The grandmother was ill and old ...time was not on her side and her age just called her to the other side ..she was 96 years old she slept and never woke up
The grandmother's death did not bring silence to the house. It brought permission.
While she was alive, the house had still been anchored to something...routine, expectation, restraint. The grandmother had been sharp and demanding, but she had also been watching. Her presence had narrowed the father's rage, forced it to circle instead of strike freely. When she fell ill, the girl watched her mother exhaust herself trying to keep an older woman alive with hands already swollen from overwork and malnutrition. When the grandmother finally died, the house emptied of its last witness.
The father came home that day smelling of alcohol and grief twisted into something darker. He stood in the doorway, staring at the walls as if they had personally offended him. There was no crying, no mourning. Only a tightening of his jaw, a narrowing of his eyes. That night, he overturned a chair because it was in his way. He shattered a plate because it made noise. He struck his wife because she did not move fast enough. The girl stood frozen in the corner, watching her mother collapse against the counter, hearing her father's voice rise, accusing, sharp, relentless. He blamed them for everything. For the mess. For the silence. For the death. Especially for the death.
"She should have been taken care of," he said, looking directly at the girl. "You should have done more."
She was thirteen.
From that point on, punishment no longer required mistakes. It arrived on its own. The beatings became more frequent, less predictable. Sometimes they came in the morning before school. Sometimes at night when the house was already quiet. The girl learned to read the air, the way animals do before a storm. She learned when to shrink, when to disappear into corners, when to stop speaking entirely.
Her mother was still alive, but only in the way a candle continues to burn even after it has melted into itself. Cancer had settled into her stomach quietly, fed by years of hunger and neglect. The food in the house was never shared equally. The father ate first. He ate well. What remained was divided between illness and childhood. Most nights, there was nothing left at all.
The mother grew thinner, weaker, her body folding inward as if trying to protect what little life remained inside it. She spent more time in bed, groaning softly, apologizing for needing help. The girl became her caretaker without anyone asking her to be. She learned how to boil water, how to clean vomit, how to support a body that felt heavier every day. She learned how to do these things quietly.
The father's grief sharpened into something cruel and unrestrained. His anger no longer stayed at the surface. It seeped into places it never should have reached. Boundaries dissolved. The girl did not have the language to understand what was happening, only the instinct to freeze, to separate herself from her body, to stare at something else until it was over. Afterwards, she scrubbed her skin raw and kept her mouth shut. Speaking had already proven dangerous.
Once, shaking and desperate, she tried to tell him she was hurting. He responded with a blow so sudden it knocked the air from her lungs. He called her a liar. He called her disgusting. He told her she was the reason everything was rotten in the house. She stopped trying to explain after that.
School became the only place where time moved differently. Not kindly..just differently. There, the walls did not shake. Voices did not explode without warning. She sat in the same seat every day, hands folded, eyes down. Her grades hovered in the middle. She never aimed for excellence. Excellence required attention. Attention followed her home. She made sure she passed. Failing would mean staying inside the house longer.
Teachers called her quiet, obedient, easy. No one noticed the bruises hidden beneath long sleeves, or the way her body stiffened when someone stood too close. Other students learned quickly that she would not fight back. She was touched without permission, laughed at when she went silent, ignored when she withdrew. She accepted it the way she accepted everything else with resignation.
When her body began to change, she handled it alone. She had learned about blood and cycles in school, but knowledge did not make it less frightening. She hid the evidence carefully. Her father noticed anyway. Growing felt like another crime, another reason to be punished.
At night, she lay awake listening to the house breathe. Her mother's labored inhales from the bedroom. Her father's uneven steps in the hallway. Every sound carried meaning. Every silence felt temporary. She learned to exist in fragments, to be present only enough to endure what was necessary.
By thirteen, her world had narrowed to survival. An ill mother. A violent father. A house that swallowed sound. A body that no longer felt like her own. She did not imagine happiness because she had never seen it. She did not imagine escape because escape had already failed once.
She existed because she had to.
And because the house demanded it.
When you're ready, next we can:
introduce the friend as contrast
move into later teenagehood
or begin transitioning toward early adulthood and emotional numbness
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