Mai 11th class ki student 2023 mai jab mai 9th mai thi tab hame pyaar huaa or 2024 mai mera breakup huaa tab mai 10th mai thi uske baad maine apni padhayi apna ghar sab chord diya uske baad apne mama ke ghar mai dedh saal se hu mai jab mai chhoti si thi tab meri maa ka death huaa or wo hame chord ke chali gayi mere mummy ke mayeke walo ne hame rakha apne paas mere baap ko nhi diya un logo ne mujhe kiuki mera baap koi kaam nhi karta tha peeta tha ,mere maa ko torcher karta tha ,meri maa apna sasural chord ke mayeke Aagyi jab wo pregnant thi jabki pregnancy mai ek aurat ko sabse jyada jarurat uske pati ki hi hoti hai wo us haalat mai chord diye unhe or meri maa mere nana yaani apne mayeke rehne lagi! Uske baad mai paida hui .chhoti si thi tabse mere mama log ne mujhe rakha lekin ek din aisa aaya jab mai apne life ka sabse bada faisla le li or wo ye tha( pyaar ) mere pariwar ne mere liye har cheez kiya sukh ho ya dukh hamesha saath rahe padhaya likhaya lekin meri ek galti wo kya tha end mai pata chalega jisse mere haath se sab kuch nikal gaya mera pariwar, meri padhayi mera sab kuch jaha mai bina tension, pressure ke hassti thi waha mai ab roj raat ko roti thi wo bhi akele mai roti ,chikhti ,chilati ye sab meri awaaz sirf mai sunn paati jo cheekh cheekh ke Kehte thea maine kaha tha ye galat kar rahi hai tu mat kar baad mai pachtayegi lekin tumne meri ek nhi suni kar baithi wo galti . Or ab sabse duur ho gayi hu pariwar, dost sabse yaha tak ki khud se duur ho chuki hu sheeshe ke samne khadi hoti hu to nazre nahi mila paati hu ki ye maine kya kar diya jo hamne kabhi socha nahi tha wo huaa mere saath maine kisi ka kya bigada tha jo bhagwan ne mujhe itni badi sazaa dedi aakhir kyu bhagwan ji kyu ?
Darasal ye galti bhagwan ne nhi maine ki hai isiliye shayad sazaa bhi hame hi mil rahi hai kaha gayi ho khilkhilati ladki ? Jo sabka acha sochti thi sabke saath acha karti thi .
Aakhir kaha gayi ?
Or ab mai aisi ho gyi hu ki mujhe .
Kisi se koi farq nhi padta log mere baare mai acha bol rahe ya bura!
Jisko jo bolna rehta hai mere baare mai bolke chala jaata .
Aakhir kyu ho gayi hu mai aise?
Jabki mai aisi bilkul bhi nahi thi .
Maine kabhi kisi ka bura nahi chaha toh ab mai kaise kisi ka bura chah ya kar sakti hu !
Mujhe sabse nafrat kyu ho gaya hai?
Aakhir isme duniya, pariwar ki kya galti hai jo mai un log se nafrat kar baithi hu!
Khair!!
2025 (January)
13 January ko kuch aisa huaa meri hassi mujhe wapas mil gayi .
Mera dost mujhe kuch saal baad Mila usko hamse pyaar tha 5 saal se par mai is baat se anjaan thi ham dono family walo ke saath ghumne bhi jaate acha bond tha ham dono mai age mai badi or wo mujhse chhota jab mai 12 ya 13 saal ki thi hame ye pyaar wayaar kya hota hai kuch Idea nahi tha in sab ka matalb bhi nahi jaanti thi mai .lekin mera ye dost sabse alag maano ( Special)
Mere kayi saare dost hai par ye un sab mai nhi aata ye un sab se alag iske liye mere mann mai ek alag hi feelings rahi hamesha se par wo feelings kya thi mai kabhi samjh hi nahi paayi . Apni behen ko batayi , dost ko batayi iske baare mai wo log hame iske naam se chidhati thi pata nahi kyu ?
Hame nhi samjh aata .
Lekin ek din hame wo feeling jo uske liye aati thi kaun si feeling thi samjh aa gayi .
2(February) 2025 ko maine usse confess kiya ki ( I love u ♥️)
Or wo tha (pyaar) .
5 saal se is baat se anjaan thi mai lekin ek din samjh aa hi gaya .
Wo ladka pura jod diya hame .
Fix kar diya hame mere andar kaun si buri aadat nhi aa gayi thi par usne sab khatam kar diya .
Mujhe phir se pehle jaisa bana diya ekdm pehle jaise hassti , khilkhilati ,bina tension ke rehne wali wo ziddi si nakchadi si ladki bana diya !
Jo pyaar mai chahti thi usne diya mujhe mere nakhare uthata , mera attitude sehta , rote to shaant karata .
Har condition mai usne mera saath diya !
Kabhi mujhe akela nahi kiya khud se duur nahi kiya meri har baat bahut dhyaan se sunta , mere bikhre baalon ko apne haath se suljhata .
Maano mai uski gf nhi bachii hu uski !
Usne mujhe kuch aise tareeke ka pyaar kiya .ki wo khud ko hi bhul gaya !
Hamesha khud se upar hame rakha first priority banaya hame !
Meri galti pe hame daanta ,samjhaya magar saath nahi chorda mera .
Maine bhi usse ekdm toot ke pyaar kiya
Mai uski pehli magar wo mera dusra par maine pyaar usse pehle se jyada kiya bahut jyada shayad usse iska andaza bhi nhi .
Ki maine usse kitna pyaar diya !
Aise hi hai meri kuch kahani .
Jaha hame sab kuch Mila lekin jo kabhi socha nahi tha wo bhi mil gaya !
Isiliye life mai sab karo magar pyaar sirf usse karo jo tumse bhi pyaar kare or khud se jyada kare jo apne se pehle tumhe rakhe tumhe fix kare naaki bss tumhara use or use sirf physically hi nahi hota hai?
Or bhi bahut tareeke ka use hota hai jo har ek ladki ko pata rehna chahiye ye mera regret hai mai isse samjh chuki hu or mai nahi chahti jo mere saath huaa wo kisi or ladki ke bhi saath ho !
THANKYOU 💗