Today, after the Fajr prayer ! Zainab was sitting on the prayer mat as if she would not get up today until she gets all her prayers accepted.
She had seen so many ups and downs in her life that She was now afraid of her future.
She was very young when she lost her mother, her mother's death was not a natural death, she was dying a little every day because of her father...
Her father, under family pressure, married Zainab's mother; he was in love with someone else. He did not leave his first love even after marriage, which Zainab's mother did not like at all."No woman likes it at all that her husband is in love with someone else."
This was the reason why there were constant fights between Zainab's mother and father. Zainab's mother and father would sometimes not talk to each other for several days, the effect of which was causing mental damage to Zainab.
Zainab would get scared very quickly even at the smallest things. She was good in studies but her confidence, charm and childishness had all vanished. Even in school, she would only study and not participate in other activities. She had made very few friends, she did not talk to anyone easily, she had a friend named Iqra, she was a very extroverted type, she used to do half of Zainab's work.(Ask something from the teachers, get notes from other classmates or something else), Zainab had become completely calm and sad. She wanted to play and talk like other children and get her doubts cleared from the teachers.But she couldn't do it even if she wanted to. Whenever she wanted to say something, her throat would get choked. She would sometimes get very angry, but what could she do?
What could she do when she never found peace at home. Seeing her mother crying and sad every day,
Zaibab's father never even spoke to her with a smile. When he returned home from work at night, he would eat his food and go to sleep,
He never asked about Zainab's well-being, nor about Zainab's mother, how her day was, nor did he ever say anything about himself.
All these things were emptying Zainab's mother from inside...She also wanted to live a good life filled with love, affection and respect, but I don't know why Zainab's father never understood his wife's love and affection.
One day, the teachers at school informed her that some people were coming from outside. There would be a competition in the school and the winner would be given a prize. As always, Zainab had decided not to participate.But her friend Iqra gave him a lot of trouble today.Iqra said that you will have to participate in the drawing competition today because Iqra had sometimes seen Zainab painting and drawing alone and she knew that Zainab draws very well.But she is afraid of coming in front of people... On repeated requests from Iqra, Zainab participated in the drawing competition... She went to the room where the competition was to be held and took her place And she sat down quietly. She was quite scared and her hands were shaking, but today she also showed some courage...And She also drew well ,according to the theme of the competition.
After some time when the result was announced everyone was shocked because Zainab was declared the winner of the competition...all the children and even the teachers were shocked. Zainab herself could not believe that she had won, then she was given a trophy and gifts… Zainab was very happy, she had never been so happy before, confidence started rising within her.
She was very happy and excited thinking that when she shows this trophy to her mother and father at home, they will appreciate her...For the first time she opened the door of her house with a smiling face, otherwise she always opened the door with a sad and unhappy face, as soon as she entered the house She started searching for her mother, she was nowhere to be seen, she thought that maybe her mother would be on the terrace, she went towards the terrace with great force, as soon as she reached the terrace, there were tears in her eyes and the trophy and gifts all fell from her hands, in front of her was her mother who had fallen on the roof and blood was coming out of her nose,Zainab was not able to understand what to do, at that time Zainab was only 12 years old, she did not understand much, she was completely scared, somehow crying she called her father and then they went to the hospital.The doctor in the hospital said that you people delayed in bringing the patient, we could not save her....
Zainab fainted as soon as she heard the doctor speak. After some time, when Zainab regained consciousness, she started crying loudly. Her mother was the reason for her life and smile. That day, Zainab was completely shattered. After that day, Zainab never spoke to her father again.
Zainab now became even more calm and sad than before. She became more quiet now, time passed slowly and she was now 20 years old. Now Zainab started going to college, she would go straight to her college and from there would come straight home, she was not like other girls who enjoyed every moment. Zainab still had only one friend, Iqra, from school days. But now even Iqra didn't like being with her as much because Zainab stopped her from doing many things that are quite common in today's society.Zainab used to stop Iqra from getting free from non-mehram without any reason, not wearing hijab with binding, etc., all these things were not acceptable to Iqra at all...In College, everyone in the class used to call Zainab old-fashioned, everyone used to say that a person should not be so simple.Gradually, Iqra also started feeling hesitant to talk to or meet Zainab.
Zainab was now even more lonely than before. She just wanted to complete her degree and get out of this college ,One day she was sitting alone in the canteen, she was crying inside, then someone placed a paper on her table, something was written on it, as Zainab looks back, she does not see anyone behind...After reading what was written in the paper, a slight smile appeared on Zainab's face...to be continued.....