I awoke in an instant, and the feeling of something heavy and painful being removed lingered. My sheets were messed up and disorganized, but I couldn't care less.
Another feeling I couldn't shake off was one I was unable to understand; it felt more longing, more patient happiness, overlapping with the feeling of loss in my heart.
I should probably talk some stuff over with Nil before too much time has passed… Nil… I remembered how she helped me earlier, the undeniable source of the best parts of my current mood.
*Sigh* I want to see Nil again, but I feel so drained, I don't want to get up.
I can't pinpoint it exactly, but breaking down in front of somebody, especially for me, where I try to show as little emotion as possible to avoid awkward situations… Ugh… But it felt different this time. Something about it felt more… important.
"Argh, I can't stay here forever."
I got up, knees a little wobbly, but all was fine. I walked to the door, unintentionally allowing my body to realize just how low on energy it was; every movement turned into so slow and tiring lunges. It must have been the drawback of not eating and minimal sleep…
The closer I got to the door, the further it seemed.
"Nil… help…" I gasped.
The door opened in front of me. Nil walked over.
"Are you alright, Kea!?" She stammered.
"No…" I fell onto her, the full weight of my body pushing her back a little.
"I… I feel so weak…" was all I could get out. At this moment, Intrusive thoughts, overthinking, and anything in between didn't matter.