The thought of what it would be like if we lived among them. What would they think of us? They would probably treat us like the monsters that they thought we were. It would all be a repeat of what they had done all those years ago. They cast out my kind. Banishment though was the kindest thing that they had done. What followed was the pure evil. The kind that made us seem like angels in comparison. If they were to find out that we still existed, I reckoned they would torture us making sure that we did not even for a second think that we were like them.
These thoughts haunted me until I turned off the shower. My eyes were still closed. I could take a shower with them open but the thought that I could miss a second of her life felt like something that I did not want to risk. My curiosity and growing affection for her clashed with my duty to my people.
What would they think of me if they learnt that I had gotten into contact with a human? How would they react? These were the questions that I could not get off my mind, yet deep down I also knew that they were not questions that I wanted the answers to.
They loathed humans deeper than anything that they could feel. The emotions for us were intensified and I knew that their hatred for her kind ran deeper than any other emotion that they could feel. I understood the gravity of this hate because it was all I could feel daily. That was why the fact that I found one of them to be even slightly tolerable, felt like something that I would never do in a thousand years, yet here we were. She was asleep but I could feel this thing. This weight that I knew was not mine. It was something that I had always felt since the day that I connected with her.
It was this weight on her heart, the kind that felt suffocating. The kind that felt as if it was pressing down on her chest. Even I felt that it was too heavy for me at times but she carried it all worth a smile. This smile, that I could tell was the opposite of what she felt. I could feel it even as she slept. Her heart ached every single hour of the day. Even as she slept, she could not seem to be at ease. The feeling still weighed on her. It made my heart ached more.
"I brought the car around. You should be done by now." Said Gregory with the same serious tone that he always had.
I checked the cufflinks one more time to make sure that they were in the right place. Taking my jacket from the counter, I opened the door to my bedroom. Gregory was waiting outside my door with my schedule in his hand. It was our routine.
"You have the meeting with the investors today and after you have a dinner reservation with Sam tonight, that sums up your day." He said giving me the breakdown of the day, usually only the major events.
The before and after of those events was usually me in the office so he did not need to point that out.
"Did you make sure that my meeting with Sam ends before nine? I need to be back by then." I knew that she would be awake by nine.
After all she had to go see her grandma the next day and I was as excited as she was the moment that I heard she was. This was my chance to meet her grandma. At the mention of her name, I had felt that stinging weight lift a little even though it was for a second.
I know that this was giving stalker vibes but honestly, I could not help myself.
"Yes, and this was her her response and I quote, 'What the actual freak?! We do this every year until midnight. Why is he doing this to me right now?!" That is what she said."
He rarely cursed unless it was quoting someone. If he had to pass a message to me, especially from her he had to quote exactly what she said. It was apparently what she had asked him to do and without a second thought, he did.
"Exactly, we do this on her birthday so why does it matter that I have to ask her to compromise just a little today?"
He did not respond. Said he did not like thinking what other people thought. He did not like interpreting anything they said. He took everything literally. Word for word.
I had gotten used to this so I often spoke to myself.
He opened the car door for me and slammed it shut as soon as I got on. He pulled walked to the passenger's seat and as soon as he got on, the driver started the car.
The rest of my day was boring, the same thonypver and over again. Then dinner came.
We went to the same restaurant that I always reserved for her birthday.
"Why do you keep looking at your watch?" She asked placing her fork and knife down.
"Nothing, I said picking up mine."
I did not care to give her a further explanation. I only did those dinner with her as a way to appease her father, my uncle. He was my father's step brother. He owned almost as many shares as I did in my company and even though we were not biologically related, he wanted us to play family. So he asked me to take her out and have dinner with her on her birthday as per her request as her older brother.
I did but want to but that was one of things that Gregory advised me to do and I did.
"I have feelings for you." I almost choked on my steak.