I don't know if anyone is listening to me.
Still, today I will speak.
Because staying silent for too long has filled my chest with unspoken words.
I am an ordinary girl.
I don't have a royal life,
I don't have a grand story.
Yet I have my own little world—
where every day I fight, smile,
and sometimes quietly break.
Every morning, I don't wake up because of an alarm.
I wake up because of responsibility.
My mother calls,
"Get up, you're getting late."
And I do.
Because I have to.
I stand in front of the mirror and look at myself.
Do I really know this girl?
Dark circles under my eyes,
a forced smile on my lips.
Everyone thinks I'm strong.
But no one knows how tired I am.
I love to speak,
but not everyone listens.
I love to dream,
but everyone says,
"Don't think too much. Be realistic."
Reality…
That word scares me the most.
I go to college,
laugh with friends, share stories.
But inside, I'm having a different conversation.
I tell myself—
"One day, you'll make it.
One day, people will hear your voice."
But when is that day?
Many nights, I sit alone on the rooftop.
I look at the sky and talk to it.
Because the sky doesn't stop me.
It doesn't question me.
It doesn't judge me.
I tell it—
"Am I wrong to want this?
I just want to live as myself."
My father says,
"You're a girl, don't overthink."
My mother says,
"Everything will be fine."
But no one says—
"I understand your pain."
I do.
I understand myself.
Sometimes I feel
that if I stay silent,
everyone will be happier.
But I don't stay silent.
Because my silence would destroy me.
I study,
I dream,
I try to keep the girl inside me alive.
Some people laugh.
Some people say,
"Why do you talk so big?"
Inside, I reply—
Because if I speak small,
my existence becomes small too.
I know
my path isn't easy.
I will fall,
I will cry,
and I will stand up again.
But I won't stop.
One day, I will stand in a place
where no one can silence me.
That day, I will speak again—
not with a trembling voice.
I will say—
"I made it."
Today, I just want to say this—
I am still fighting.
I am still speaking.
And as long as I can speak,
I have not lost......