Fellon's pov
I got up in the middle of night from a terrifying nightmare.
I had been watching the same nightmare since I am eleven, today I am going to be 23 but still I am unable to get rid of my past. I wish today's date can be deleted from the calendar so that I never have to face this date again ever in my life but I can just wish that could have been possible.
No matter how much I try I always go back to my eleven year old self, thinking why all of this had to happened to me. How god can be this cruel to me, am I not his child. As always I started overthinking but what can I even do except cursing my life. Sometimes I am so frustrated with my life that I just wants to get rid of this world, of the people near me but I can't.
This life isn't mine I owed it from my father and I just don't have the power to end it.
I picked my phone and checked the time 5:45 a.m., it's going to be morning soon. So I decided to break fast for my roomates.
I live in Washington, D.C with my two roommates, Elsa is studying interior design and Amber is doing Bachelor's in ceramic pottery in the room we have rented last month.Since, tomorrow is the last day of our College and our graduation day, we were asked to empty our room after the graduation day. So, we had to find a new apartment for three of us.
Before metting these two girls I have been in a very miserable state. I don't used to eat food on time, never used to go out, always used to live in the four walls of my room. But since, metting them I feel a lot better. They are so supportive so friendly that now I like their company. It wasn't like that if we had this good trio from the start. Even when we first we didn't even faced each other. We always stayed in ourselves, like we don't even know who the other person is. And that totally explainable, we all had our own hardships and don't know how to trust the other person.
But now we can trust each other even with our closed eyes.
Elsa is studying interior design and Amber is doing Bachelor's in ceramic pottery whereas I have done Master's in physics.
It had never been an easy friendship from the start. When we first met we didn't even wanted to seen the other person face except Amber and used to enjoy our solitude. And that was totally exaplainable me and Elsa had suffered a lot at a small age that was hard for us to trust the other person but Amber have a beautiful family and that also reflects from her nature, she has such a sunshine vibe personality that she wants everyone around her to be friendly, to be enjoying ourselves.
But on the first day she met me and Elsa she became disappointed but it didn't broke her dreams that she had about having friendly friends and having a bond that no one can break, instead it gave her even more strength about having that bond between us. She forcely used to take on college trips, in college parties and somewhere it did strengthened our bond and if I hadn't got such friends I don't know what I would've had done.
Now Elsa cold nature and her taunts given when she is angry doesn't affect us because we know in morning she will come to us and say soory and then we will together make breakfast and then will go to college.
Elsa doesn't talk much but we understand her, her emotions.
We now understand each other where not even our family understood us.
And because we understand that's why we have warned Amber hundred of time to broke off from her boyfriend Alex. There's a negative vibe from him, that this guy isn't trustworthy and he is just playing with her but Amber is so head over heels in love with him that she doesn't wants to listen to anything and that's why me and Elsa are going with her in tomorrow's after graduation party because we both don't trust that guy even a little bit.