Main apni CA ki kahani shuru karne se pehle, apna education background batana chahta hoon.
Kyuki ye sirf meri padhai ki kahani nahi hai,
ye meri kamzori, meri galtiyon, aur meri seekh ki kahani hai.
Main pehli se lekar 8th standard tak Mumbai ke ek Urdu medium school mein padha.
Us school mein zyada focus English par nahi hota tha,
isliye meri English hamesha se hi weak rahi.
Lekin us waqt mujhe lagta tha:
"English se kya farq padta hai? Pass hona kaafi hai."
Mera padhne ka tareeka bhi bilkul galat tha.
Jab exam paas aata,
maan lo kal paper hai…
toh main raat ko book kholta.
Do-teen ghante ratta maara,
subah exam diya,
aur phir bhool gaya.
Aur sabse ajeeb baat ye thi ki,
main phir bhi pass ho jaata tha.
Is wajah se mere dimaag mein ye baith gaya tha:
"Mehnat ki koi zarurat hi nahi."
Main studies ko seriously nahi leta tha.
Na koi planning,
na koi routine,
na koi target.
Bas time pass.
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Phir 8th standard mein COVID-19 ka lockdown lag gaya.
School band.
Classroom band.
Teacher screen ke andar.
Online classes shuru hui,
lekin main zyada dhyaan nahi deta tha.
Kabhi mobile pe game,
kabhi reels,
kabhi so jana…
Pura saal aise hi nikal gaya.
Mujhe laga sab theek hai.
Lekin asal mein, main aur peeche ja raha tha.
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9th standard mein hum Mumbai se Navi Mumbai shift ho gaye.
Lockdown ne Abbu ke business ko bahut nuksaan pahunchaya tha.
Pehle jahan roz kaam hota tha,
ab wahan sannata tha.
Ghar mein tension thi,
lekin main us waqt uski seriousness nahi samajhta tha.
Nayi jagah,
naya environment,
naya school.
Aur sabse bada shock — English medium.
Mera admission English medium school mein ho gaya.
Pehle din hi mujhe samajh aa gaya:
Yeh game alag level ka hai.
Teacher English mein bolte,
students English mein baat karte,
aur main bas chup baitha rehta.
Mujhe lagta tha sab mujhe dekh kar soch rahe honge:
"Is ladke ko kuch aata bhi hai ya nahi?"
Class mein sawaal poocha jaata,
main jawab jaanta bhi tha,
lekin English mein bol nahi paata tha.
Isliye chup rehna hi behtar lagta tha.
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Jaise-taise karke maine 9th pass kar li.
Result aaya — 52%.
Number dekh kar dil toot gaya.
Maine khud se poocha:
"Kya main itna hi kamzor hoon?"
Us raat main der tak soya nahi.
Lekin phir bhi,
maine apni galti ko seriously nahi liya.
Main bas itna soch kar chup ho gaya:
"Chalo, 10th mein achha kar lunga."
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Board exam ka saal tha,
isliye tuition classes join ki.
Maths teacher bahut achhe the.
Woh samjhaate the, example dete the.
Lekin baaki subjects…
Sirf yaad karne ko kehte the.
Main bhi wahi karta.
Concept samajhne ki jagah,
main sirf ratta lagata.
Notebook bhari hui hoti,
lekin dimaag khaali.
Mujhe nahi pata tha ki padhai ka sahi tareeka kya hota hai:
✔️ Pehle samajhna
✔️ Phir likhna
✔️ Phir revise karna
✔️ Phir practice
Main bas pehla step hi skip kar deta tha.
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Dheere-dheere board exam paas aane lage.
Pressure badhne laga.
Ghar wale umeed laga kar baithe the.
Teachers advice de rahe the.
Aur main?
Main ab bhi wahi purana main tha.
Last moment pe padhna.
Last moment pe ghabrana.
Exam shuru hone se ek raat pehle,
main apni table par baitha tha.
Books khuli thi.
Notes bikhre hue the.
Par dimaag mein ek hi sawaal tha:
"Agar is baar bhi fail ho gaya toh?"
Dil zor se dhadak raha tha.
Haath thande pad rahe the.
Us waqt mujhe zara bhi andaza nahi tha…
Ye exam sirf mere marks decide nahi karega,
balki meri soch, meri himmat, aur meri zindagi ka direction badalne wala hai.
Aur jo faisla main agle kuch dinon mein lene wala tha…
Wahi mere "CA Ka Safar" ki asli shuruaat banne wala tha...