I was born in 1995.. but I was born prematurely, at that time life was 50/50 safe or not with my birth weight of 1.2kg very small.. so I was kept in the hospital for more than a month, my mother told me that she thought I was dead, apparently it was like God was still giving me a chance to live, which means I'm strong, right? hehe.. When I was more than a year old, my mother got pregnant again, my mother had severe allergies so I was 100% taken care of by my grandparents because my mother couldn't focus on me anymore.. my father was busy with work, he only knew how to work, he never knew how to take care of the house so don't expect him to help.. the best thing is that my cousins treat me like their own little sister because I'm the youngest, so love is always enough when I sit with my grandparents.. but that thing was only for a moment actually.. until my grandfather talked to my grandmother like this.. "until when are we going to take care of Ira? I feel sorry for her, after all she still has her parents. "We can't separate Ira from her parents." My grandmother thought back then.. what if I was 4 years old and my life with my family began, which was not very beautiful behind the eyes of outsiders.. the steps for me to survive became heartbroken, and had to mature at an early age.
At that time I had to go to nursery school at the age of five.. so learning the outside world for the first time like that was fun, what wasn't fun was that you had to face something that you can't forget until now.. people have returned and parents have taken their children but you have no one to take them.. to say that it's reasonable, you can think that I didn't know I was going back at that time, there weren't many bush paths, even the forest at that time.. it was very scary for a five-year-old to face that incident.. you were surrounded by the forest on both sides.. the houses of the villagers were still far away, finally I was strong enough.. until I saw the main road at that time, how could I think about crossing the road of a five-year-old child but God protected me at that time.. no matter how difficult you are, God is there.. God just wants to test you whether you can face that or not..