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Chapter 7 - chapter 7- say it

The next morning, Kova stares at the ceiling. He hasn't slept well.

KOVA

I like Mason.

He immediately covers his face with his pillow.

KOVA

Nope.

He sits up.

KOVA

I do not.

Silence.

KOVA

...I definitely do.

Kova falls back onto his bed.

KOVA

Oh my god.

He grabs his pillow and screams into it.

KOVA

Why Mason?!

He sits up again, running his hands through his hair.

KOVA

Okay. Calm down. You just like him. That's normal.

Silence.

KOVA

Except he's my bodyguard.

He freezes.

KOVA

And he's temporary.

Kova groans and flops back onto the bed.

KOVA

This is a disaster.

After a while, Kova finally gets ready for rehearsal. On the drive to the studio, he keeps talking to himself.

KOVA

I'm not telling him.

Silence.

KOVA

I'm definitely not telling him.

Another Silence.

KOVA

..Maybe I should. No.

He grips the steering wheel.

KOVA

Absolutely not.

He arrives at the studio. Kova walks through the doors. Then he sees Mason. Mason looks over.

MASON

Hey, Nathan.

Kova freezes. Every thought in his head disappears.

KOVA

...Hey.

And suddenly, all he can think about is one thing.

KOVA

*Say it.*

DANIEL

Hurry up love birds we have a tight schedule.

Kovas face gose bright red.

KOVA

DANIEL!!!

DANIEL

What its obvious you like him.

KOVA

DANIEL!!!

DANIEL

Whatever let's begin.

Kova walks toward the microphone. He tries to focus, but his mind keeps drifting back to Mason.

KOVA

Say it.

He looks over at Mason. Mason is already watching him. Kova immediately looks away.

DANIEL

Kova.

KOVA

Hm?

DANIEL

Song.

KOVA

Right. Sorry.

The music starts. Kova sings, but he's distracted. Every time he looks toward Mason, his heart starts pounding again. Eventually rehearsal ends.

DANIEL

That's it for now. Take a break.

Kova lets out a breath. He looks at Mason. He wants to say it But can't.

KOVA

I'm going to get water.

DANIEL

Just be back in 20 mins.

KOVA

Yup.

Kova walks away. Mason follows. Once there alone Mason whispers in Kovas ear.

MASON

Nathan.

Kova spins around his face red.

KOVA

Stop.

MASON

Nathan.

KOVA

Stop that.*its like he wants me to break.*

Mason takes a small step closer.

MASON

Why are you acting like this?

Kova looks away.

KOVA

I'm not.

MASON

You are.

Kova fidgets with his sleeve.

KOVA

I just...

He stops. Mason waits.

MASON

You just what?

Kova looks at him.

KOVA

Nothing.

Mason gives him a small smile.

MASON

You were about to say something.

Kova's heart pounds.

KOVA

Maybe. Now let's me get my water so im not late. I dont feel like getting screamd at today.

Kova truns back around heart pounding. He gets his water and practically runs back to rehearsal.

DANIEL

You ready?

KOVA

Yup.

DANIEL

From the top. 1 2 3. Go.

Kova starts singing his voice filling the room but you can tell hes not focus. He can't focus.

DANIEL

Stop stop.

KOVA

Ya?

DANIEL

Whats going on?

Kova looks down, fidgeting with his sleeve.

KOVA

Nothing.

DANIEL

You said that yesterday.

KOVA

Well, I'm saying it again.

Daniel narrows his eyes.

DANIEL

You can't even focus.

KOVA

I'm tired.

DANIEL

You're never this distracted.

Kova glances toward Mason. Mason is watching him. Kova immediately looks away.

KOVA

Can we just keep going?

Daniel sighs.

DANIEL

Fine. From the top.

Kova nods. The music starts again. This time he forces himself to focus but can't.

KOVA

*Mason. Mason staring at me. Masons here. Mason called me Nathan. Mason.*

DANIEL

Kova!

Kova jumps.

KOVA

What?!

DANIEL

You missed your cue.

KOVA

Oh.

Daniel sighs.

DANIEL

That's ot for today. Wrap it up everyone.

Kova nods. As everyone starts leaving, Kova quietly sneaks toward the smaller recording room.

KOVA

Finally alone.

Kova takes a deep breath.

KOVA

A 1 2 3 4

The music begins softly.

KOVA

🎵🎵🎵 I don't know when it happened

Somewhere along the way

You became the person

I never want to lose 🎵🎵🎵

Meanwhile.

MASON

*Damn it is forgot my phone at the studio. I'll just run back in and grab it.*

Mason heads back to the studio. Once he grabs his phone he hears singing and follows it to the door to the smaller recording room. Mason stops outside the recording room. He recognizes Kova's voice immediately. Mason reaches for the door handle, but stops. He can hear Kova singing.

MASON

What is he singing about?

He stays by the door, listening.

KOVA

🎵🎵🎵You make the noise feel quiet You make me feel like me And every time you're near me I forget who I'm supposed to be🎵🎵🎵

MASON

*Is this about someone else?*

KOVA

🎵🎵🎵You see the parts I hide away The things I never say And somehow when I'm next to you I don't feel so far away🎵🎵🎵

Kova takes a deep breath. Mason is frozen in place listening to Kova sing.

KOVA

🎵🎵🎵I wish that I could tell you Everything that's on my mind I don't know how to say it But I don't want to leave this behind🎵🎵🎵

MASON

*Is this about me?*

KOVA

🎵🎵🎵Every time you walk away I feel the silence grow I wish you'd stay a little longer 'Cause you're the one I want to know🎵🎵🎵

Mason takes a deep breath.

KOVA

🎵🎵🎵 I don't want another day Where you're just passing through I think I finally understand I think I'm falling for you🎵🎵🎵

Mason can't move hes glued in place listening to Kova sing.

KOVA

🎵🎵🎵 I don't need to know what's waiting

I don't need to know how this ends

I just know when I'm beside you

I don't want this feeling to end 🎵🎵🎵

MASON

Nathan.....

He whispers.

KOVA

🎵🎵🎵If tomorrow means you're leaving Then I wish that time would slow 'Cause I've never wanted someone The way I want you close🎵🎵🎵

MASON

Nathan oh Nathan....

He whispers.

KOVA

🎵🎵🎵Maybe I'm scared of what this means Maybe I'm scared you'll go But if I never tell you You'll never really know🎵🎵🎵

Kova takes a deep breath and continues.

KOVA

🎵🎵🎵So here I am, with nothing left to hide You're the one I think about every night I don't know where this road will go I just know I don't want to let you go🎵🎵🎵

Kova pauses.

KOVA

🎵🎵🎵I'm scared to say these words out loud So I'll sing them here somehow I think I like you... I really do I think I might be falling for you 🎵🎵🎵

Mason stays completely still outside the door. He doesn't know what to say. His hand is still resting near the door handle, but he doesn't open it.

MASON

*He likes me.*

Inside the room, Kova takes a shaky breath.

KOVA

🎵🎵🎵🎵 I don't know what I'm supposed to do I don't know if you feel it too But every time I think you're leaving I just want another day with you 🎵🎵🎵

Mason closes his eyes.

MASON

*He really means it.*

Kova lowers his head, still thinking he's completely alone.

KOVA

🎵🎵🎵 Maybe someday I'll tell you Maybe someday I'll be brave But for now I'll keep on singing Every word I couldn't say 🎵🎵🎵

MASON

*He likes me? Nathan likes me.*

KOVA

🎵🎵🎵I'm scared to say these words out loud So I'll sing them here somehow I think I like you... I really do I think I might be falling for you 🎵🎵🎵

Mason stays completely still outside the door. He doesn't know what to say. His hand is still resting near the door handle, but he doesn't open it.

MASON

*He likes me.*

Inside the room, Kova takes a shaky breath.

KOVA

🎵🎵🎵🎵 I don't know what I'm supposed to do I don't know if you feel it too But every time I think you're leaving I just want another day with you 🎵🎵🎵

Mason closes his eyes.

MASON

*He really means it.*

Kova lowers his head, still thinking he's completely alone.

KOVA

🎵🎵🎵 Maybe someday I'll tell you Maybe someday I'll be brave But for now I'll keep on singing Every word I couldn't say 🎵🎵🎵

MASON

*He likes me? Nathan likes me.*

Mason walks back toward the main studio, his phone in his hand.

MASON

*Okay. He likes me.*

He stops walking.

MASON

*And... I like him too.*

Back in the recording room, Kova finishes the song and takes a deep breath.

KOVA

Okay... nobody heard that.

Kova opens the door. He freezes. Mason is standing farther down the hallway.

KOVA

Mason?

MASON

Hey.

Kova smiles nervously, completely unaware.

KOVA

What are you doing here?

MASON

Forgot my phone.

Kova nods.

KOVA

Oh. Right.

Mason looks at him. Kova looks back. Neither says anything. Kova shifts awkwardly.

KOVA

So... you found it?

MASON

Yeah.

Mason looks at him for a few seconds.

MASON

That was a good song.

Kova freezes.

KOVA

...What?

MASON

The song you were singing. Kova's eyes widen.

KOVA

What song?

MASON

The one in the recording room.

Kova's face goes completely red.

KOVA

You heard that?!

MASON

Yeah.

Kova's entire body tenses.

KOVA

Nope.

Kova turns around.

MASON

Nathan—

KOVA

Nope nope nope nope.

Kova starts walking quickly down the hallway.

MASON

Nathan, wait.

KOVA

I have to go.

MASON

Go where?

KOVA

Anywhere that isn't here!

Kova speeds up. Mason catches up to him.

MASON

You can't just run away.

KOVA

Yes I can!

MASON

You really think I'm going to let you?

Kova stops. He slowly turns around, his face still bright red.

KOVA

You heard the whole thing?

MASON

Every word.

Kova covers his face.

KOVA

Oh my god.

MASON

Nathan—

KOVA

I thought I was alone!

MASON

I know.

KOVA

I was singing because nobody was supposed to hear me!

Kova peeks through his fingers.

KOVA

Especially you.

Mason's expression softens.

MASON

Why especially me?

Kova immediately looks away.

KOVA

Because...

He fidgets with his sleeve.

KOVA

Because it was about you. Mason goes completely still.

MASON

Me?

Kova gives a tiny nod, still staring at the floor.

KOVA

Yeah...

A few seconds pass.

MASON

Nathan...

Kova looks up.

MASON

I like you too.

Kova freezes.

KOVA

No.

Mason blinks.

MASON

What?

KOVA

No, you don't.

MASON

Yes, I do.

KOVA

No!

Kova takes a few steps back, his face getting even redder.

KOVA

You're just saying that!

MASON

Why would I say that if I didn't mean it?

KOVA

Because you heard the song and you feel bad for me!

MASON

Nathan, I don't feel bad for you.

KOVA

You don't understand!

Kova runs his hands through his hair.

KOVA

I spent the entire morning freaking out because I like you, and then I finally get brave enough to sing about it because I think I'm alone, and then YOU HEAR EVERYTHING!

Mason tries not to smile.

KOVA

Don't smile!

MASON

I'm not laughing at you.

KOVA

It feels like it!

Kova turns away, completely flustered.

KOVA

This is a disaster.

MASON

Nathan.

KOVA

What?!

MASON

Look at me.

Kova hesitates. Slowly, he looks back.

MASON

I like you.

Kova stares at him.

KOVA

...Really?

MASON

Really.

Kova's face turns bright red again.

KOVA

Oh my god.

He covers his face with both hands.

KOVA

This is actually happening.

Mason lets out a quiet laugh.

KOVA

Don't laugh!

MASON

I'm just happy.

Kovas face is bright red. He avoiding eye contact.

KOVA

Can I have a hug?

Kova asks quietly. Mason smiles.

MASON

I'll do you one better.

KOVA

One wh-

Mason kisses him.Mason pulls back. Kova just stares at him, completely frozen.

KOVA

...You kissed me.

MASON

Yeah.

KOVA

You actually kissed me.

MASON

You seem surprised.

KOVA

I am surprised!

Kova starts pacing in a tiny circle.

KOVA

I spent all day trying to figure out how to tell you I liked you, then you heard me singing, then you said you liked me too, and then you kissed me!

MASON

That's pretty much what happened.

KOVA

Stop making it sound so simple!

Mason laughs softly. Kova finally stops pacing and looks at him.

KOVA

So... what happens now?

Mason's smile fades slightly.

MASON

I don't know.

Kova's expression drops.

MASON

But we can figure it out.

Kova looks at him for a moment, then smiles.

KOVA

Together?

MASON

Together.

KOVA

I have a question.

MASON

He's?

KOVA

W....Will you be my boyfriend

Mason freezes for a second. Kova immediately starts panicking.

KOVA

You don't have to say yes! I mean, you can say no, obviously, and that's completely fine and I probably shouldn't have asked and—

MASON

Yes.

Kova stops talking.

KOVA

...What?

MASON

Yes. I'll be your boyfriend.

Kova just stares at him.

KOVA

Really?

MASON

Really.

Kova's face turns bright red again.

KOVA

Oh my god.

He covers his face with his hands.

MASON

Are you okay?

KOVA

No!

Mason laughs softly.

KOVA

I have a boyfriend.

Mason smiles.

MASON

You do.

Kova peeks through his fingers.

KOVA

This is insane.

MASON

A little.

Kova smiles.

KOVA

I like insane.

Silence

KOVA

I have a boyfriend.

Mason smiles.

MASON

You do.

Kova looks down, smiling.

KOVA

I still can't believe it.

Mason reaches for Kova's hand. Kova looks at their hands, then smiles even more.

KOVA

I like this.

MASON

Me too.

Kova leans against Mason.

For the first time, the word "temporary" doesn't feel quite as loud. Kova closes his eyes.

KOVA

Maybe I finally found my person.

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