some times life is not fair some born rich some poor some healthy and many suffering and some one will love and he became loved too but unfortunate like me are left to suffer from love it self some in joy it but for some it is poison that kills you slowly this was my case. a young 15 years old tall with pale skin pure eye got to high school quiet introvert small friend circle life was harder for me my mother got abused by my father 5 siblings no income he got addiction and life is hard I was just that 1st ranking kid ,but my parents can't afford high school but my grandparents paid for really expensive school and got enrolled their. That's when the infection started a young handsome 16 year old boy tall muscular love sport and member of the school bully our first interaction was not good he jus take my sit and tell me to leave he was rude but for some reason I love that I don't know what was happening to me I'm not gay I'm Christian but when I see him my heart say other wise I keep fighting I keep resisting the feeling but I can't he just gave me soft pure full of love eye contact and stares at me some times but I can't be sure that he loves me but you know this love is just illegal sin if I told him I will go to prison and killed but I can't stop my self this went on for years and my love still growing and I can't hold it any more I have to tell him or it will kill me so I told him one day he looked at me and said " eww get out from here " that broke everything the next week a girl asked him and he accepted and looked at me in the eyes and kissed her this is pain it self i can't take the humiliation so " if I can't have you I can't see you being taken " and everything ended I died and no body cried this is the other side of life love is not always sweet
