CHAPTER 1: GENESIS
The way i used to communicate to my love, it is a note book where our journey of love exists and I will share with you page to page though there's the one i wrote to her but it isn't in possession but hers.
She's the girl I loved the most, we maybe apart and now in different worlds but back in the days we had a strong bond and she wrote all to me like this in the notebook.
"For sure I'm not good at writing but let me try for once.
I know I can't express or prove you that I appreciate but maybe one day I will and show it to you bambi.
THE PRINCESS OF HER DAD
There was a young girl, who used to live with her Dad only. This girl had no Mom in her life. She had only Dad. At their home, they used to live happily not because her Dad had much money no! Just love and care he was showing her made her to became a princess.
Her Mom left her when she was young like she never got a chance to know her nor see her. In her life she never got her Mom's love since her childhood until where she is now. This girl time came when she is at school and bad luck or bad chance came into her life. Her powerful supporter died when she was at the age of 6years and her life became miserable. Life changed until where she is now, everything changed and the friends of her Dad went to and she remained along with her God the creator who gave her a new family where she found a sweet caring Dad who shown her second love up to now.
Try to be real.
CHAPTER 2:FIRST TIME
1st Time sir to see you
Even me I don't recall the day but I remember it was raining we all went in that small room, we were many there but i don't remember others. I don't even remember the little conversation we had.
That time I was still in Form 3, and when time moved on I came in boarding while fearing, asking my self who will be my friend but God sent him to me.
Those times I liked to be at the kitchen because I had no friends to be with. I was still new but as time continued I got much time with him, we had different conversations, he had his friend. That friend of his was more talkative, they had their funny stories every time. And all in all that this boy was a friend of mine because of his ways, the good ones, he was kind, friendly, social, honest, helpful, caring, loving and lovable even if you had a strong or stone heart you surrender. The time we spent together and the care he showed me soften me.
When time moved on, i got feelings for him but in the same period I hard someone saying that she loved the same boy. For sure I cooled my self down because I had nothing to do or say, I kept my feelings inside me
After sometime, another girl came to me crying for the same boy. I asked her what have you said as if I didn't heard and she told me "I'm really in love with him" so I became confused. As I know myself, I cooled and at the same time I had to collect my self to help her in much pain. I had to give this boy away into this girl's hands. As a saying that says "Okwagala kwagaliza" I believed in it . In that time I decided to give away my love to make someone happy.
CHAPTER 3: I STILL REMEMBER
Believing in the saying that what's yours will always be yours, time continued and the girl changed and she started telling others as I wanted to steal her boyfriend. That thing hurt me so much and in her stupidness I left her.
That boy was you dad mimi
Have five friends
Talk with four only
Walk with three only
Joke with two only
Trust one only
As time was going on, my love came back to me in the time I was planning to give up.
I still remember the first day I saw you.
Never loose the one you love for the one you like.
"The story in the Notebook still continues though it will now seem to be in different days, she wrote that all at the first time she bought the Notebook to write to me and I would return it to her after reading as I sent her mine then after also her finishing to read it she would do the same. Most of the words were in our local language but I translate some though a few I will leave out." By N.A.H
CHAPTER 4: I PROMISE
Mahal I know you care about me so much and you wish me better life, is appreciate you bambi for that but there are some matters I have to handle myself. I can't come there at your home like that bambi, even if I fail I still have to try my leve best to work hard so that I make you respected my dear as the way your working so hard to be a person who carries respect.
My humble request is that please don't introduce me to your mom it's not yet time. She will hate me earlier, for you don't see it but it will be. I don't wanna lose you munange. Me I don't want to be fighting with my mom in law at this early age, I just want to have her love only because time will come and she became my mom to.
Sincerely speaking from the day I started understanding I've never got mom's love that is the fact and what I know even if I wait for that day it will not come.
So love bambi(please) I will come and i will stand there to introduce me my dear. That time you will be as a man after your studies not so?...
I promise to wait for you until that time.
My promises in our love
I promise to treat you as an equal.
I promise to stand by your side through thick and thin.
I promise to cherish you with my heart.
I promise to value the way we complement each other.
I promise to complement and appreciate you in all ways you show me love.
I promise to honour your thoughts and feelings you have in our life.
I promise to express my deep love in many ways if you accept.
I promise to see excitement and magic of life with you.
I promise to love you and myself with our kids unconditionally.
I promise to spend quality time with you after studies.
If you find a righymt path then dats the true direction of your journey in life.
CHAPTER 5: WE LIVE BY CHOICE
🎵Njaguma nkulinde yadde gwe olowoza nkulimbye Atleast for once nesigako mukwano....🎵
Sometimes I sit down alone not because I want but because I have to do so. For sure whenever i sit and think where I come from, and what I've passed through I just thank our creater.
Time back I used to ask myself why was I born? Why am I still living on this earth? Why i came to Greenwood in all schools and who am I? Why me in all? What i did know is that the school i disliked is gonna be the source of my happiness and it is the place where I got someone who tried to understand me. What's funny, he understood me better than I understand myself.
My dear I don't brag, you have done great job in my life. Thank you bambi and let me think that as you do it on me you will try to make it on your side to bambi for you don't take care of your life.
We live by choice not by chance
I know your a nice person for real, you always care for everyone around you. You make me frustrated sometimes but I again calm down because it's your nature and I can't stop you from caring and loving others but my request is please Mahal you also take care Atleast for once in a day it's enough.
For me I'm not with you all the time and I can't rear you but atleast on 100%
Your Dad Your Mom Mariam(your sister)
10% 20% 13%
Baby Arcam Your Friends Mim(The GF?)
14% 3% 15%
Mimi(A doll we called our child)
2%
Follow that and it will be great help to me, don't think to deep because that may lead me to loose you.
Stop wasting your time on people who won't waste theirs on you Mukwano(love) and we no longer have much time to waste, we have to plan for our future not in bad.
CHAPTER 6: AMEN
Its a song to you.
🎵..........🎵
By the way do you know that you copy me, i had a dream of becoming a lawyer even up to now. When I was still in Form 1, I had a thought of being a writer of people's history. In Form 2 I had a dream of being a fashion designer and lastly being a business lady with big shops where I will be living in.
Some of my wishes when I get money is to help those who go through the life I faced as an infant.
Your thoughts determines your life.
A prayer from the bottom of my heart
Close your eyes and we pray.
To you, O lord, the creator our Dad,
i lift up my soul to you.
O my God, I trust in you father
Let me not be ashamed
Let not my enemies triumph over me
Lead me in your truth and teach me
For you are the God of my salvation
On you I wait all day
Do not remember my sins of my youth nor my transition from my childhood, father
I thank you for the friend you gave me, father
I thank you for life and love you have provided to us with out paying you
O lord, guide us in all ways, father
Keep our families and our good friends those who wishes us well
Lead us in our studies and all the dreams we have in our minds, father
Make all our plans come true O God because you have all powers, father
As your kindness, mercy and your goodness father and without you no life, protect us from danger, give us wisdom and knowledge, show us light, father
You will be our God forever.
In your name we have prayed
.....Amen
CHAPTER 7: HOLIDAY
Never skip an ocean foe people who won't skip a peddle for you
Mahal it's gonna be a long time to meet again but all in all I want you to take care of yourself bambi and please don't over think about me I will be fine and until we meet again.
The love we share will guide us.
Do what your supposed to do in the right way.
Education is the best weapon we can use to change the world, life and our families.
If we don't plant knowledge while young, it will give us no shade when we're old.
Life is not about finding yourself, it's about creating your self.
An umbrella can not stop the rain but it allows us to stand in the rain, confidence may not bring success but it gives power to face the challenges, a friend like you may not give me life but you add value and hope to my life.
Thank you for the time you have been wasting on me while visiting me bambi
My love for you will never change.
Be there for others but never leave yourself behind
Your life is more valuable than money.
Your time is limited so don't waste it living someone else's life.
If you get tired, learn to rest not to quit.
To succeed in life you need two things, ignore and confidence.
I love you not because of anything you have but because of something that I feel when I'm near you bambi.
My love for you has no deapth, its boundaries are ever expanding, my love and my life with you will be a never ending story.
Never be afraid to say what you feel
Love is like wind, you can touch it but you can feel it.
Sometimes you fall in love with the most unexpect time, like thus I'm in now.
Thank you love, you've faught with me, thanks for understanding me.
CHAPTER 8: IN THE HOLIDAY
"She stayed at school because she was in a candidate class and I left her so she still wrote to me though i got it after the holidays" N.A.H
On 12th August 2023
I miss you so much, I'm not feeling well for sure.
But for real it's so boring when you aren't here, I see lovers and I get hurt since I'm all alone deep thinking.
I'm worried whether you reached safely?
Or what are you doing now?
Or what are you thinking about?
Things I have done today not because I like they are;
☆I went in the church children and taught them just to pass time.
☆I marked their work after classes.
☆I made them a house in a box for them to learn.
On 13th
In the morning, the headmistress told me to help her and go back teach the children and now I'm called a teacher, but don't worry, now I'm used and it helps me to waste time even not to think deep.
My love I request you to be fine.
You taught me to wander around and on13th evening I went to different villages with my friend also on 14th and 15th.
On 16th
For sure some friends are not easy, some care when the owners are around like your one friend.
When you went it was suffering to me, shock covered me. Love I'm sick but no one cares, I wish you were here darling. Though don't care about my sickness.
I miss you so so much. 1 4 3
On 18th
Mahal do you know that this day is one of a long day I've never seen, I got much work today.
I am one of the teachers as I told you, for sure I'm not dreaming to became a teacher because they do alot of work.
CHAPTER 9: SUSPENSION
On 23 September 2023
This day I'll never forget get in my life and by the way what's next because for me I'm worried about you bambi dear.
This man makes me whether i love you and I said yes, I don't know what you said but in my statement I said it was just a hug nothing was going on more.
I have faith that God knows us and nothing bad will happen to us.
As I told you I'm worried about you love, for me eventhough they send me back home. I don't still have much time here.
What am begging you please be cool and just calm down for whatever comes bambi. Whatever punishment it will be, we have just to bear it so bambi do it for me. What happened wasn't a mistake because it's true we love ourselves.
I'm my life i didn't know what love costs.
I realised that love cost nothing but gives much like trust, caring, loving yourself, confidence and power to face the challenges.
Your love to me is more valuable than money.
One day you asked me how much can I cost you or buy you.
The answer is that your valuable than money.
Your the only person who managed to pull me from up where I was and put me where others can also see me.
Time back I used not to believe in love because of the ones I first find, the time you came in my life things changed I'm not the same as the first one I was.
I just have a few words to you bambi, thank you for what you've managed to give me.
Let me face whatever they gonna say, I know your mad but please keep it for me.
Take care and remember to pray always for our love and our future so do do any chaos please, God knows us.
I may go back for some time but don't worry I will not change bambi I will say words, do things you don't know because of you for me. I don't care whatever give me but I'm afraid what of you.
And other side I have faith that nothing is gonna happen.
CHAPTER 10: GOODBYE
Life has its ways bambi
Good morning dear,
Let me think that your fine or? The time you will receive this i will be far but whatever the case i will manage to bear it, I just think like that but I don't know whether it's will manage.
Thank you for whatever you have manged to do for me in this day, your time care and your ideas, your always the best.
My request
Don't over think and don't mind about me, I will be fine if God wishes , He is the creator and the.maker all belong to him.
Take care of yourself and don't do chaos please, your the head boy remember that.
CHAPTER 11:DISAPPOINTMENT
Hello
How are you or? Let me think your fine
Don't ask me that how are you I'm not fine.
You disappointments me for sure, in all people, my trust and love deducted.
What's so painful is that I still love you so much not only that I miss you but also think about you. The 3rd person I think about but now you made my effort to vains, why why yyyyyyy you.
You've embarrassed me in my last moments at school, how about if I leave.
Think about it, how far we're from bambi, things we have passed through together, think before you act it's your slogan but this time where did you leave it, just shaming me.
Time is the best answer and patience pays.
What were you looking for money? You would've told me and I know.
I don't want you to be with such friends who lead you to such temptations.
I have forgiven you because your mine the only one.
Leave past as history and we concentrate on today because its a present.
CHAPTER 12: PROUD OF
28 October 2023
Hello Mahal,
I know your not fine at all, me to I'm not but we have to bear it together even though we are far from each other but our souls and heart are together trust me my Mahal.
Whenever i comeback i ask God when will i go back to school. Many questions I put in my head not because I like to do so but I wonder and the questions are;
Or how are you? Do you miss me as I do? Or do you care for yourself? No other girls your seeing when I'm not there?
But after sometime I reply to myself that I can trust you and you love me so much, you can't do things that will hurt me.
My request to you Mahal
I'm saying all of this when I'm on my knees, please do not be tempted again in such habits, I want you to be the one I know always bambi do it for your future and if not yours do it for me, your mom, and the children we will have. What will I tell them, be a good lover boy I'm proud of.
Remember that your my favourite climate.
CHAPTER 13: HAVE IT FOR YOURSELF
29 October 2023
Real friends are not those who are always around when everything is almost perfect but they are those who dig deep when your down just to pull you up and say everything is gonna be alright.
Your one of them because you've been there to pull me up when I'm down. Thanks my love.
Many things I have learnt from you bambi as
To be helpful
To be strong in every situation
To learn how to forgive others
To learn how to be patient in life
To learn how to experience love life
To learn how to face my fear
You have always been giving me lectures whenever you get a chance with me. Eventhough sometime I look like I don't care but I always get time and think all we've talked about. You can't see it but you've changed me so much I appreciate bambi.
Your my sunshine like the girl in your story.
I thank God always who has given me a chance to know myself by sending me a person whom I found on my way of my life, he became my friend from nowhere.
30th October 2023
Okay to bother leave it don't give me haut for yourself.
"She had went home because of school fees but she was doing her last exams so the school couldn't make her not to come at all, I wish I had the other half of the book the one I wrote to her, the story would be lovely though i will try to explain for things to make sense." N.A.H.
CHAPTER 14: LAST TIME
I know your not fine in these days but you will be in the next days.
The hardest thing in life is to say hello for the first time and goodbye for the last time.
When time comes, when all we are off track please atlast we stay friends forever bambi.
Do not think much please stay as you're.
Good morning, now or how are you? I may be a careless girlfriend, your free to call me what you think munange. I knew that your sick and I left you without saying goodbye. I had to go because that black lady frustrates me, it was necessary to leave her in peace.
And i don't know whether we will meet again at school because she spoke much and embarrassed me alot. I don't wish to do that last paper maybe she will be paid all the money. In my life I don't want to kneel for some people eventhough it's the way through. The good thing i did all the subjects and it will be God's grace me to pass because I tried all my level best.
Anyway let's leave that, I want youbto take care of yourself my dear, I'm going to miss you but nothing to do that was God's plan.
Stop trying to make everybody happy your not chocolate.
14th November 2023
Hi Mahal
Today is the last day for us to meet anytime we want and we see it as a bad chance bad maybe it was God's plan.
I don't have much to say, im even now speechless, I knew or we knew that is time will come and its now and today.
We have passed in much maybe the worst and best situation together (tupambanyeko kyetusobodde) my first word to say to you is that thank you alot.
I appreciate to all things you managed to make for me, love care, money, time, trust, support and powerful words you gave me etc.
For real I have nothing to give you to show my appreciation to you my love.
We are gonna be aprt from each other long distance love is so painful on my side, whenever i think your care m arrears come out of my eyes, my eyes are so small to cry even if I my leve best not to cry I fail. I'm leaving you, my question is when will I see again?
How far its gonna take for us to meet again?
CHAPTER 15: LOVE STORY
1 January 2024
Happy new year my love. Let's forget all our weaknesses, our sorrows, our challenges we have passed through 2023.
Haters hate us because we are a reflection of what they wish to be, we have to work hard this year in order to archive our goals and our dreams.
I have faith that we will achieve them in God's name.
All in all we have to stay strong to make them wonder.
You can kill a man but you can't
I love you so muchhh...
Take care of yourself because your my first priority to.
DAYS I WILL NEVER FORGET
29th October 2023> visitation day, we had a walk together.
20th July 2023> .......
1st November 2023>........
3rd November 2023> My birthday
29th August 2023> Your birthday
" My love story with her, I don't know whether I'll forget it, I loved her unconditionally though in 2024 we broke up and it was my mistake, you may wonder how, I was still in school but she was out so I knew she need more I couldn't offer, she was out of my hands now so I stopped calling her and she tried and even told her friends to talk to me but I denied to be the same. I reached a time and she gave up. As a year passed I called her, I tried to be a friend only as she said in her notebook if you remember. She had got a job and in the next year she got someone who she married and got a child and her own business, I'm so glad for him. On 12th February 2026 I paid a vist to her and the baby was like two months. I didn't tell her why I kept quiet but it was because of love. To be sincere I still have her love deep because no one have ever loved me like her but loving someone is all about letting that someone be happy even if not with you. If you read the story thanks for that, may God give you the love I had with her."
By N.A.H.
The end