have fallen apart so drastically, my mother passes away 3years ago due to a terminal cancer of the brain. We didn't diagnose it fast and it was too late for us to do anything when she passed out and the doctors told us. We knew things were going to change.
Mara's POV (3 years ago)
I was left with my kid brother, i was just 15 years old and him 8 years old. Our sad locked himself up for over a month, so i was the one doing everything for i and my brother, stressing and crying to my dad to come out.
So one day while i was doing the laundry outside, i dont know what happened next but i passedout and all i could hear was my brother crying and calling my name...
I thought it was the end for me, i thought i was finally meeting my mum.
"Mum, i am coming to you" i said with my fait voice, i could here my little brother screaming and crying calling my name.
"Mariu...
"Dad, it's Mara she fainted"
"Oh non, not again, not you Mara."
They hurried her to the hospital. Where the doctors asked a séries of questions:
"Has she been stressing a lot these days?
Has she been skeeping meals? Has she been straining herself alors lately?" But her father couldn't answer since je himself was not aware of anything concerning her lately. (Oh sorry i had to come in. Mara's POV ended as she had passed out).
"Doctor, i really can't tell, we lost her mother few months ago and it has not been easy for all of us"
"Your daughter is suffering from sivere anemia, and she has to be really well taken care of"
"Ok doctor i will, i will do all you say, i dont want to loose my daughter, she is my first baby and reminds me so much of her mother, loosing her also will means loosing everything i have"
" No daddy, Mara will be fine, she will no go to heaven yet, mummy will not want that"
"Oh Marius, (carries him up) you are so young, you cannot understand yet, but yes your mother would never allow you sister to come now" "Doctor please write down all that which is necessary and i will do as you say..
"Very well sir, follow me to my office".
Few hours later::
Mara's POV :
I woke up on a hospital bed, with a drip and by my side i saw my dad and my brother sleeping, seems they were pretty exhausted. I felt so weird, i was so weak and my body was so nomb... I was trying to move but ended up waking my dad..
"Oh my little princess, how are you feeling? Do you need anything, food, water, sweet, anything ?"
"No dad i am fine, i am just weak and i need rest"
"Well then but if you need anything, tell me okay"
"Okay, daddy"...