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Chapter 2 - Chapter 2 - Currents

Abel woke before the first bell and lay still, looking at the ceiling until the light changed enough to make time undeniable. The room felt incomplete, as though something had been removed during the night and the space had not yet decided how to settle. His coat hung where he had left it, one sleeve turned inward from the evening before.

He noticed it and left it that way. He would fix it later. He always thought that, and it was usually true in the smallest sense.

When the bell rang, it sounded normal. That unsettled him more than if it had not.

He remained seated for a moment after the sound faded. When he stood, it felt late, though nothing had changed. He dressed carefully, not slowly, but with the same attention he gave to his writing. The repaired seam on his shirt caught against his shoulder again. He pulled it loose and smoothed the fabric with his palm. The seam would need to be redone, properly this time, though he had been thinking that for weeks. He adjusted the collar and checked the buttons twice, then stopped himself before checking them a third time.

The strap of his pouch creaked as he tightened it. He loosened it and pulled again. The sound did not repeat. He waited anyway, listening, then moved on when nothing followed.

Outside, the street was already awake in fragments. A cart rolled past empty, its wheels rattling against the stones longer than seemed necessary. A man swept dust from a doorway into the road with a patience that suggested no expectation of success. The dust gathered near the gutter and would return by evening.

Someone was arguing farther down the street. Abel could not hear the words, only the pattern of speech. Short sentences. Repeated. Neither voice is willing to stretch into anything longer. He walked on without trying to listen more closely. Listening too closely to other people's disputes had never helped him.

He told himself not to think about the bell schedule and did anyway. The thought did not stay long, but it tightened the morning slightly, as though everything he did had to fit inside it. He tried to occupy his attention with the stones beneath his feet and the familiar pull of the strap across his ribs.

Before the docks, there was always the registry.

Abel took the lane that cut behind the cooper's yard, where wet hoops lay stacked in a crooked pile and smelled faintly of iron. The yard men were already at work, rolling barrels with a practiced care that looked like indifference until you noticed how rarely they let a barrel strike stone. A damaged barrel did not only spill wine. It spilled accusations. It made someone ask who was responsible, and questions had a way of finding the wrong throats.

A boy darted between barrels carrying a wedge of bread wrapped in cloth. He almost collided with Abel, stopped short, then bowed his head quickly, apology and fear folded into the same gesture. Abel stepped aside without speaking. The boy ran on, chewing as he ran. Hunger, Abel thought, made people honest in the most unpleasant way.

By the time he reached the registry building, the street had warmed into its daily performance. Vendors called out numbers more than goods, as if the numbers were what mattered. A woman with a basket of onions made the sign of the Cross of Stones when she passed the doorway, touching her forehead and then her sternum, not because she expected protection but because omission felt like inviting consequence.

Inside, the registry smelled of ink, damp paper, and old wood that had absorbed too many confessions to remain neutral.

The clerks arrived in a staggered tide. Some came early to look diligent. Some came late to make their lateness look inevitable. Abel arrived when he always did, between those two virtues, carrying his pouch close to his ribs. He had been told once that he walked like a man guarding coin. He had not corrected them. Coin was easier to explain than thought.

At his desk, the ledger waited open where he had left it the day before. The margin notes remained, small marks that meant small deviations, and the deviations meant someone would have to answer. Abel checked the ink pot first. It sat where it should. He checked the quill next. The feather had been cut badly, the tip too blunt. Someone had borrowed it and returned it without care. Abel held it up, saw the damage, then set it down as if the sight alone could be corrected by patience.

Later, he told himself. Later was a word he spent too freely.

A clerk named Jost shuffled in carrying forms tied with twine. Jost looked like a man who had once wanted to be tall and had given up. His eyes moved constantly, not searching for meaning, only for risk. He set the forms down too hard, making a small slap that drew attention. "Bell's late," Jost muttered. "It wasn't," Abel said.

Jost glanced at him. "It felt late." "That isn't the same thing." Jost's mouth tightened. "Tell that to the men who have to unload by schedule." Abel did not answer. The registry lived on the assumption that feeling was noise. He was not always sure the assumption was true.

Across the room, a senior clerk named Brigitte was already arguing with a porter, voice low enough to remain respectable. The porter's cap was in his hands, crushed and rewound repeatedly. Brigitte held a stamped notice, the wax still bright. Abel could not see the crest, but he could see the shape of Brigitte's mouth when she read: controlled irritation. The kind of irritation that disguised fear.

"Two crates missing," the porter said. "They were there at second bell. I saw them."

Brigitte did not look up. "Seeing is not recording." "They were there."

"And now they are not," Brigitte said, still reading. "So either you miscounted or someone moved them. Either way, the ledger does not accept insistence as proof."

The porter's hands tightened around his cap. Abel watched the man's knuckles whiten and then fade. The porter swallowed his anger because the registry rewarded swallowing. Abel looked away before the porter's humiliation could become contagious.

At mid-morning, when Abel's pen had begun to move without thought, he noticed something that made the room feel smaller.

A new notice had been pinned to the central board. The paper was thicker than most and the ink was darker. It had been stamped twice, as if whoever issued it did not trust a single seal to be believed. The crest was not the city's crest. It was a mark Abel did not recognize, simple and clean, and that simplicity made it more frightening than ornament.

The other clerks noticed it too, but they pretended not to. They did their work louder. They shuffled papers with exaggerated purpose. They spoke to each other about small things, about ink shortages, about quotas, about the price of salt, because small things could be argued with.

Abel rose and crossed the room as if he had to, not because he wanted to. He read the notice once. Then he read it again.

It was not a proclamation. It was an instruction, phrased as if instruction were mercy.

Certain archival holdings were to be "verified" for consistency. Certain charts were to be "reconciled" with current doctrine. Certain signatures were to be confirmed against "authorized copies." It was written in the language of care, but the care had teeth. It implied that something had already been wrong and that wrongness would now be punished under the pretense of correction.

A hand brushed Abel's shoulder as someone passed behind him. He flinched slightly and then hated himself for it.

Jost stood close, pretending to read the notice too. His breath smelled of onions and cheap ale.

"Verification," Jost murmured, as if saying the word quietly could make it less real.

Abel's voice came out flat. "So someone wants the past to match what they need now."

Jost's eyes flicked to Abel's face, then away. "It means men in better coats are coming," he said. "And when men in better coats come, someone in worse clothes pays."

Abel looked back at the notice. The stamp's edges were too sharp. The wax too new. It felt like a hand placed on the city's throat.

A thin strip of paper had been pinned beneath the notice, too narrow to be official and too carefully placed to be accidental. The ink was fresh, the handwriting deliberate, each letter pressed hard enough to bruise the page.

It was a litany, the kind dock men muttered when they hoisted casks or measured ropes, half prayer and half habit.

Count true. Cut clean. Bind tight. Owe nothing.

Abel read it once and felt nothing. He read it again and felt the floor tilt, a small internal lurch as his mind insisted the words were not the words.

The last line had been overwritten. The original letters were still visible beneath, ghosts in wet ink. Someone had changed nothing to them.

Count true. Cut clean. Bind tight. Owe them.

Jost drifted close behind him, close enough that Abel could smell onions on his breath. "They changed it," Jost murmured, as if saying the words aloud would summon punishment.

"It is not supposed to change," Abel said, then hated how childish the sentence sounded.

Jost's mouth twitched, not amusement. "Nothing is supposed to change," he said. "That is the point of changing it."

He returned to his desk and tried to write.

The quill scratched. The blunt tip caught paper fibers and tore them. Abel paused, sharpened it carefully, then began again. His handwriting remained clean, but the page no longer felt like a record. It felt like a surrender.

Brigitte's voice cut through the room. "Abel." She did not raise it. She did not need to.

He stood and walked to her desk with the same careful pace he used when carrying wet parchment. The room watched without looking like it watched. That was how clerks survived. They learned to witness without being witnesses.

Brigitte slid a bundle of forms toward him. Twine, fresh. Wax, fresher. The seal carried a simple circle with a small notch at the edge, like a coin bite, like a mark made by someone who wanted a symbol that could be redrawn anywhere.

"Verification docket," Brigitte said. "Lower archive. You will bring back the plates and the leaves listed. You will not ask why the list includes things it should not."

Abel stared at the notch-mark. "Who sent this," he asked.

Brigitte's eyes met his. "Men who do not sign," she said. "That is why they stamp."

She placed a small knife beside the bundle, a thin blade used to scrape ink cleanly from parchment. The knife's handle was smooth from use. It did not look like a weapon. It looked like a tool that became a weapon when someone decided truth was a surface.

"There is also a crate count," Brigitte added. "Yesterday. Second bell. A porter will be punished for it. He swears the crates were there. The ledger says they were not."

"Then the ledger is wrong," Abel said.

"Then the ledger must become right," Brigitte replied, as if the words were a proverb. "You will adjust it."

Abel felt heat rise in his face. "That is a lie."

Brigitte did not flinch. "It is a correction," she said. "The city cannot be wrong in public. It can only be corrected in private."

A runner passed behind Abel carrying a basin of drying sand. The sand rasped softly as it shifted, like teeth in a mouth closing.

"Where does the punishment go," Abel asked, and heard how small his own voice had become.

"Not to you," Brigitte said. "Not today. But you will not pretend you did not understand the trade."

Abel looked at the knife. He thought of the porter, of the porter being dragged to a post for an error he had not made. He thought of the ledger, of the ledger being treated as a body that had to be kept pure, even if the purification required another body to take the stain. He took the knife.

He sat back down at his desk with the bundle beside him. His hands moved as if someone else were directing them. He found the entry. He saw the number that condemned the porter. He stared at it until it became only ink on fiber, until morality thinned into geometry.

The blade slid under the top layer of parchment. Abel scraped slowly, not because he wanted to be gentle, but because he wanted the damage to look natural. Ink dust gathered like black sand. He blew it away and watched it scatter across the desk.

When the number was gone, the page looked cleaner than it had before. That frightened him.

He wrote the new number above the scraped patch with the same careful hand he used for his own notes. He copied Brigitte's slant without meaning to. He made the lie fit the book.

At the bottom of the page he pressed the notch-stamp into fresh wax and felt the seal cool under his thumb.

It was done. It could not be undone without leaving scars.

Abel sat very still and listened to the room. Pens scratched. Pages turned. Men breathed. No one screamed. The absence of screaming felt like complicity too.

When the noon bell rang, Abel did not feel relief. He felt the day tighten around him, as if time itself had become procedural.

He left the registry with his pouch strap creaking against his shoulder, and the thought of the docks felt less like routine and more like escape, which was absurd, because the docks were where the city showed its teeth openly. Still, open teeth were sometimes easier to endure than a smile that hid them.

The smell reached him before the docks did. Water and fish, old wood soaked too many times to remember the first.

The planks flexed beneath his weight. The sound was familiar enough that he did not look down. Looking down while walking the docks had never helped him. He kept his pace even and let his steps fall where they always had, until they didn't.

Near the gutter, the ground dipped. Water collected there overnight. He usually remembered it. His foot found it before he did, and dampness crept along the edge of his boot.

It would dry. He lifted his foot and pressed the leather with his thumb longer than necessary. He stepped around the dip and continued, irritated that he had forgotten something so small.

The gaps were wrong.

Abel slowed, not because he had decided to be careful, but because the dock had stopped matching its own memory. The path was the same in outline, barrels, rope stacks, the ink seller's plank, yet the distances between them felt negotiated rather than fixed, as if the dock had been rearranged by men who wanted to claim they had only been tidying.

A cart came through the lane from the eastern berth. It should not have fit. The wheels clipped two boards and made them jump, and the driver did not apologize. He kept his eyes forward and called numbers as if the numbers were a right of way.

"Five. Five. Five."

The chant was not prayer and not order, but it pulled bodies into motion. A man with a coil of rope lifted it without looking. Another stepped back from the cart's path before the wheel reached him. A boy hauling a bucket froze, then darted sideways in the exact heartbeat the cart's axle passed, as if he had been trained by sound rather than sight.

Abel felt the movement like a lesson. The dock breathed, then the cart spoke for it.

The bucket boy slipped on a wet patch. His feet went out and the bucket spun, water arcing toward the cart's wheel. The driver swore and jerked the reins. The horse balked. The cart's weight shifted.

For a second the lane was wrong in a louder way.

Abel moved before he had time to decide he should not. He grabbed the boy's collar and yanked him back. The cloth tore slightly under Abel's grip. The boy coughed, eyes wide, and scrambled upright.

The cart's wheel rolled through the spilled water and skidded. The driver overcorrected. The cart's corner swung toward a stack of barrels. One barrel tipped. Another followed. The lane filled with a sound like dull thunder.

A man shouted, not in panic, but in accusation. "Who left them loose."

"Count true," someone answered, too fast, as if the words were meant to erase blame.

Hands reached for the barrels. Too many hands, not coordinated. The horse stamped and threw its head. The driver cursed again, and the cursing sounded like ritual in a place where everyone believed the sea listened.

Abel stepped back with the boy still half in his grasp. He realized his hands were on another body. He loosened his grip slowly and let the boy go.

The boy stared at him, then at Abel's rope gloves, then at Abel's apron knot. He did not thank him. His eyes carried the wary calculation of someone who had learned that help was often an invoice.

A woman shoved past Abel with a shoulder that did not bother to miss him. She jammed a wedge under the nearest barrel and barked, "Lift on the second bell, not now. Not now."

The sentence made no sense. The bell had not rung. The lane still obeyed.

Then Abel heard it, the dock's inhale, the small shift in bodies that came before sound. Men straightened. A rope went taut. A crate stopped mid-lift as if the arms holding it had remembered a rule they had not been told. The bell rang.

The barrels lifted together, as if the cart and the horse and the people had only been waiting for permission to be competent. The wedge was pulled free. The lane cleared. The cart rolled forward again, and the driver did not look back.

Abel stood with damp on his boots and a sudden cold in his chest. The bell had not fixed anything. It had only made the fix official.

Beyond the barrels, three men in plain, newer clothes watched the lane without helping. One held a thin ledger. Another had a pencil behind his ear. Their boots were clean enough to be insulting.

Abel's gaze caught on a small brass token in the nearest man's hand. A circle. A notch. He could not tell if it was a stamp or a coin or a warning. The man saw Abel looking and shifted the token into his palm, closing his fingers around it as if the act itself were a correction.

Abel looked away first. He hated that he did.

Someone laughed near the fish stalls, too loud, too quick, a laugh that tried to turn the incident into entertainment before it could become testimony. The Chorus of Corrections took it up, half joking, half habitual.

"Count true. Cut clean. Bind tight."

A pause, then the endings, overlapping, not quite in agreement.

"Owe nothing."

"Owe them."

"Owe all."

Abel felt his mouth tighten. He had heard those words in the registry, in mutters and margins. Hearing them on the dock, spoken by men with splinters in their hands and salt in their hair, made them feel less like superstition and more like instruction.

The boy he had dragged back picked up his bucket and limped away. Abel watched him go, and the thought arrived, simple and ugly.

He had saved him from the wheel. He had not saved him from the dock.

Silas was not there to see it. That was worse. Abel could not borrow someone else's calm. He had to decide what the moment meant on his own.

He adjusted his gloves, as if tightening them could tighten the world. Then he walked on toward the ink seller's stall, not faster, not slower, but with the careful pace of a man trying to look like he belonged in a place that had started rewriting itself around him.

Not blocked. Not closed. Just changed. A rope coil sat where there had been space yesterday. A stack of barrels stood closer together than he remembered. He adjusted his path without stopping. The adjustment stayed with him longer than the movement itself.

He tried to recall the exact shape of yesterday's route and failed. The failure was minor. That made it worse.

The ink seller's stall was there. He noticed it before he meant to. The bottles were closer together now, nearly touching. The crooked line had been straightened. The glass still varied in thickness, catching the light unevenly, but the plank beneath them was clean.

Too clean.

He slowed. He told himself there was no reason to stop and stopped anyway. The seller did not look up. Her hands moved over the wood with a cloth that did not seem to remove anything. Abel waited for her to speak. She did not.

He left it alone. He told himself he would redo it properly. He had been telling himself that for weeks, and the promise kept shrinking.

He moved on, aware of the space where the exchange usually happened. The absence followed him longer than it should have. It was not the missing ink that stayed with him, but the missing shape of the moment.

Two men stood near the eastern berth counting crates. They were not the usual men. Their clothes were plain and serviceable, but newer than most. One called out numbers while the other wrote them down. They paused often, checking the count more than once. Abel watched until one of them shifted his stance, then looked away.

Joryn stood closer to the water with two others. None of them were speaking. One of the men held a slate at his side, chalk dust marking his fingers. Joryn's hands were in his pockets. Abel approached without deciding to. "Morning," he said.

Joryn turned his head slightly, then looked back at the river. "Morning." The word carried more weight than it should have. "They've changed the order," Joryn said. "Of what?" Abel asked.

Joryn shrugged. "Things." Abel waited.

"You staying late again?" Joryn asked. "Probably." Joryn nodded and examined his hands. "They moved my crate." Abel looked toward the berth. The smaller crate was not there. "Did they say why?" Abel asked. "No."

They stood there longer than the exchange required. Abel considered offering a guess and did not. Guessing would have meant he had been thinking about it.

Inside the registry office, the air felt heavier than yesterday. Not warmer. Just resistant. The stamping had already begun. Abel opened the ledger.

Someone had worked ahead of him.

The entries were correct. That irritated him more than if they had been careless. The margins were wider than he preferred. He traced one line with his finger and felt where the pen had pressed too hard.

He closed the ledger and opened it again. It did not help. The first entry was routine. The second was not.

The route name was unfamiliar. He checked the wall schedule. It was not listed. He checked the date and time. Both were correct. He wrote it down anyway.

Writing it did not clarify anything. It made the page heavier.

Runners passed through the office more often than usual. None of them spoke to Abel. A junior clerk stopped near his desk, hesitated, then moved on.

At the next bell, the eastern departure did not occur. No announcement followed. No notice appeared.

At midday, Abel ate standing near the wall. The bread caught between his teeth. He picked at it with his tongue until it came free. The water tasted faintly of metal. He checked the canteen and found nothing wrong.

In the afternoon, his name appeared on the assignment board under archive duty, written in handwriting he did not recognize.

The archive was cooler than the main office. Dust hung in the light. The shelves were full. The central table was empty. The map was gone.

He stood where it should have been and did not touch the surface. He searched the shelves and found the map returned to its place between volumes that had not been disturbed in years.

The repair was unchanged. The darker thread still held. The knots were too careful.

He traced the route once and closed the map without writing anything. When he returned, someone was waiting at his desk. The man stood when Abel approached. "I was told to wait here," he said. "For me?" "I think so." "Are things all right?" the man asked. "Yes," Abel said.

The word came out too quickly.

The afternoon passed slowly. Abel corrected spacing that did not need correcting. He rewrote a header and stopped himself before doing it again. Outside, the dock worked with a low, steady sound that should have been comforting.

The eastern ship departed late, carrying fewer crates than it had arrived with. Abel watched until the fog swallowed it.

At the last bell, the office did not empty at once. Abel stayed and aligned his papers. Outside, the notices had been removed. The pinholes remained.

He stood there longer than he should have, reading the absence. He walked home without counting his steps and felt wrong for it. The river moved as it always had.

The bell schedule was held. And Abel understood, without naming it, that whatever care he believed he was taking was no longer enough.

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