Everyone wants to change.
Some want to change their charectar.
Some want to change their habits.
And only legend wants to change their fate.
Legend? Yeah!
But I am no legend.
In the jungle the king may be the lion. But still the one with most power got the fate of the king too.
But they are still weak!
They can die.
Only in stories legend lives. God's born. But even in our relegion it's taught to us that even gods that born needs to die. Even the Creator, the generator and destroyer will die.
So I never ever thought I will live forever. But as long as you live, the long you realise sometimes ideals aren't the path. I like death. No I love it.
Why?
Cause I think there is no meaning to my life.
Ok! Ok! I got you. You guys are thinking what is this? Suicide note? Mad one's speech! No. Cause ledis.. sorry !!
Once more!
LEDIES AND GENTLEMAN
INTRODUCING TO YOU
THE FIRSTEVER WRITER
WHO IS THE GOD OF HOS OWN FATE.
HE IS HERO!
HE IS VILLAINS!
HE IS THE ONE WHO DECIDE WHAT WILL HAPPEN.
Confusing? I got your back.
Let's start from.....??
Where should we start form??
I am in a hurry you know!
I need an Oscur!!
Not just an Oscur! I need every world record and awards I can get.
So hurrryyy upppp!!
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Thinking carefully of the past I don't remember much of my childhood. But still I will try to write.
My birthday 2004, October 18th. I was born in Kaltua, in past known as Kolkata. My life was good probably!
I don't know! No! I don't remember! Probably I don't want to remember!
I remember getting beaten up by mom with a belt. I remember I don't have much stamina to play those days. But I still liked it probably.
My little wish was I want a good friend! Best friend! Yeah!
Didn't get it.
Another was to live happily, peacefully!
Didn't get it.
Another was to have a big caring family.
Didn't get it that way. Or probably didn't get it.
Another was to get a girlfriend. Caring, loyal.
Didn't get it and nowadays I don't want it.
Another was to earn money!
Didn't get it? No! Couldn't do it.
Another was to become strong!
Couldn't do it.
And in these all journey I never realised I came to hate myself. I, who is a dumb of my intelligence. I, even now I can't write it a author like. Fuck that I can't write it.
Well. Let's stop.
If I am going to write it. Good people stay thousands of meter away.
Sex, blood, inhuman stuff. Everything will be here. I am going to create a hell that will give me pleasure.
But the most illogical thing of my book is logic needs to work even if it's illogical logic.
So where were we? Ah! I forgot! This writings are also vanishing after completing.
So let's be short. Ok?
Whatever you say! Who cares? Let's go!
So my life from my childhood...! Hactic. For a peace lover at that time I had to fight in school and home to go by. Now that I try to imagine I feel sorry. I wasn't strong. Never. I was weak. I slowly became strong.
I wasn't intelligent like my small brother nowadays. I never ranked in 1 to 10 in my childhood. Not in my entire career. I wanted to win at first.
But slowly I gave up. Forgot.
I am a peace lover. If I am alone. Get to eat sleep freely. I don't care. But...
So..? Yeah!
As I was a peace lover I get into fights. Everything will be blamed on me. Probably I did try them too. I don't remember. Like you guys we were not so fortunate to introduced to bullying at that time.
But we knew fighting, kissing, rape, dance. Why? Movies!
So I study in two schools. I won't name them anymore. Actually second school was born from the first one when teachers of the first one leave the previous school.
In first school I got bullied. In second school I bully. No one no not many was at my power level. And carefull. I was younger than my class. I skipped one or two grade previously.
I thought it was normal. But turns out people no children also come at older age. For example a class is supposed to be full with age of 5. I was 4. But 5 or 6 students were of 8 or 7 age.
Well I faced it all life. But I hate it. I hate the country too. And the world too.
Why? People tell to live in peace and harmony. But there is none.
Fuck that. I am going to...
Well! Later!!
So after I start to gain some intelligence of my surroundings, everything changed for me.
Why? Cause I gained it after class 10. In COVID. Yeah! So I gave up.
Friends?
In just name! Everyone is busy!
Family?
Well! I have a little brother now of 5 age except my parents. And I don't like my father nowadays.
I can't control my anger. I musterbate. I like girls. I want someone to come and kill me. Cause I can't die on my own. And I fear suicide.
Well that's before a hour ago.
But before that I will let you judge me.
I am probably a wrist son. I beat my father. I grab his neck yesterday in anger. I tried to claim down.
But sorry! Years of things are becoming a mountain on me. I like peace.
I am sorry to every gods. I am sorry to Mata Laxmi too. I am sorry to Mata Shakti, santoshi and Kali maa. I am sorry.
Please kill me and send me to hell. I can't tolerate this life. I wish.
I grab his leg cried. But my voice probably won't reach him. I am not even crying after writing it. Who the hell...son ? No! I am...
Ok. Ok. I also tried to cut my nerves of hand. But couldn't. I....I..
No! I am a orphan! No. I will write I am a billionaire.
Ok!
I also forgot to mention and explain many things!
But who cares? No one wants to hear a loser's past.
Everyone wants to hear a revolutionary story. So here it is..
But..hehe..hehehe.THIS STORY IS ALL ABOUT ME. ALMIGHTY ME...hahahhahahhahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahaahhahaahha.. cough cough. Haha.ha! Hic!.. hehe..
I am crying?!