It hurts, when your parents starts to insulting, and comparing you with others, in front of your friends, and relatives knowing that. you are trying your best, but it's still not enough for them.
How deeply in pain someone must have been, when he said :-
Skipping meals, irregular sleeping habits, overthinking, stress and feelings tired. Yeah that's me that's my everyday life.
But actually it's me too.
Powers turns into weakness. dreams turns into responsibility. Dressing up to look good turned into dressing up to feel comfortable.
Revenge turned into forgiveness.
Expectations turned into acceptance. Yeah we all changed life, family, friends, relatives, evrything changed there's nothing that is unchanged. People say black is my favourite colour cause it doesn't mix or change with other colours but I don't think so cause just mix it with white it will be grey mix it with some others colour too and it will change even if a bit but it will so it's natural evrything changes even nature changes then what are we.
But I never thought I would change like this, my life will change like this.
I fell awefull it's terrible, I think I'm just a burden evryone sees me like I'm not like them I'm different but not good kind of different they think I am... I
I don't know what to say I really don't or maybe I know what to say but I just can't it's getting harder and harder I don't know what I'm doing and why and what should I do why I'm like this.
You know what no one really likes me they just want to be like me when they don't even me.
Once I saw a quote that I really liked cause that's true maybe you will also like my dear Diary.
Anyways I have no one expect you atleast you shouldn't dislike me. I'm not that bad I really I'm not but so what if I am a good girl or a good person no one really like me or loves me maybe I'm not worthy of love maybe I'm not born for love so what if I'm not.
Anyways only those who loves themselves get loved and if I can't even love myself how can I expect someone else to do that for me.
So first of all I have to learn to love myself so what if no one loves me it's not like I love myself either so just forget about love and also love is giving someone the power to destroy you and there's no one who won't do anything to you when they have the option to do everything to you and believing that they won't use it against you is even more childish cause only those have the power to hurt you who are close to you.
People who are not anything to you , no matter what they do to you you won't get hurt that much maybe not even a bit no matter what they do you won't care about it but those who you love.
You will care about them love them and if they hurt you even if a bit you will be hurted easily cause you gave them the power to hurt you.
Well but I'm not saying that everyone is like this no everyone isn't but that doesn't mean that no one is like that eighter there are too many kinda of people some will give you memory and some will lessons both are usefull so don't worry just let it happen anyways it's not like you can change everything.
So if you can't change it then accept it.
And if you can't accept it then change it.
Oh wow not bad I made a quote again or a true line anything whatever you think it is well but I think I have heard it somewhere but just forget it anyways that's none of my business anyways it's not like I'm copying anyone it's right so it is anyone can use it and I didn't copied it did I?
Oh shit somthing happened I think I have to go now I will write again after some time
Bye for now
Dear Diary