Amethyst's POV
"Hey, wake up. It's already 6AM, why isn't there any food at the table?"
I could feel water dripping down my entire body. The cold was getting unbearable with each passing second. I could barely breathe.
I wanted to scream, tell them that I am sick but I couldn't find my voice.
I caught a terrible cold. I tried to open my eyes a few times but I would shut them off just as quickly.
The harsh light was like needles to my eyes.
"I see, so that's how you want to play it, bitch!"
Another round of water was splashed on my face.
"I-," my voice was too cracked.
Stella's voice was fading further and further away as I was slowly losing myself. Maybe the moon goddess has finally decided to end my miseries.
"Get away! Can't you see that she's already sick?"
I somehow managed to open my eyes.
Vivian. The Alpha's only daughter.
She's everything I'll never be. The sweetest, kindest, and strongest being to ever exist.
"So what? Where's my food? How am I supposed to go to school now? I am hungry!" Stella won't stop whining.
"If you are so hungry then make food for yourself. It's not like you don't have hands or something," she said as I felt myself floating in the air.
I was now in her arms. They were warm.
"She's just an omega! What's so good about her that you are protecting her?" Stella's angry voice was almost gone.
I couldn't be happier. I needed a break. I wasn't strong enough. Not today.
I let sleep overcome my mind again. Shutting this cruel world for some more time.
At least, this time, I felt protected and I was warm.
I don't know for how long I was sleeping but when I opened my eyes, I could see him.
He was angry. He looked like he wanted to kill someone. I instantly closed my eyes.
I wasn't ready to face him. Not after everything I witnessed yesterday.
"Why did you help her?"
"What do you mean by why did I help her? They were bullying her, just because she's an omega! How can you be so cruel? Can't you see how much she's suffering here?" Vivian was just as angry.
"She deserves this. She deserves to be treated in this way. Did you forget what her parents did? They were traitors. How else am I supposed to treat a traitor's daughter?"
His words were true. I grew up hearing them over and over again. But to hear them from his mouth, something in me broke.
I loved him.
We were like the sky and ocean.
We could exist at the same time but we could never meet.
Why, moon goddess? Why did you make my life this hard if you wanted me to live?
How can I exist and be happy when I am hated by the only person I have ever loved?
"You can't hate her forever, Evren. She's just a child when this happened." Vivian's voice had exhaustion in them.
She has been saving me throughout my entire life. The young girl who would fight with her entire clan for a weak omega was still there.
Her grandma was right. She, really, was the light.
Vivian Luminara Sterling.
"She deserves to die. Her sharing the same blood with them is more than enough. And wake up now. You are a pathetic actor, Everhart!"
I could no longer pretend. My eyes met his cold silver blue eyes.
How I wish they had at least an ounce of warmth in them for me.
They were so beautiful that I hated myself for tainting them with hatred for myself.
"I am sorry." That's all I could manage to say. I didn't know what else to offer him.
His eyes hardened and his jaw clenched.
His eyes were fixed on my face. I hated myself for how tears were blurring my eye sight.
I wanted to stare more at his beautiful face. Who knows when I'll get the chance again?
Love was the worst curse of all. It destroys.
Whoever wrote that love heals is wrong, for all I got was stabs on my heart and yet this disease won't leave me.
I wanted this moment to last forever.
"Hate me, loathe me but don't look away. If hatred is all you can offer, I'll take it," I whispered in my heart.
Wishing it would reach him, the person who lives there.
But once again, fate was cruel to me.
"Die!" He looked away and left the room in a hurry, as if being in the same space as me would kill him.
I really wanted to die. That's the only thing he has ever asked from me and I wanted to fulfill his wish.
What's the value of my life if I can't fulfill the only wish my beloved has?
But how do I tell him that I had already died. I was merely breathing.
How laughable I am! As if he was going to wait for me to say something.
That's how he was, cold and unapproachable.
My beloved was like a poison and I was addicted to him. I was bound to die someday, like the moth that gets burnt eventually.
I knew it but I simply couldn't stop, for I was already dead.
"Don't mind him, Amethyst. He's a jerk. You are the sweetest person I have ever met. If anyone should die then it's him and the other pack members!" Vivian was back to being angry but I knew that it's her being worried.
How was I ever going to repay her for everything she has ever done for me?
"If you want my life someday, I'll gladly give it to you," I said as I hold her hands.
They were a little rough. She has been practicing again.
"I want your life. Give it to me,now." I was shocked at her sudden demand. I thought she's joking but she seemed serious.
Even before I got to process the entire thing, she started talking again.
"Now that your life is mine, I want you to treasure it. Take good care of it for me. I want you to be healthy and happy. Ok?"
I could only nod my head. I was going to cry if I talk.
I loved and owed her a lot.
"I know something happened yesterday, I won't force you to talk but I hope you open up to me. I'll get some food for you and be back. Decide whether you want to share or not in the meantime." After a hug, she left.
I was alone, again.
I didn't want to be alone. I don't want to deal with my emotions.
I would rather die than to remember what I saw yesterday.
Moon goddess, if you are really there, take this pain away.
"Free me. I can't deal with it anymore. Please...."
These were my last prayers before I lost my consciousness.