"tu doctor banegi? Pahale apne marks dekh ."
Ye line mere dil me seedha chubh gayi thi .
Mein ek chhote shaher ki ladaki hoon .
Na mein class topper thi ,na bilkul week .
Bas ak average student, 60-70% wale marks . Teachers hamesha first bench wale student ko example dete the . Aur mein ?
Last bench par chup-chap baith kar sapne dekhti thi .
Ek sapna tha white coat pehnne ka .
Jab bhi hospital jaati thi , doctors ko dekhti thi ,dil me ajeeb si feeling aati thi . Confidence bhi , dar bhi. Lagta tha -" Ek din mein bhi aisi banaugi".
Lekin reality thodi alag thi.
11 th mein biology tough lagne Laga.
Physics to jaane Dushman Hi tha. Pehle unit test me sirf 42 Marks aaye . Paper haath me tha aur kuch classmates halki si hansi rok nhi paye .
"Doctor banna hai na ?"
" Pehle pass to ho ja".
Mein bahar se normal thi... .ander se toot rhi thi .
Us raat mirror ke samne khadi ho mein khud se poocha -
"Kya main sach me doctor ban sakti hoon ".
Aankho mein aansu aa gaye. lekin us rat meine ek desicon liya .
"Mein topper nhi hoon... Par main fighter hoon".
Us din ke baad meri routine change ho gyi .
Subah 5 baje alarm.
School.
Tution.
Ghar ke chote mote kam.
Aur rat 9 se 1 -sirf self study.
Phone silent.Social media uninstall.
Friends ke outings cancel.
Dheere-dheere meine apni duniya choti kar di - sirf book aur sapne .
Shuru me improvement nhi dikha.
Mock test me 380/720 . Dil fir se toot gya . Ek second ke liye Laga - " shayad sab sahi bolte hain. ye mere bas ki baat nhi hai".
Par phir maine apni mistakes dekhi. Har galti circle ki. Concept dubara padha .
Youbutub lectures dekhe. Short notes banaye.
380 se 400.
400 se 460.
Ek din biology test me 89/100 aaye.
Teacher ne pahli baar kaha -
"Good improvement".
Sirf do sabd.....mere liye medal se kam nhi the .
Journey easy nhi thi .
Kabhi physics numericals solve nhi hote the . Kabhi dimag blank ho jata .kabhi confidence zero . Kabhi lagta tha sab kuch chod du .
Par har raat dairy me 1 line likhati thi :
"Aaj 1% better bani".
Bas wahi 1% mujhe aage badhata raha .
Subh 5 baje uthke, reading karti hu .
Phir fresh hokar school jati hu .
School lecture me mujhe pehle se jyda intrust aata hai , sab kuch samj me aata hai .
Month ke mock test,weekly test me ache marks aate hai .
Phir mujhe laga me kar sakti hu .
First exam me to overlay marks the .
Biology , physics, chemestry me jayada se jayada 28 ya fir 30 aate the .
Mummy papa mujhe daat te the .
Itane kam marks me kya hoga .
Neet to kya tu 12 th pass bhi nhi hogi .
Phir maine apne aap se pucha - kya me nhi kar sakti ...
Sab log bolte the ki me kuch nhi kar paungi.me chote ghar ki ladki kya kar sakti hai .lekin sab ko bata diya ki me kya kar sakti hu .
Teachers ne bhi bola .....
Ab tu pahle se jayada marks la rahi hai .
Good work and grow up !
Roj me preparation karti thi .1 month ke bad meri final exam thi . Abhi to bahut kuch karna tha . Meri to kuch samaj me nhi aaya ,
Biology ke diagram,
Physics ke questions,
Chemistry me bhi 5 ch rah gye the ,
English me grammar touch thi ,
Sanskrit samj nhi aati ....
Days pass thaya ,exam time table aa gya.raat me late study ek divas pratice,paper solve karti hu . Phir paper me se mistake pr rounds karti hu . Mujhe samj me aaya ki preparation mate samjana or practice karna jaruri hai .
Aese hi month ka 1 week chala gya hai . Abhi bhi bahut kuch baki hai . Me pura din padh -padh ke bore hoti thi . Stress, tention kuch samj nhi aata .
Time mengment me problem aayi ,ek question solve karna difficult hota ja rha tha.phir schedule banayi , sab ke liye time nhi tha me sirf aur sirf pura din padhna chahti thi . Lekin possible nhi tha .Ghar ke kam , online class, school, tution me vaqt ka pata hi nhi chalta.
Lekin 1 line .....
"Mujhe white coat chahiye."
Raat din mehnat karna jaruri tha.
Mera doctor banne na sapna .mere parents ka aur family ka sapna .jo muje kisi bhi hal me para karna hi hai . Chahe kuch bhi ho jaaye .
Yahi khayal mere dimag me tha jiski vajah se me achche se padh saku .
Ak din fresh hone ke liye bahar nikli ke kuch logo meri mummy ko kaha -
Aapki beti bahut hosiyar hai pura din padhti hai . Ye sun kar meri ma ke aankh me se aansu aa gye . Me bhi ro padi .
Mock test me 30 /30 aaye .
Bahut khushi huyi.papa khushi se pagal ho gye .
Teachers ne mere perents ko school me bulaya aur kaha -
Aapki beti abhi jyada mehnat kar rhi hai . class me topper ho gyi hai . lacture me pura dhayan deti hai . first bench pe bethti hai .aapko proud hona chahiye .
Yeh sun kar mummy papa khush ho gye .aur mere liye gift lekar aaye .
Mene socha mock test se mere parents itne kush hai ho agar final exam me 1 rank laungi to mummy papa ka sapna pura hoga .
Unka namm roshan karungi.. .
Agle din man lagakar padhai ki .
Biology me almost ho gya , thoda hi Bacha hai .
Physics ke questions solve hote ja rhe the.
Almost ho gya tha.
Abhi me white coat pehn paungi, doctor banugi,sabki help karungi.
Isi confirmation ke sath mehnat kar rhi hu .
Mere friend mujse sikhne ke liye aate hai . group me sabse topper ban gyi hu me . teachers meri respect karte hai .kuch tough nhi hai agar use samja jaye to .
Friends ko samjhti hu meri tarah bano , pratice karo to sab possible hai .
Exam me 23 din bache hai .
Tention to hai lekin reality alag hai .
Abhi exam ka din aayega phir me result dekhne ke liye bahut khush hu .
"Sapne ke liye struggle jaruri hai . Hard work aur discipline se koy target achive kar sakte hai . stress ki jagah focus and understanding jajuri hoti hai".
"Khamoshi se mehnat kar aur fal ki chinta mat kar !"