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Chapter 5 - Only Mother Can Stay Forever

The next morning, Rhea woke up exactly the way she had fallen asleep.

The emerald blazer was still locked in her arms, creased, damp from dried tears. Her fingers were numb from holding it too tightly for too long, but she didn't loosen them. She just stared ahead, eyes swollen, unfocused, the weight of the night crashing back into her all at once.

She let out a soft, broken laugh.

It sounded wrong in the quiet room.

"So this was revenge," she murmured to herself.

The word tasted bitter now.

She laughed again, harsher this time, almost choking on it. Her shoulders shook, but no tears came yet — just that hollow, ugly sound of disbelief.

"All those promises," she whispered. "All that planning. I thought I was strong."

She buried her face into the blazer again, inhaling like it might still anchor her.

"I thought I'd control it," she said quietly. "Control her. Control myself."

Her laughter faded into silence.

Images replayed against her will — Ling standing there with wet eyes, saying she was ruined; Ling calling herself weak; Ling believing, completely believing, that she had never been loved.

Rhea squeezed her eyes shut.

"I became the monster I was pretending to be," she whispered.

Her grip on the blazer tightened again, desperate, possessive, useless.

"I wanted revenge," she said, voice flat now. "And I destroyed the only person who never tried to destroy me."

The room looked different in daylight — less romantic, more exposed. The fairy lights were off. The wine glasses sat untouched. Everything felt like evidence of a lie she had told herself.

Rhea lay there, unmoving, blazer pressed to her chest like a wound she refused to bandage.

She didn't cry again.

She just stared at the ceiling, listening to her own breathing, realizing with brutal clarity that whatever revenge she had once sworn to fulfill had already been completed —

not against Kane,

not against the Kwongs,

but against herself.

Kwong Mansion - Evening

Ling woke up at 5 p.m., dragged out of darkness by a dull, splitting ache behind her eyes.

Her throat burned. Her body felt heavy, foreign, like it didn't belong to her anymore. Every limb resisted when she tried to move, and when she finally did, the room tilted violently.

She groaned softly.

Memories came back in fragments — flashing lights, her own laughter that hadn't sounded like hers, sirens, hands pulling her, shame sticking to her skin. Then the bedroom. Her mother's arms. The collapse.

She turned her head slightly.

Eliza was still there.

Sitting against the headboard in the exact same position, back straight despite the hours, one arm wrapped securely around Ling's head, the other resting protectively across her waist. Her face looked exhausted — eyes red, skin pale — but alert, painfully alert, like she had never closed them at all.

She hadn't.

Eliza hadn't slept.

Not even for a moment.

The realization hit Ling harder than the headache.

"Mom…" Ling whispered hoarsely.

Eliza's gaze snapped down instantly, relief flooding her expression before she could stop it. Her hand came up to cradle Ling's face, thumb brushing gently under her eye.

"You're awake," Eliza said quietly.

Ling swallowed, her vision blurring again — this time not from substances, but from guilt.

"How long?" Ling asked.

Eliza didn't answer directly. "You slept through the night. Through the morning. And woke at evening."

Ling exhaled shakily.

"And you?"

Eliza's lips pressed into a thin line. "I stayed for my life. For my love. For my baby. And for my everything."

Ling let out a broken, humorless breath. "Of course you did."

She tried to sit up properly, but dizziness slammed into her. Eliza tightened her hold immediately, steadying her without a word.

Ling leaned back against her, defeated.

"I messed up," Ling said after a long pause. Her voice was flat, stripped of pride. "I went back to everything I swore I'd never touch again."

Eliza rested her cheek lightly against Ling's hair.

"You were hurting," she said. "You were trying not to feel."

Ling's jaw tightened.

"I embarrassed us," Ling murmured. "The headlines. The police."

Eliza's tone hardened, just slightly. "You embarrassed no one. Anyone who mattered understood exactly what happened."

Ling closed her eyes.

"I believed her," she whispered. "Even when you told me not to."

Eliza's arms tightened around her.

"I wasn't asking you to stop loving," she said softly. "I was asking you not to disappear for someone who hadn't earned you. Who don't deserve you."

Ling's chest shook.

"I disappeared anyway," she said. "Completely."

Eliza pressed a slow kiss to Ling's temple — grounding, maternal, fierce.

"You came back," Eliza replied. "That matters."

Ling stayed quiet for a long time, listening to Eliza's steady breathing, feeling how solid she was — how present.

Finally, Ling whispered, barely audible:

"I don't feel strong anymore."

Eliza didn't hesitate.

"Then I'll be strong until you remember how," she said.

Ling leaned into her fully then, exhaustion sinking deep into her bones.

For the first time since the night everything broke, she didn't feel alone in the wreckage.

And Eliza stayed awake a little longer, holding her daughter, knowing sleep could wait —

because healing never started on time.

Ling's tears fell silently.

They slipped from the corners of her eyes, one after another, soaking into the fabric near Eliza's shoulder. She didn't wipe them away. She just stared ahead, realization cutting deeper than any headline or betrayal ever could.

She had been breaking everyone.

For someone who had never deserved that kind of power over her.

Her lips trembled.

"I did this," Ling whispered. "I hurt all of you… for her."

Eliza shifted slightly, instinctively trying to pull Ling closer, to gather her fully into her arms again the way she had all night. But the movement sent a sharp ache through her back. Her breath hitched for just a second — quick, controlled — and she tried to hide it immediately.

Ling noticed.

Of course she did.

"Mom," Ling said softly.

Eliza shook her head faintly. "It's nothing. Come here."

Ling didn't argue.

She carefully stepped back instead, easing herself out of Eliza's hold. Eliza looked confused for a moment, reaching out instinctively, but Ling gently guided her down, helping her lie back against the pillows.

Then Ling lay down too.

She turned onto her side and tucked herself into Eliza's arms, smaller now, quieter — fitting there the way she had when she was a child, before she learned how to be untouchable.

Ling rested her head against Eliza's chest, listening to the steady heartbeat she had taken for granted for too long. One hand came up to hold Eliza's wrist, grounding her.

"Sleep," Ling whispered. "I'll stay now."

Eliza's breath trembled.

Her hand slid into Ling's hair, fingers shaking just slightly as she stroked it back.

"You don't have to be strong for me," Eliza murmured.

Ling closed her eyes.

"I know," she said. "That's why I can finally rest."

Eliza exhaled slowly, exhaustion finally catching up to her. Her eyes closed, her body relaxing for the first time since the night before, trusting — completely — that her daughter was there.

Ling stayed awake for a while longer.

She stared at the wall, tears still slipping quietly, but her grip on Eliza never loosened.

For the first time, she chose not to run.

For the first time, she chose the love that had never left her.

And when Eliza finally fell asleep with Ling in her arms, Ling held her just as tightly —

as if protecting her mother might be the first step toward forgiving herself.

Eliza woke up with a sharp intake of breath.

Sleep hadn't held her for long — it never did when Ling was hurting. After barely five hours, at 10 p.m., her eyes opened again, heart racing as if something had called her back.

The room was dim and quiet.

Ling was still there.

Curled close, awake, her eyes open and distant, as if sleep had never truly touched her either.

Eliza lifted a hand and brushed her thumb gently along Ling's arm. "You didn't sleep."

Ling gave a small, tired smile. "I said I'd stay."

Eliza's chest tightened.

She shifted slightly, propping herself up despite the ache in her body, and looked at her daughter properly. Ling's face looked calmer than before — but emptier too, like something essential had been stripped away.

They sat in silence for a moment.

Then Eliza spoke.

Her voice cracked immediately.

"She is the one who broke you," Eliza said quietly. "She is the one who was wrong."

Tears slid down her cheeks, unrestrained now.

"And still," Eliza continued, voice trembling, "you are the one punishing yourself."

Ling's jaw tightened. She looked away.

"I let it happen," Ling said. "I ignored you. I ignored everyone."

Eliza reached out and cupped Ling's face firmly, forcing her to meet her eyes.

"Listen to me," Eliza said, tears falling freely now. "Being deceived does not make you guilty. Loving does not make you weak."

Ling's lips trembled.

"I feel stupid," Ling whispered. "I feel like everything I was… disappeared."

Eliza shook her head fiercely.

"No," she said. "What disappeared was the lie you were living in. You are still here."

She pressed her forehead to Ling's.

"You were strong enough to trust," Eliza said. "And you will be strong enough to heal — but not if you keep bleeding yourself for someone who doesn't even look back."

Ling's eyes filled again.

"I don't know how to stop," she admitted.

Eliza wrapped her arms around her once more, holding her tightly.

"Then don't stop alone," she said. "Let us carry you until you can stand again."

Ling's breath broke as she leaned into her mother, finally letting herself cry without fighting it.

Eliza held her, tears soaking into Ling's hair, her voice low but unwavering.

"She does not get to destroy you twice," Eliza whispered. "Not in my house. Not in your life."

The room stayed quiet after that.

No shouting.

No promises of revenge.

Just a mother and daughter, holding onto each other in the aftermath —

and choosing, slowly, painfully, to pull Ling back from the edge.

Ling had never seen her mother like this.

Never.

Eliza Kwong — the woman who ruled rooms with silence, who never let her voice shake, who carried empires on her back without bending — was crying openly in front of her.

Not controlled tears. Not restrained ones.

These were helpless.

That realization hit Ling harder than betrayal ever had.

Ling moved closer immediately, instinct overriding everything else. She reached out and gently wiped Eliza's tears with her thumb, the way Eliza had done for her countless times growing up.

"Don't," Ling said softly, voice firm despite the tremor in her chest. "Don't cry like this."

Eliza tried to speak, but her breath broke again.

Ling shook her head and leaned in, resting her forehead against Eliza's.

"I've never seen you weak," Ling whispered. "Not once in my life."

Her own eyes burned, but she didn't let the tears fall.

"And I won't be the reason you ever are."

Eliza looked at her, stunned.

Ling straightened slowly. Something in her posture changed — not coldness, not arrogance — but resolve. Quiet, grounded, deliberate.

"I won't destroy myself," Ling said. "Not anymore."

Eliza's lips trembled. "Ling—"

"Not for me," Ling continued, cutting in gently. "For you."

She took Eliza's hands in hers, squeezing them tightly.

"I'll be strong," Ling said. "I promise you that. I won't grieve like this. And I won't let you grieve because of me."

Eliza searched her face desperately. "You don't have to pretend."

"I'm not pretending," Ling replied. "I'm choosing."

Her voice softened.

"I already lost too much," she said. "I won't lose myself. And I won't lose you."

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