I always knew, somewhere deep inside me, that there might come a day when we wouldn't be together anymore. Not because I wanted it, not because I ever imagined it clearlybut because life has a way of changing things we once believed were permanent. Still, even with that thought lingering quietly in the background, I never accepted it. The only way I could ever truly accept being apart from you is if it was something beyond our control… something final, like death itself. Because anything elsedistance, misunderstandings, mistakes, or even the smallest cracks between usfeels like something we could fight through, something we should fight through.
Even when people try to come between us, even when situations pull us in different directions, or when the tiniest things slowly build up and go unnoticed by both of us… I want you to know one thing clearly. I will always love you. Not in a temporary way, not in a "right now" kind of feeling, but in a way that stays, that lingers, that exists quietly even when everything else feels uncertain. My love for you isn't perfect, and I know I haven't always shown it in the best ways. Sometimes my actions have made me seem like someone I'm not, someone unlikable, someone who doesn't deserve youand for that, I am truly sorry.
I hate that I've been the reason for any doubt in your heart. I hate that my mistakes may have made you question what we have, or what I feel. Because the truth is, I've never stopped wanting you, never stopped choosing you, even when I didn't express it the way I should have. If I could go back and undo those moments, I would. If I could rewrite every mistake into something better, I would. But all I can do now is stand here with honesty and tell you that I'm willing to change, to grow, to become someone who doesn't just love you in words, but proves it in every action.
I've always imagined myself as something simple in your lifelike the moon. Not the center, not the one everything depends on, but something that quietly revolves around you, always there, always present. Because to me, you are the earth. You are my world, the place where everything I feel is grounded, where everything makes sense. Even when things feel chaotic, even when I don't understand myself fully, you are the one constant that I keep coming back to.
And maybe it sounds a little unrealistic, maybe even childish, but I don't care. Even though I don't believe in God, even though I don't hold onto ideas of destiny or fate in a traditional way… I still find myself wishing for something beyond this life. I want us in every lifetime. I want us in different worlds, different stories, different versions of reality. I've watched so many anime, read so many stories where love crosses time, space, and even death itselfand I don't just want to watch that kind of love. I want to live it with you.
I want to go on adventures with you. Not just the big, dramatic ones, but the small ones toothe quiet moments, the late-night talks, the random laughter, the memories that don't seem important at first but stay with us forever. I want to build something with you that feels like a story worth telling, even if no one else ever hears it. And yeah… maybe it sounds cringe. Maybe it sounds like something straight out of a fantasy or a dream. But I don't care, because when it comes to you, I'd rather be honest and vulnerable than pretend to be something I'm not.
All I really want… is for you to love me. Not perfectly, not endlessly without flaws, but genuinely. I don't need anything extravagant, I don't need grand gestures or constant reassurance. Just knowing that you choose me, that you feel something real for methat's enough. That's more than enough.
Thank you for being in my life. Thank you for the moments we've shared, the memories we've created, and even the struggles that have tested us. Because all of it, every single part, has meaning to me. You have meaning to me.
And no matter what happens, no matter where life takes us, no matter how things change… I will always carry this love for you.
I love you.