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Chapter 8 - CHAPTER EIGHT- What Love Is Costing

Amara met Zainab on a Thursday afternoon, three months into her relationship with Daniel.

It was intentional.

Zainab was not someone you ran into accidentally. She was someone you chose when you needed honesty without cruelty, clarity without panic. Amara had known her since university—long enough to trust that Zainab would not exaggerate, but also would not protect her from uncomfortable truths.

They met at their usual café just after lunch, the one with mismatched chairs and slow music that made conversation feel unhurried. Zainab arrived first, already seated, sunglasses pushed up into her hair, notebook open beside her untouched drink.

"You're late," Zainab said, smiling faintly as Amara approached.

"Only five minutes," Amara replied, sliding into the chair across from her.

"Five minutes is a pattern for you now," Zainab observed lightly.

Amara laughed. "Is it?"

Zainab studied her—not openly, not aggressively. Just long enough to notice things Amara hadn't realized she was revealing. The softer laughter. The way she hesitated before responding. The way her phone sat face down on the table instead of within reach.

"So," Zainab said, finally. "How's Daniel?"

Amara smiled automatically. "He's good."

Zainab raised an eyebrow. "That wasn't an answer."

Amara stirred her drink. "Things are… calm."

Zainab leaned back. "Calm or quiet?"

The question landed gently, but it landed.

"He doesn't like conflict," Amara said quickly. "And honestly, neither do I."

"That's true," Zainab agreed. "But you used to like conversations."

Amara frowned slightly. "I still do."

"Then why do you sound like you're negotiating every sentence?"

Amara opened her mouth to deny it, then stopped.

Zainab softened her tone. "I'm not attacking you. I'm just listening."

That was the difference.

Amara exhaled. "I think I'm just adjusting."

"Adjusting to what?" Zainab asked.

"To him," Amara replied. "To the relationship."

Zainab nodded slowly. "Are you adjusting with him—or for him?"

The distinction made Amara uncomfortable.

"He's not a bad man," she said, almost defensively.

"I didn't say he was," Zainab replied. "But good men can still benefit from women making themselves smaller."

Amara looked down at her cup.

"I don't want to be dramatic," she said quietly.

Zainab's expression softened. "Since when did honesty become drama?"

They sat in silence for a moment, the kind that invited reflection instead of avoidance.

"You don't talk about your feelings with the same ease anymore," Zainab continued. "You summarize them. Like you're afraid of saying too much."

Amara swallowed. "Sometimes when I bring things up, he thinks I'm overthinking."

"And what do you do then?"

"I let it go."

"How often?"

Amara didn't answer.

Zainab closed her notebook. "Do you feel heard?"

Amara hesitated. "I feel… accommodated."

Zainab nodded slowly. "That's not the same thing."

The words stayed with Amara long after the conversation shifted to lighter topics.

Later that evening, lying beside Daniel as he scrolled through his phone, Amara replayed the afternoon in her mind. Zainab's questions echoed quietly, not accusing, just present.

Daniel glanced at her. "You okay?"

"Yes," she said.

It was the truth—and also not.

She realized then that silence hadn't entered her relationship suddenly. It had arrived politely. Gradually. In the space between wanting to be understood and wanting to be easy to love.

And Zainab, with her quiet clarity, had been the first to notice the cost.

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