Two and a half hours later, Fel was, like I predicted, pissed.
He went on and on about how long he had to wait in this gods forsaken place, blah bla blah, guachos everywhere, blah, smell of cows, bla, arm pits, blah.
The moment I saw a rest pitt at the top of a hill with a very nice mirador, i parked my midlife crisis and ran off to get some air.
I was NOT hyperventilating, I was not that weak kid again, anymore I mean.
I don't even know how long I been there trying to force air into my lungs, but it wasn't working, not until I felt his arms wrapped around me, his chest pushing on my back, his breath on the back of my neck "breath, love, breath"
I was not crying, really I wasn't, no yet anyway, but any minute.
I grabbed his hands, I felt his warmth "fuuuu... I can not keep going on like this" I can't even take breath or think, I turn around and got lost in those beautiful gigantic cat like eyes "I don't want to go back to that viper's nest"
"I see the village has changed its name again, what happened dear"
"It's not really a village you know? I just call it that to be an asshole"
"Aw honeybum" he put his hand on the side of my head and I start caressing his palm with my cheek, because apparently I turned into a horny cat "what happened?"
I don't really want to talk right now, and of course he knows me better than anyone, so he just hugs me tight.
I rest my chin on his head. I don't know how he doesn't realize how we are made for each other.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not a corny dude... I hate corny, and since I told him that ages ago, he always goes corny on my ass, and that only makes me love him even more. Fuck I don't wanna cry.
He starts peppering my face with kisses, every where except where I really want to.
I am scared shitless of doing something that will ruin our friendship, he is everything I've got, if I lose him I'm done, he is my only family, and vice versa... Could he be feeling the same?
I just know that something has to change.
So the second he stopped kissing me, I go for it, I go for the lips, but he just stays there, he doesn't move, he doesn't open, he doesn't breath. I press on the hug, he lets him self get closer but he doesn't move beyond that, he is not even hugging me back.
Fuck.
I let go and, turned around, I think he is saying something, but I just hear a buzz on my ears. I think I'm gonna pass out.
He grabs my face and force me to look at him "do you hear me?" He finished whatever he was saying, not angry, but forceful, he is always forceful, my man, this petit cutie patootie is the strongest man that has ever lived, I will be lost without him. Fuck I probably would have been dead without him.
"I'm sorry, did you say something?"
"Do not joke with me right now" he said while smacking at my shoulder, he is such a cutie.
"Hold on, really, no joke here" deep breath deep breath "I'm sorry, I really wasn't listening"
He looks, kind of like I feel.
He pushes his shoulders back in his famous bad bitch pose, he's ready to lash out, but he lets go, which means that he's not killing me, I'll just wish he would.
"Look, I know you're having the worst kind of day, but you can not kiss me like that... Never... I'm not some cheap whore you can use for stress relief whenever you feel like it"
"What da... Do you... You really think I would... STRESS RELIEF???" deep breath, voice down, deep breath "you're not stress relief Fel," I am hissing "you are the cause of most of my fucking stress Fel, I know you see me as this kind of annoying little brother, but are you really so fucking blind??? I'VE BEEN IN LOVE WITH YOU FOR THE LAS TWENTY FUCKING YEA" hump, and he was hanging from my neck, kissing me like I always dreamed off. I hug him by his waist and bring him as close as humanly possible, and this is everything, this is everything that I always wanted