Diary of a psychopath killer
Saturday, 13/2, 2019~
The date on the top of the page isn't the date today. But it's the date that Serena told me to start from.
[The handwriting is neat, perfectly in the lines, and the paper is spotless]
I didn't remember today after it happened, but it started coming back to me nine weeks ago. Today is the day I killed Mina Drone.
I also forgot about Mina after today. All my memories from before the incident were gone until last December, 2023.
I killed Mina Drone because she was nice to me. I'm not a psychopath, even though that's what the doctors say. The reason I killed her was because I loved her, at least, my 10 year old mind thought so. I don't know if I really did, because she obviously isn't alive anymore, haha.
The doctors just said to keep it professional. They said I'm writing this as a coping mechanism, but it's really supposed to be a confession. They didn't tell me that, though, because they think I won't write it if I know that, which is funny. Because I know, and I'm still writing it. Anyway, since this is the first 'entry' of my 'diary', here you go; Dear Diary, I killed a girl five years ago.
I don't feel like writing anymore, so I'll pick this up again later I guess.
Wednesday, 11/2 2024~
Dear confessional,
Ha, you like the new starting thing? Since the doctors won't read this till I'm done, I thought I would leave some clues so it's like a puzzle.
Today, Serena said to write about my relationship with Mina, which I said I didn't want to do but Serena said I had to. So. I guess I have to.
Mina was also 10 when I was, and she was in my class. But I didn't really like her. She was friends with everyone, and that included people I didn't like, like Tony Williams. But rather than her being nice to everyone like she would when people are watching, she was mean. But since being mean is interesting, everyone stayed friends with her. That made me like her a little more.
Oh, also, Mina isn't the only person this confessional is about. The other person is Mina's friend, Harley Lione. But I didn't kill Harley.
Since I always thought cliffhangers were fun, I guess I'll try it out, even though this is more of a continuous thing, so whoever reads this can just go to the next entry.
Thursday, 12/2, 2024~
Dear confessional
I also forgot one other thing. Even though I started this off with the original date of when I killed Mina, Serena told me to change it to the current day, so I did. I like Serena, sort of.
It's pretty annoying that I have to write this by hand, since apparently I'm not allowed to use electronics. But still, my hand always hurts like hell by the end of it, even though the entries are short.
So Harley was Mina's friend, but, like everyone, Mina was rude to her. I didn't have any issues with Harley since she was someone I barely noticed, but it turned out she noticed me. But not in a crush kind of way. Harley noticed me because she sat behind me, so I guess she always had to look at me. Harley really hates me for some reason. Well, I guess hated now since she's dead. But anyway, one time I got mad at her, always glaring at me, so I hit her.
The school got really mad at me because I hit a girl but I don't get it because she's just Harley, who cares if she was a girl, a boy or a dinosaur. Haha that's pretty funny to think about. I used that because I read it somewhere, I can't remember though. I always associated it with my situation, though.
Oh, right. Tomorrow is the fifth anniversary of the day I killed Mina.
Whatever, my hand is tired now.
Monday, 16/2, 2024~
A few days ago, on the 13th, I told Serena about how it's the anniversary of the day I both became a murderer and lost my memories, which is a pretty important day, but Serena said to not say that.
Oh right, Dear confessional,
So yeah, I didn't want to write for the past few days and Serena said that was a good idea because I should be getting over my psychological trauma. My hand didn't hurt but today it'll hurt again I guess, which is annoying.
Serena said to keep writing about Harley. Harley was Mina's best friend, which I've written already. She and Mina weren't really that nice to each other, but I don't know. Last time, I ended on how I hit Harley, which I'll keep going about I guess. I hit her because she hated me a lot, which Serena said didn't make sense. But still, it makes sense to me, so how else am I supposed to explain it? Whatever. My hand's hurting again but I'll keep writing a little longer cause this is getting to the interesting part.
So pretty much, Mina killed Harley.
I didn't like Harley and she liked me even less after I hit her. Her parents tried to get me in a lot of trouble for hitting her but the principal only gave me a detention. Then Harley also got a detention for something I can't really remember.
Mina got really mad at Harley for some reason I guess I'll never know because they're both dead, haha. I was in a detention and so was Harley, and it was just us there. Then Mina came in all angry. The teacher wasn't there cause he was getting something I'm pretty sure. Mina grabbed Harley by the throat and strangled her while yelling something about me. I didn't really listen. Or maybe that memory isn't back yet. My memory isn't perfect, is what the doctors said. I guess if anything comes to me later I'll add it in.
Arghhh my hand hurts so fuck this I'll keep going later.
Wednesday, 18/2, 2024~
Dear confessional
Mina killed Harley while in detention. She left the body on the floor while she ran out the window. She was crying, but I can't remember why.
When the teacher got back he called the police and grabbed me. He was really pale and he was shaking. I was pretty scared. [Handwriting grows more jagged and messy, as if shaken]
The police said how I was getting arrested for killing her, and I said it wasn't me. They didn't believe me, so I said I'd prove it and left. They got really mad for leaving the house while under house arrest but they couldn't find me since I was hiding.
Because I saw Mina kill Harley, I thought I could ask her about it, but she wasn't at her house. So then I was really confused because how could I know where she was but then Mina's sister came up to me saying how she needed me to go get Mina and that she knew where she was.
Mina was on this mountain near the top. Apparently, she always went up there, which was really stupid and so I thought maybe she was killing herself. When I got up there, Mina was just standing there looking sad and I went over and told her to tell the police I didn't kill Harley.
Mina got all upset, started crying all over me. But I don't remember what she said. Serena said to wait until it comes back to me and write it then, because it's 'vital information'.
Tuesday, 3/3, 2024~
Dear confessional
It's been a while, I guess, but I didn't feel like writing. Then Serena told me to write about how I escaped house arrest, since she said it was unbelievable.
For a while, I didn't remember but yesterday some of my memories were recovered through the treatment, and this was one of them.
It's only really a little bit of the memory so I don't know much, but I remember climbing up to the roof from the bathroom window on the second floor. On the roof, I went over to the side of the house with no police, the one facing the forest.
I dropped from the roof and it really hurt so I lay there for a bit and was all confused. When I got up, I didn't really have any clue about what I was doing so I just kind of walked into the forest until I had some idea of where to go to find Mina's house.
So yeah, this entry's pretty short.
Thursday, 5/3, 2024
Dear confessional
Serena said I have to write it if I remember, even though I didn't want to. So now I remember some more of whatever happened on the mountain.
[Handwriting became shaky during this sentence]
I remember how I looked at Mina and thought I liked her because of something I can't remember. Serena said that so far, I'm showing signs of obsessive disorder or whatever she called it, which is dumb. I wasn't obsessed with Mina.
I didn't kill Mina on that night, though.
We, me and Mina, I mean, went into the forest since neither of us wanted to get arrested. She said there was a little cabin place we could go before we left the town.
In the cabin, which was really small, we stayed there for a while, I think it was nine days, while the police looked for us. Afterwards, I found out that Mina's sister said we committed suicide at the cliff, and that our bodies were washed away in the water. I dunno why she told them that.
We had a little bit of food but then on the ninth day, my food smelled really strange so I fed it to a mouse just to test it and the rat died, so I guess it was poisoned. I didn't ask Mina about it for some reason, though, even though she was the one who made the food.
The tenth day, which was the last day we stayed in the cabin, I remember only one thing. Mina kissed me.
Damn, my hand is getting really sore.
Friday, 6/3, 2024~
Dear confessional
I finally remembered when I killed Mina, which Serena said to write down. My head really hurts since there were a lot of memories that came back.
[Handwriting is slightly less precise, increases the likelihood of this claim]
On the tenth day, after Mina kissed me, I felt alright, I guess. I thought she was pretty and stuff, I dunno. Then I told her to come with me and we went up to the mountain place. There was a police officer up there so after we waited for him to go home, it was dark.
Up on the mountain, I told Mina that I really liked her and that I also wanted to know why she tried to poison me. She said she didn't know why and that she also really liked me.
I got pretty mad, started yelling. Mina pushed me, saying how she'd kill herself and jump off the cliff if I didn't stop. Since I didn't really care, I kept yelling but for some reason she didn't kill herself so maybe it was just a bluff or something.
Then since I thought that, if she said she'd kill herself, she wouldn't mind dying. That's when I came up with an idea about how I could clear my name. Since Mina killed Harley, it would make sense for her to kill herself.
When I pushed her over to the cliff edge, she started crying and scratched up my arms real bad. Before she fell, she started saying something. But again, I don't remember what it was. The doctors say it's because the main memories that were lost are audio-related, and that they'll come back to me eventually.
Basically, when I was pushing her over, she grabbed me and pulled me down too.
I guess I'll end this here since I have to meet with Serena now.
Dear confessional
[Written on separate paper which has been compiled along with the diary]
This is the day after I wrote my last entry, but I forgot the date. I aren't writing this on the diary anymore, though, since it was taken away after that.
When I finished the last part and showed Serena, she gasped, got scared and called in the guards outside. I don't really know why, but they grabbed me and shoved me into a separate cell, not the ward I was in before.
When I asked for a pencil and some paper, they only agreed to giving me a texta. Maybe they thought if I had something sharp, I'd kill myself? I don't really know.
Even though I don't really have to anymore, I like writing in the diary, since I also wanna know what happened back then and this helps.
I'll keep writing tomorrow maybe. Also, my hand hurts less when I write now. I guess I got used to it.
Dear confessional
I'm writing this five days later from the earlier entry. Today I talked with Serena but it wasn't at the table anymore. This time, she was behind glass and there were guards next to me. She explained to me how my last diary entry was a solid confession, and that I had no choice but to plead guilty.
I got really mad because Serena wasn't acting like Serena anymore, she was acting like doctors did. I don't like Serena.
I asked if she wanted to read the rest of the story and she said no, but to give it to the guards for analysis. I said no, and Serena said I had to. Then I started banging on the glass and it hurt my hands. So now my hand hurts while I'm writing this. Anyway, the guards took the written-on paper and gave me blank pages instead.
They kept going with my treatment and now the audio's starting to come back, which is good. I remember about what Mina said when she killed Harley. I'm not sure how else to write it, so here is it, word for word.
"What's wrong with you, you stupid bitch? I thought I told you to stop going after him. I hate you. Didn't you hear what I said? What, are you gonna die now? Good. Maybe you'll learn your place."
That's exactly what I remember from that day.
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Police report: dated 13/2, 2024~
Under questioning, offender was mostly responsive until the end, the conversation going as so:
Q: "Do you know that you killed Mina Drone?"
A: "Yeah?"
Q: "And that since she's dead, you're going to be in prison for a very long time?"
A: "Is this all the questions?"
Q: "Please answer the question."
A: "Tell me!"
Q: "Please answer the question."
A: "Fine, alright, yes, I know that. I aren't stupid."
Q: "Are you aware of the fact that Mina, the girl of whose life you cut short, was only ten?"
A: "Obviously. We were the same age."
Q: "And did you commit this act in self defense?"
A: "Sort of? More self preservation I guess."
Q: "Were you in danger because of this individual?"
A: "Not really."
Q: "Can you recall what Mina Drone said prior to her death?"
A: "Yeah."
Q: "Are you willing to tell me?"
A: "No."
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Police questioning under lie detection, dated 16,2, 2024~
Q: "Hello. I'm going to be your questioner for today. Do you understand?"
A: "Yeah, I guess." [True]
Q: "Did Mina's words on the mountain, the first time, have any meaning to you?"
A: "No." [Lie]
Q: "I'm going to repeat the question. Did Mina's words–"
A: "What the heck, what's even the point? You know the answer I'm wearing a fucking lie detector." [True]
Q: "Alright. Would you like to proceed to the next question?"
A: "Whatever." [True]
Q: "What did Mina say to you on the mountain during the first situation?"
A: "Not telling." [True]
Q: "What did Mina say to you on the mountain during the first situation?"
A: "She said 'fuck you' and 'get lost' and 'I'm not gonna tell you anthing'." [Lie]
Conclusion: After this answer, the subject stayed silent throughout the rest of the questioning, with the exception of one final question.
Q: "Was everything written in the diary true?"
A: "Yes." [True]
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Police report, issued 23/3, 2024~
At 7:01 AM, inmate 701 committed suicide through the slitting of his own wrist, using the rust on the cell bars.
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Police report, issued 3/12, 2024~
The late Thomas Briar, inmate 701– subject of case reopen: recovered voice message, recorded on, the victim, Mina Drone's iphone.
"This is Thomas Briar. I'm gonna tell you exactly what happened on this mountain."
[Voice shaky, breaking]
"I killed Mina Drone because I thought it would help, but now I don't think it will. Even though she tried to grab me and pull me down too, I-I caught myself before falling by grabbing the bench leg and getting back up. The reason I'm recording this is because I like diaries and I like recording the things I do. But soon, I'm not gonna be able to do this. So here is everything.
Mina, on the mountain, said that she killed Harley because she had a crush on me even though Mina told her not to. When I hit Harley, Mina got mad, b-but I don't know why she was angry at Harley instead of me. When Harley died, she was saying how o-only she could like me and that Harley had to stay away. That was because, when I was in detention, Harley, Harley also got a detention so she would have the detention w-with me.
O-on the mountain, Mina told me how she likes me and that we should run away together, because if she went back, they'd arrest her and we'd be apart. That seemed like a- shaky laugh- a pretty good idea at the time, so we-we did that. We ran off. Then, um, Mina tried to-to poison me."
[Voice becomes hysterical, sobbing and laughing]
"So I brought her here and I-I pushed her off because I didn't like her anymore. When I was pushing her, she-she said how her sister was tryna protect us and that she knows what happened. So, so if I tell them, her sister'll get arrested. But, um, I don't care. So I'm saying this anyway." [Laughter]. "But when I looked-looked over, and saw her body all mangled-like on the rocks near the water, I-I felt like I shouldn't have done it, so, yeah. I'm recording this. And then I'm gonna-gonna jump. Um, I think I'm gonna delete this now. But, haha, I guess it's off my chest."
[Crunching background sounds, footsteps. Loud wind.]
"O-or maybe I'll just jump with it, yeah. That's, that's good. Haha." [Nervous laughter] "So, um, yeah."
[A silent pause before slight movement. Then loud sounds of wind before a splash. Water affected audio continues before the recording ends].
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Police report, issued 4/12, 2024~
Thomas Briar was said to have survived the fall but acquired concussion, memory loss, and multiple broken bones, as well as internal bleeding.
During the five years prior his suicide, Briar was kept in a detainment facility that tended to both his physical and mental health.
His parents, still living in their hometown, didn't visit during his detainment.
Mina Drone's sister, Anna Drone, served ninety days for accomplice to murder.
A compilation of notes from his time in the detainment were found and added to the files, all of which were either diary entries or false scenarios in which he didn't kill Mina Drone– future careers, diary entrees from a false future, etc.
During his burial, Briar's mother, Wendy Briar, was the only attendee, as his father refused.
The case was closed on 6/12, 2024.
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