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Chapter 33 - Pre-Saint

The ceremony chamber had not been used in seventeen years.

Grimm stood at its center, his boots echoing against stone floors that had witnessed the ascension of hunters far greater than himself. The walls were carved with dimensional equations—geometric patterns that described the relationship between conventional reality and the substrate beneath, the mathematical language of transcendence that separated Rank 3 from Saint-level.

He had spent three days in preparation. Three days of meditation, of resource consolidation, of final adjustments to the Mutation Domain that now pulsed in rhythm with his heartbeat like a second heart grown from dimensional energy and will.

The resources lay arranged around him in precise geometric patterns: dimensional crystals harvested from the depths of the substrate, their facets catching the chamber's ambient light and refracting it into spectra that existed only in the space between worlds; essence of void worms, preserved in stasis containers that hummed with containment spells; the Fire Fusion Orb, no longer merely a tool but a part of him, its golden surface warm against his palm; and finally, the dimensional heart—now fully integrated into his domain, yet still requiring this final acknowledgment, this ritual confirmation of mastery.

Nethros had provided the list. The Netherheart's instructions had been characteristically precise: "The breakthrough requires three things—power sufficient to breach the barrier, understanding sufficient to navigate the transition, and will sufficient to survive the transformation. You possess the first two in abundance. The third... we shall discover."

Grimm had not asked what the Netherheart meant by survival. The absolute rationality that defined him had already calculated the risks, weighed them against the rewards, determined that the probability of success justified the potential cost. He was ready.

But ready was not the same as certain.

He could feel the domain's anticipation, its own form of readiness that mirrored his own yet remained distinct—an emergent property of the dimensional heart's growing awareness. The domain wanted this. It had been created for this. And now, at the threshold of its purpose, it hummed with a vibration that Grimm felt in his bones, in his blood, in the golden patterns beneath his skin that glowed with increasing intensity as the appointed hour approached.

Millie had come to see him the night before.

She had said little, her ice-pale features composed in the expression of professional detachment that she wore like armor. But her eyes—those eyes that had seen him at his most vulnerable, his most human—had held something else. Concern, perhaps. Or hope. Or fear.

"The Frostwhisper records mention this chamber," she had said, her voice carrying the slight echo that her ice-field presence created in enclosed spaces. "Three hunters have attempted the breakthrough here in the past century. Two succeeded. One... did not. It was built specifically for dimensional affinity holders—the carvings on the walls are not merely decorative but functional, designed to stabilize the substrate during ascension."

Grimm had nodded, acknowledging the information without requiring elaboration. He knew what happened to hunters who failed the Saint-level transformation. The dimensional substrate was not forgiving of inadequacy. Those who lacked the power, the understanding, or the will simply... ceased. Not death, exactly. Something more fundamental. A dissolution of self so complete that no trace remained, not even in the memories of those who had known them.

"I will succeed," he had said. Not bravado. Calculation. The probabilities favored him. His dimensional affinity was unique. His domain was unprecedented. His preparation had been thorough.

Millie had reached out then, her fingers brushing against his hand with a gentleness that seemed out of place in the sterile environment of Forward Station Seven. "I know," she had whispered. "But succeed at what cost?"

The question had lingered after she left, hanging in the air like ice forming on still water—delicate, inevitable, marking everything it touched.

Now, standing in the ceremony chamber, Grimm considered that question again. The cost of Saint-level was well documented: the transformation of essence, the partial transcendence of humanity, the irreversible change in perspective that came from existing partially in the dimensional substrate. He had accepted these costs long ago, had built his path around them, had shaped himself into someone who could pay them without regret.

But Millie's question had not been about the documented costs. It had been about something else. Something that Grimm's absolute rationality could not fully quantify.

What would remain of him, after the transformation? Not his power—that would grow beyond measure. Not his knowledge—that would expand to encompass secrets that only Saint-level wizards could access. But his... self. His essence. The core of identity that remained when power and knowledge were stripped away.

The golden patterns beneath his skin pulsed, responding to his uncertainty with a warmth that felt almost like reassurance. The domain, at least, had no doubts. It was ready. It had been ready since its creation, waiting for this moment, this threshold, this transcendence.

Grimm set aside the question. Doubt was a luxury he could not afford. The ceremony required focus, precision, absolute commitment. He would transform. He would transcend. He would become what he had worked thirty years to achieve.

The chamber's door opened, and Nethros entered.

The Netherheart was not projecting this time. This was his true form—if form was the right word for something that existed partially in the dimensional substrate, its physical presence more suggestion than substance. Darkness seemed to cling to him like mist, and the air around him carried the scent of ancient places, of depths that conventional reality had never touched.

"The preparations are complete?" Nethros asked, his voice resonant with harmonics that existed below the threshold of normal hearing.

"They are complete."

"And you are ready?"

Grimm met the Saint-level wizard's gaze—if the void where eyes should be could be called a gaze. "I am ready."

Nethros studied him for a long moment, the darkness of his form seeming to deepen, to concentrate, as if the Netherheart was seeing something that Grimm himself could not perceive. Then, slowly, he nodded.

"So be it. The trial begins."

The trial did not begin with ceremony. It began with pain.

Nethros raised his hand, and the dimensional substrate responded—not to Grimm's will, but to the Netherheart's command. The chamber's walls seemed to dissolve, the carved equations losing their physical form and becoming pure information, pure pattern, pure structure that existed in the space between reality and void.

Grimm felt the change immediately. The Mutation Domain, which had been a constant presence in his consciousness, suddenly... expanded. Not in size—the domain's physical dimensions remained constant—but in scope, in reach, in the fundamental nature of its existence. It was no longer merely anchored to him. It was becoming him.

"The first test," Nethros intoned, his voice seeming to come from everywhere and nowhere. "Separation."

The pain intensified. Grimm felt his consciousness being pulled in multiple directions simultaneously—part of him remaining in his physical body, part of him drawn into the domain, part of him reaching toward something deeper, something vaster, something that existed in the substrate's lowest layers. The sensation was not merely physical. It was existential, a tearing of self that went beyond the boundaries of flesh and bone.

He had expected this. Nethros had warned him: the breakthrough required the dissolution of the boundary between self and domain, the integration of hunter and dimensional space into a single unified existence. But expectation was not preparation. Knowing that fire burns does not prevent the pain of burning.

Grimm reached for the absolute rationality that had carried him through every challenge, every crisis, every moment when lesser hunters would have broken. He analyzed the pain, categorized it, filed it away as data to be processed while his core self focused on the task at hand. The separation was not destruction. It was transformation. And transformation, however painful, was necessary.

He let go.

Not of his consciousness—that remained, anchored by the domain's presence and his own indomitable will. But of his attachment to the boundary between self and other, between hunter and domain, between the individual and the dimensional substrate. He stopped resisting the separation and instead embraced it, allowing his consciousness to flow across the barriers that had defined his existence since birth.

The pain transformed. It did not diminish—if anything, it intensified—but it changed in quality, becoming something else. Not suffering, but... expansion. Not destruction, but... growth. Grimm felt his awareness spreading through the domain like water filling a vessel, like light illuminating darkness, like consciousness awakening to its own potential.

"Good," Nethros observed, the word carrying notes of approval that Grimm had rarely heard from the Saint-level wizard. "Now the second test. Integration."

The dimensional substrate responded to the Netherheart's command, and Grimm felt something new—pressure from the depths below, the ancient presence that had watched him since the domain's creation, the vast awareness that existed in the substrate's lowest layers. It was testing him, probing his expanded consciousness with tendrils of dimensional energy that carried questions he could not fully comprehend.

What are you?

The question was not spoken. It was felt, a vibration in the substrate that resonated with Grimm's transformed consciousness. The ancient presence wanted to know if he was worthy, if his transformation was genuine, if his claim to Saint-level status was legitimate or merely pretension.

Grimm answered not with words but with being. He showed the presence his domain—the dimensional heart that had grown into something alive, the adaptive capabilities that made it more than mere technique, the partnership between hunter and dimensional space that transcended conventional understanding. He showed it his path—the thirty years of preparation, the sacrifices made and prices paid, the absolute commitment that had brought him to this threshold.

He showed it his truth.

The presence considered. For a moment that might have been seconds or hours—time had little meaning in the dimensional substrate—Grimm hung in the balance, his expanded consciousness suspended between acceptance and rejection, between transcendence and dissolution.

Then, slowly, the presence withdrew. Not in defeat, but in acknowledgment. Grimm had passed its test. He was... acceptable.

"The third test," Nethros continued, his voice cutting through the dimensional space like a blade through water. "Endurance."

The pressure increased exponentially. Grimm felt his expanded consciousness being compressed, squeezed, forced to contract back into the boundaries of conventional existence. The domain resisted—its emergent awareness wanted to remain expanded, wanted to explore the substrate's depths, wanted to become what it had been created to become. But the trial demanded control. Power without discipline was merely chaos. Transcendence without boundaries was merely dissolution.

Grimm fought. Not against the compression—that would have been futile—but against the loss of self that accompanied it. He maintained his awareness of the domain, his connection to the dimensional heart, his sense of identity even as his consciousness was forced back into the confines of physical existence. It was like trying to remember a dream upon waking, like trying to hold water in cupped hands, like trying to maintain a flame in wind.

But he was Grimm. He had survived the destruction of the Black Tower. He had witnessed Ravenna's sacrifice and transformed his grief into absolute rationality. He had built a domain from nothing, had shaped it into something unprecedented, had earned the right to stand at this threshold.

He would not fail now.

The compression continued, relentless, merciless. Grimm felt parts of his expanded consciousness being stripped away, the connections to the substrate's depths severing one by one, the vast awareness he had briefly touched contracting back into the limited perspective of individual existence. It was loss. It was diminishment. It was... necessary.

Because what remained, what endured, what survived the compression and emerged on the other side—that was the core of him. The essence that could not be stripped away, the self that persisted regardless of power or knowledge or dimensional connection. That was what Saint-level required. Not the expansion, but the endurance. Not the transcendence, but the return.

The pressure released.

Grimm gasped, his physical body—he had a physical body again, he was individual again, he was separate again—collapsing to the chamber floor as his consciousness reintegrated with flesh and bone. The pain was overwhelming, a symphony of agony that played through every nerve, every cell, every fragment of his being.

But beneath the pain, beneath the exhaustion, beneath the overwhelming sense of diminishment—there was something else. Power. Not the vast power of the expanded consciousness, but something more focused, more concentrated, more... real.

He had passed the trial.

"Well done," Nethros said, and for the first time since they had met, the Netherheart sounded genuinely impressed. "The separation, the integration, the endurance—you have passed all three. The transformation can proceed."

Grimm tried to speak, but his throat produced only a rasping sound that barely qualified as human. It didn't matter. Words were unnecessary. He had proven himself worthy.

The true ascension was about to begin.

The transformation began with light.

Not the light of fire or sun or any conventional source, but the light of dimensional energy made visible—the raw power of the substrate given form and substance and presence. It filled the ceremony chamber, emanating from the resources arranged around Grimm in geometric patterns that began to glow with increasing intensity.

Nethros had stepped back, his dark form retreating to the chamber's edge, leaving Grimm alone at the center of what was becoming something else. Not merely a room, but a nexus. A threshold. A point of transition between one state of existence and another.

Grimm felt the resources activating. The dimensional crystals resonated with his domain's frequency, their stored energy flowing into the dimensional heart like rivers feeding an ocean. The void worm essence dissolved into pure dimensional potential, its alien nature merging with Grimm's own transformed consciousness. The Fire Fusion Orb blazed with golden light, its surface temperature rising to levels that should have vaporized flesh and bone—yet Grimm felt only warmth, only connection, only the rightness of this moment that he had worked thirty years to achieve. The fusion was not merely physical but alchemical, the orb merging with his mutated essence through the same mutation alchemy that had transformed his eyes and skin.

The dimensional heart responded to the influx of power. Grimm felt it... opening. Not physically—the heart had no physical structure in the conventional sense—but conceptually, existentially, fundamentally. It was unfolding like a flower blooming in time-lapse, like a puzzle solving itself, like a consciousness awakening to its full potential.

And as it opened, it pulled Grimm with it.

The ascension was not a moment but a journey. Grimm felt his consciousness being drawn upward—not in physical space, but in dimensional depth, rising through layers of substrate that he had never touched, never imagined, never conceived. Each layer brought new sensations, new perceptions, new forms of awareness that transcended the limitations of his previous existence.

The wizard world revealed itself from outside, a sphere of conventional reality floating in the vast ocean of dimensional space. Other worlds emerged into his perception, other realities, other configurations of existence that defied description. A network of connections unfolded before him, the intricate web of dimensional pathways that allowed travel between worlds, the underlying structure that made civilization possible.

He saw... more.

The substrate had depths beyond depths, layers beyond layers, mysteries beyond mysteries. Grimm's ascension carried him through them all, his expanded consciousness drinking in knowledge that would have driven a conventional mind to madness. The birth of dimensions revealed itself to him, the death of universes, the endless cycle of creation and destruction that defined the cosmic order.

The ancient presence appeared in its true form—not the limited perception he had touched during the trial, but the full vastness of its existence. It was... beautiful. Terrifying. Incomprehensible. A being—or perhaps a force, or perhaps something that transcended both categories—that existed in the substrate's deepest layers, watching the worlds above with an attention that spanned eons.

And it saw him. Truly saw him, in a way that no other being ever had. It saw his absolute rationality, his absolute commitment, his absolute willingness to sacrifice everything for power. It saw the boy he had been, the apprentice he had become, the hunter he was now. It saw the domain that had grown from his will, the partnership that had formed between human consciousness and dimensional energy, the unique configuration of existence that made him... different.

The presence did not judge. It merely observed. But in its observation, Grimm felt something else—acknowledgment, perhaps. Or recognition. Or the cosmic equivalent of a nod, a gesture that said: you have earned your place.

The ascension continued. Grimm felt his consciousness expanding further, reaching toward something that existed beyond even the substrate's deepest layers—something that Nethros had hinted at but never fully explained, something that the Three Secrets had prepared him for but could not fully describe.

The Saint-level threshold.

It was not a barrier in the conventional sense. It was more like... a perspective. A way of seeing existence that transcended the limitations of Rank 3, that allowed comprehension of truths that conventional hunters could not access, that granted power over reality itself. To cross it was to become something other than human, something that existed partially in the dimensional substrate, something that could shape the world according to will rather than merely manipulate it according to rules.

Grimm reached for it. His expanded consciousness, strengthened by the trial, empowered by the resources, validated by the ancient presence—he reached for the threshold with everything he had, with everything he was, with everything he had sacrificed to become.

And touched it.

The contact was... indescribable. Not because it was beyond words, but because it was beyond the conceptual framework that made words possible. Like trying to describe color to someone born blind. Like trying to explain music to someone born deaf. Like trying to convey the experience of flight to someone who had never left the ground.

Transcendence.

Grimm felt his essence merging with the threshold, his consciousness spreading across the boundary between Rank 3 and Saint-level like water soaking into cloth. He was not crossing the threshold—he was becoming it, his existence transforming to encompass both sides simultaneously, his perspective expanding to include truths that had been invisible moments before.

The power flooded through him. Not gradually, not carefully, but in a torrent that would have destroyed a lesser hunter. Grimm's absolute rationality was the only thing that allowed him to process it, to categorize it, to integrate it into his transformed consciousness without being overwhelmed. He felt his domain evolving in real-time, its structure adapting to the new power, its capabilities expanding to match his new perspective.

He felt... everything.

The ceremony chamber, with Nethros watching from the shadows. Forward Station Seven, with its hunters and its wars and its endless cycle of conflict. The wizard world, with its politics and its power struggles and its desperate reach for transcendence. The dimensional substrate, with its depths and its mysteries and its ancient presences. All of it, all at once, all connected in ways that he had never perceived before.

And he felt himself. Not the limited self of Rank 3, but something vaster, something more complex, something that existed across multiple layers of reality simultaneously. He was Grimm, yes—but he was also his domain, and his connection to the substrate, and his place in the cosmic order that he had only now begun to perceive.

The ascension completed.

Grimm opened his eyes—he had eyes again, he was physical again, he was individual again—and found himself lying on the chamber floor, surrounded by the residue of spent resources and activated rituals. The dimensional crystals were dust. The void worm essence was gone. The Fire Fusion Orb had fused with his chest, its golden surface now part of his skin, pulsing in rhythm with his transformed heartbeat.

He was... different.

Not merely powerful. Not merely knowledgeable. Not merely transcendent. Different. Changed. Transformed.

He was Pre-Saint.

The first thing Grimm noticed was the silence.

Not the absence of sound—there was sound, the distant hum of Forward Station Seven's systems, the whisper of air through ventilation ducts, the subtle vibration of dimensional shields maintaining the station's integrity. But beneath those sounds, where there had always been... something else... there was now silence.

The emotional static. The background noise of human consciousness. The constant low-level hum of feelings and fears and hopes and dreams that had always surrounded him, even if he had trained himself to ignore it.

Gone.

Grimm sat up slowly, his body moving with a precision that felt both familiar and alien. The golden patterns beneath his skin glowed with steady light, no longer pulsing but constant, eternal, transformed. His vertical eye slits—he could feel them now, not merely as features but as organs, as sensors attuned to dimensional frequencies that conventional eyes could not perceive—dilated and contracted, adjusting to new inputs, new perceptions, new forms of awareness.

He was still Grimm. He knew that, intellectually. His memories remained intact, his knowledge accessible, his goals unchanged. But the... texture... of his existence had shifted. The absolute rationality that had defined him for thirty years was no longer merely a psychological adaptation. It was becoming his nature. His essence. His... truth.

He felt... less.

Not weaker—he had never been stronger. Not less capable—his power had multiplied beyond measure. But less... human. The emotions that had always been distant, always filtered, always secondary to calculation—they were growing more distant still. Not disappearing, exactly. But becoming... optional. Like features of a software program that could be enabled or disabled at will.

Is this what Millie feared?

The thought emerged unbidden, breaking through the silence of his transformed consciousness like a stone dropped into still water. Millie's question, asked in the night before the ceremony: "Succeed at what cost?"

He was beginning to understand the cost.

Nethros approached, his dark form moving through the chamber with the fluid grace of something that existed partially in the dimensional substrate. "The transformation is complete," the Netherheart observed. "You are Pre-Saint now. Rank 3 Peak, but... more. The path to true Saint-level is open before you."

Grimm nodded, the gesture feeling mechanical, practiced, performed rather than felt. "I am... different."

"You are." Nethros's void-eyes seemed to see something that Grimm himself could not perceive. "The transformation changes everything. Not merely your power, but your perspective. Your priorities. Your... self."

"I feel less."

"Yes." The Netherheart's voice carried notes of something that might have been sympathy, if Saint-level wizards were capable of such emotions. "The transcendence requires the sacrifice of what you were. Not all of it—some core remains, some essence that persists regardless of transformation. But much is... left behind."

Grimm considered this. His absolute rationality analyzed the situation with its usual precision, weighing costs against benefits, sacrifices against gains. He had sought power. He had achieved power. The price was... acceptable.

But was it?

A memory surfaced, unbidden and unwelcome: Ravenna's face in the moment before her sacrifice, her eyes meeting his with an expression that held love and fear and determination and hope. She had given everything for him. She had died so that he could live, could grow, could become what he was now.

What would she think of what he had become?

The question had no answer. Ravenna was dead, her essence dissolved into the dimensional substrate, her consciousness scattered across the cosmic order. She could not judge him. She could not approve or disapprove of his choices. She was... gone.

But the memory of her remained. And with it, something else. Something that Grimm's transformed consciousness recognized with a shock that bordered on pain.

Guilt.

Not for Ravenna's death—that had been her choice, her sacrifice, her gift to him. But for what he had done with that gift. For the person he had become in the thirty years since. For the slow, steady, inevitable erosion of his humanity that had brought him to this threshold, this transformation, this... diminishment.

He had sought power to protect those he cared about. But in seeking power, he had become someone who cared about nothing. Not truly. Not deeply. Not in the way that Ravenna had cared, that Millie cared, that even Mina cared in her own complex way.

Was this the price of transcendence? The sacrifice of connection for the sake of capability? The exchange of love for power?

"The guilt will fade," Nethros said, as if reading Grimm's thoughts. "It always does. The transformed consciousness cannot maintain the emotional patterns of the conventional mind. What you feel now is residue, memory, habit. It will pass."

"And if I do not want it to pass?"

Silence.

Then: "That is your choice, Pre-Saint. The transformation changes much, but not everything. Some core remains. Some essence persists. What you do with that essence... that is up to you."

Grimm stood, his body moving with the fluid grace of something that had transcended conventional physical limitations. He felt the domain responding to his will, not as a separate entity but as an extension of himself, a part of his transformed consciousness that existed in the dimensional substrate.

He was Pre-Saint. He was powerful beyond measure. He was... less than he had been.

But not nothing. Not yet. The core remained. The essence persisted. And Grimm, with the absolute rationality that had carried him through every challenge, made a decision.

He would not let the transformation complete itself. He would fight for what remained of his humanity, even as he pursued the power that threatened to consume it. He would find a way to be both—transcendent and connected, powerful and caring, Pre-Saint and... human.

It was not a rational decision. It was not efficient, or practical, or strategically sound.

But it was his.

And he would hold to it.

They came to him as he emerged from the ceremony chamber—Millie and Mina, waiting in the corridor with expressions that mixed relief and concern and something else that Grimm's transformed consciousness could not fully identify.

Millie's ice-field presence created a noticeable temperature drop as she approached, her frost-pale features composed but her eyes—those eyes that had always seen too much—holding questions that she did not ask. She knew. She could sense the change in him, the transformation that had occurred in the chamber's depths, the transcendence that had made him something other than what he had been.

"You succeeded," she said. Not a question. A statement.

"I am Pre-Saint," Grimm confirmed. His voice sounded different—resonant with harmonics that existed below the threshold of normal hearing, carrying undertones of dimensional energy that made the air vibrate slightly with each word. "Rank 3 Peak. The path to Saint-level is open."

Mina stepped forward, her golden eyes—now holding flecks of actual starlight since her Awakening—studying him with an intensity that suggested she saw more than Millie did. The Sun Child's stellar consciousness perceived things that conventional senses could not access, and Grimm felt her attention touching his transformed essence like sunlight warming winter stone.

"You are different," she observed. "More than power. More than knowledge. Something... else."

"The transformation changes everything," Grimm said, repeating Nethros's words. "But not completely. Some core remains."

Millie reached out, her fingers brushing against his hand—the same gesture she had made the night before, the same gentleness that had seemed out of place in the sterile environment of Forward Station Seven. But this time, Grimm felt something else. Connection. Warmth. The faint, distant echo of something that had once been central to his existence.

"Then hold to that core," she whispered. "Whatever else you become, Grimm. Hold to what remains."

He nodded, the gesture feeling less mechanical now, more genuine. "I will."

The corridor was filling with others—Holy Tower officials who had come to witness the ascension, fellow hunters who had heard rumors of what was occurring, station personnel drawn by the dimensional energy that had leaked from the ceremony chamber during the transformation. They watched him with expressions that ranged from awe to fear to calculation, each seeing something different in the Pre-Saint who had emerged from the trial.

Grimm ignored them. He had spent thirty years seeking power, and now that he had achieved it, he found that power was not the point. The point was what he did with it. The point was who he became. The point was whether he could maintain his humanity while transcending his limitations.

Nethros emerged from the chamber behind him, the Netherheart's dark form drawing gasps from the assembled crowd. The Saint-level wizard ignored them, his attention focused entirely on Grimm.

"The Pre-Saint stage is temporary," Nethros said, his voice carrying the weight of centuries of experience. "A threshold, not a destination. The true breakthrough to Saint-level awaits, and with it, power beyond what you have yet imagined."

"I know."

"But first, there is work to be done. The Holy Tower has need of Pre-Saint hunters. The war continues. The dimensional substrate grows restless. And there are... other matters. Complications. Opportunities."

Grimm understood. The Pre-Saint stage was not merely a rank—it was a position, a role, a responsibility within the hierarchy of the wizard world. He had transcended the conventional ranks, but he had not yet transcended the world itself. There were still duties to perform, still battles to fight, still choices to make.

He looked at Millie, at Mina, at the assembled crowd of hunters and officials and witnesses. He felt the domain pulsing in rhythm with his transformed heartbeat, the dimensional heart now fully integrated into his essence. He sensed the ancient presence in the substrate's depths, still watching, still waiting, still interested in his development.

Thirty years had brought him to this threshold. Thirty years of preparation, of sacrifice, of transformation. The apprentice who had fled the Black Tower was gone, replaced by something that approached legend.

But the journey was not over. The Pre-Saint stage was merely the beginning of a new path, a new challenge, a new chapter in the story of his existence.

Volume 2 was ending. Volume 3 was about to begin.

And Grimm was ready.

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