life Full of regrets

Hey I'm Akhum and today I'm here to share a story of my life that full of regrets and am still thinking that what I have done with my life I'm 20 years old today, so when I was 13 14 years i started smoking and got addiction on smoking and it was very hard to speak out and tell someone that understand me but on one was there to share and I lost a lots of friends and they started hating me and started distance on me and I felt very lost at the moment but I can do but yes I motivated myself and promise myself to be a better person one day I lost everything it was very hard to smile also at that moment but I tried to keep myself strong but still choose to fail in everything i tried it break my heart today my friends they brought car bike new phone I'm so happy for them sometimes I wish if they i have not done that mistake I wouldn't be here today loneliness tired lack of knowledge lack of friends lack of money so I just wanted to tell to everybody that always be honest with everyone if not one day the time will speak out loud and that time you'll feel Shameless