He had the nerve to look at me did he expect I was gonna cry...Ha!
I stared blankly back at him the sniffle was to attract his gaze to mine , my voice cracking skills are top tier ...he must have thought I was gonna start crying.
"We are both adults ...I loved you once ,let's end this cleanly ." I said finding his puzzled look amusing.
He had gotten so accustomed to my fake side but this time round I was actually fade up he didn't amuse me anymore he was so predictable worse ,I was coming to an edge where I thought of numerous ways of ruining his life ...but then...He was the only kind person I first mate in my life am not an animal ....further more I was the one who initiated all of this ....I shouldn't do this again ,maybe I will meet someone else soon .....maybe...
He loved seeing me beg but that wasn't how I usually did my things am so flexible...a lot had changed about me because of him ...the only part that hurts me is that no one ever notices....no one...
I picked up my car keys and dashed out in the rain to his apartment and left that night night .
Here we go again....just me and myself I guess ...I have family members but we are not close....so I rather stay alone till further notice....fortunately I was expecting a big investment in my entrepreneur plan in the coming week.
Ha! Maybe he thought I was gonna rely big on him this time round as well...it's weird even though I knew sooner or later we were gonna break up ....I have always hated this feeling.
ALONE!
Loneliness makes me run mad ....want to die ...want to ruin everything and everyone .I hate humans but u can't help the thought of leaving without paying back those who owe me....their ruins
Ring ! Ring !
My phone ringing snapped me out of the daze and my heart skipped a bit...not out of excitement.....it was the familiar dopamine I git whenever she called ....couldn't anticipate further whether to pick her call or not if I didn't she would reck havoc .
"Yes mom...." I said hopping she would be quick and say wat she wanted real quick .
"Hi ,Joan ,how are you doing?"there goes her sweet voice before she snaps any soon.
"Am fine mummy ,how are you?" replied standing up to go to the balcony of the hotel room ,my heart is always unsettled talking to her...
"Am fine ,to be quick your uncle died." She sounded happy.
Good news?!
"Of what .....which uncle ?"I asked
"Richard from your dad's side, ha! ha!" She laughed...
Oh!
"I dont know the details of his death but here are the funeral arrangement pictures "she said then I heard her typing something then followed by a string of incoming messages I knew she was seriously happy.
"Are you gonna go to the funeral tomorrow?" She asked .
'No!' I thought "Do you want me to go?"I asked instead ...
"Ofcourse ..."she jolted excitedly and followed with alot of words I really could guess wat always comes next so I just signed and stared blankly....hearing her rumble about karma and shit ....talking about how my dad's family mistreated her ....when will this end...? "...even though they weren't helpful in your growth u can go and burry him .haha!" She continued with a jest ....which was not so funny ....I was tired
"Okay mum....actually I have something up tomorrow morning imma rest early, good night ...." I said
"Did you get a job?...."
Beep#@£
I ended the call and immediately put my phone in plane mode ....if I find mussed calls from her I can just say my battery died.
No! I don't hate my mom ,but I cant say I love her either though I grew to understand her nature and let her be as long as she didn't interfere with my life on a basis.
After all she is part of why am like this ,but I cant bring myself to do or wish her harm....
"Funeral ..." I murmured staring at the city lights and wondered who could possibly die next..
I did not hate my uncle Richard but his death is well deserving ....he was indirect part of why my family fell apart harshly that would have if he didn't influence it .I was young so I don't think my hatred for him ran deep as my mom's.....she hated them.
.....
Following day at noon ....I went to the funeral took my mom more pictures she asked for and then left didn't interact with anyone and went back to my car .....
"What else? " I signed and started my car ,I was so distracted I didn't notice the car coming forth hence crushing into it pretty hard....it was a custom made maybach one of a kind...I couldn't afford to pay it even with my insurance....and my savings combined....
It's gonna be a long day too.....I stared at the car ,subconsciously biting on my lips and fidgeting with my nails out of habbit to calm my self down .....will this person be a man or woman will they be easy to talk to...
Just as the thought ran through my head I say a tall sturdy figure walk out .....the parking lot had not so bright light so I couldn't get a clear glimpse of his face and the headlights of the car where not helping much.....
Knock! Knock! Knock!
Went my window and I snapped my head towards the sound and saw him....he was handsome ....totally my type ...but I don't do married guys ...I assumed he seemed older and usually guys his age are engaged or married....has he finished examine the damage?
"Hey ,am really sorry this happened, you see my dead uncle has died so am out of sorts "I lied loud enough for him to hear as I climbed out of my stupid chunky lexus....