Are Words Enough to describe my love for him...
I guess...Even if i write millions…..billions of books on my love towards him i cannot end this...
May be i will love him even in my afterlife...
Or may be till my next life...
Or May be in Every life...
2008
Many years will come and go... but 2008 feels like yesterday...
April Afternoon heavy hot summer..I was going to home after my school...
April 07 2008 first time i saw him...he was buying coldrink and snacks with his friends after school!! why my eyes was stuck on him... his smile and instantly i know i lost my heart....His smile heal my soul and i cannot forget the moment when i see his smile...l don't know i just get lost in his smile...
He was wearing the same school Uniform and in that hot summer he was smiling,enjoying,laughing and having fun with his friends and from that day i used the same road after my school so i can see him everyday...
And day after day i become a Stalker!!!
sometimes i feel ashamed what i am doing? And why?
But in Reality i was just following my heart even if I didn't see him for one day i become restless and cannot sleep whole night!!!and that night i Realise
¡ am in love!!! " shit!!! I am in love!!!!!!!
But in Reality i even dont know his name!!! Did he even know someone like me exist who just wait daily after school just to see him without even knowing anything about him? Strange.... Yeah !!!! But....
And then the wrost phase started in may and june the summer vacation!!! Means for 2 months i will not able to see him?
April 28 l decided to talk to him.!! I dont know how!!!
But i will!!!
I didn't sleep whole night thinking different different ideas to start a conversation with him.... Atleast i want to know his name...i want listen his voice... and then
That Afternoon after the school i wait for him but... i didnt see him..all his friends came but he didn't!!!!!
I almost wait 1 hr in that afternoon thinking may be he is late or busy but he didn't came!!!
And then the same thing happen the next day and the next day.... I didn't see him i was restless why ??? I dont know!!! and the worst part There is nobody i can talk to!!!
I only thing i can do is wait!!!! Wait and Wait!!!!
But if he came school on 28 will our story will still be the same or it will change everything?
Yeah...if the beginning has changed may be the Ending too....or may be Nothing!
This may be...has disturbed my whole life i am writing this in 2020 that means the ending is changed because the beginning is changed
I still wonder!!! What if that day he came to school and i talk to him? What if? If? If?
I didn't fall for that boy and what if on 7 April i didnt see him? On that Afternoon
Do i be the same person what i am today!!!
And what happen after summer vacation!!
Do our story Change?What if the story change!!