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Chapter 4 - Chapter Four: Blood Is Not the Same as Distance

Emma did not sleep.

She lay on her bed fully clothed, the glow of the city filtering through the thin curtains, her mind replaying fragments of the letter in relentless loops. Every time she closed her eyes, she saw her father's handwriting. Every time she opened them, she remembered Daniel's face—composed, searching, unknowingly close.

By morning, the sky was pale and undecided, caught between night and day.

Emma sat up and checked her phone.

Three unread messages.

All from Daniel.

She didn't open them right away.

Instead, she went to the kitchen and made coffee she barely tasted. She moved slowly, as if sudden motion might scatter the fragile clarity forming inside her. When she finally returned to the bedroom, she sat on the edge of the bed and opened the messages.

I'm sorry if my question yesterday was intrusive.I keep thinking about my father and realizing how little I actually knew.If you're willing to talk, I'm here.

Emma read them twice.

No pressure. No entitlement. Just an open door.

She typed back.

I didn't sleep.The letter explains more than I expected—and less than I needed.We should talk. In person.

The response came quickly.

Anytime. Where would you feel comfortable?

Emma thought of the café and dismissed it. Too public. Too temporary.

There's a park near my apartment, she wrote. Quiet. Benches. Trees.This afternoon?

I'll be there.

She put the phone down and exhaled.

The park was older than the neighborhood around it, a rectangle of green stubbornly preserved amid rising glass buildings. Tall trees arched overhead, their bare branches sketching lines against the sky. The air smelled of damp earth and fallen leaves.

Emma arrived early.

She sat on a bench near the path, her coat buttoned tight, hands folded in her lap. The journal lay in her bag, heavy with unspoken pages. She hadn't opened it yet. The letter had taken all the emotional space she could afford.

When Daniel appeared at the edge of the park, she recognized him immediately.

He walked slowly, scanning the benches until his eyes found her. He lifted a hand in a small, tentative wave.

She nodded.

He sat beside her, leaving a careful distance between them.

"Thank you for meeting me," he said.

Emma didn't look at him right away. She watched a jogger pass, breath puffing white in the cool air.

"I don't know where to start," she said.

Daniel nodded. "That's fair."

She took a breath. "Your father knew my birthday."

Daniel closed his eyes briefly, as if bracing. "He never remembered mine."

The words weren't bitter. Just factual.

Emma turned toward him then. "He wrote me letters. One every year. He kept them all."

Daniel stared ahead. His jaw tightened. "Did he explain why he left?"

"Yes," Emma said. "And no."

She hesitated, then reached into her bag and pulled out the letter. She didn't hand it to him. She just held it between them.

"He loved me," she said again, more quietly this time. "But he chose another life. One he thought made more sense."

Daniel swallowed. "That sounds like him."

The admission surprised her.

"You're not angry?" she asked.

"I am," Daniel said. "But not at you. And not entirely at him."

He paused, then added, "I'm angry at the structure of the choices he made. At the idea that love has to hide."

Emma felt something in her chest loosen.

"There's something else," she said.

Daniel turned to her fully now.

"He knew about you," she continued. "He wrote that you don't know I exist. That he made that choice for both of us."

Daniel's breath left him in a sharp exhale. "I suspected."

"You suspected?" Emma asked.

He nodded slowly. "There were gaps. Years he never talked about. Places he wouldn't go back to. And sometimes—" He stopped himself, then continued, voice quieter. "Sometimes I felt like I was living next to a locked room."

Emma stared at him, struck by the parallel.

"So did I," she said.

They sat in silence for a moment, the shared absence settling between them.

Daniel broke it. "What do you want to do now?"

Emma considered the question. For years, decisions had been made around her—by her mother, by her father, by circumstances that never asked permission. Now the weight of choice rested squarely in her hands.

"I want to know the truth," she said. "All of it. Not just his version. Not just hers."

Daniel nodded. "I can help with that."

She looked at him. "Why?"

"Because whether we like it or not," he said, meeting her gaze, "we're connected. And pretending we're not won't make that disappear."

The word "connected" lingered, heavy and unfamiliar.

"Does that bother you?" Emma asked.

Daniel considered. "It scares me," he said honestly. "But no. It doesn't bother me."

She felt a cautious warmth bloom in her chest—not affection, not trust, but the first fragile outline of possibility.

"I have his journal," she said. "I haven't opened it yet."

Daniel's eyes flicked to her bag. "May I… read it with you? When you're ready?"

Emma hesitated, then nodded. "Yes. But not today."

"Okay."

They both stood, the moment naturally concluding without ceremony.

As they began to walk toward the park exit, Daniel spoke again.

"There's one more thing," he said.

Emma turned.

"My mother is still alive," he said. "And she doesn't know about you either."

Emma felt the ground shift slightly beneath her feet.

"She deserves to know," Daniel continued. "But I don't want to blindside her. If we're going to do this… I want to do it carefully."

Emma studied his face—earnest, conflicted, steady.

"For what it's worth," she said, "my mother still believes he abandoned us without regret."

Daniel nodded. "Then we're both standing on fragile ground."

They reached the edge of the park. The city noise grew louder, impatient.

Emma stopped.

"Daniel," she said.

"Yes?"

"I don't know what this makes us," she said. "Strangers. Siblings. Something in between."

Daniel held her gaze. "We don't have to name it yet."

She nodded.

For now, that was enough.

As they parted ways, Emma felt the strange, unsettling awareness that something irreversible had begun—not a romance, not a reunion, but a reckoning.

Blood, she realized, was not the same as distance.

And distance, once crossed, could never be restored.

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