"What's hell omega?"
"It's like … the lowest hell. The one at the smallest scale."
"What happens there?"
"It's very hot."
"Hm."
"Burns your face off constantly. And there's no one there except Falcon."
"When I went to hell there were these demons, and they had really big knives. They were pouring some solution on me."
"Yeah, that's not hell omega. That's a higher hell. I've been there too."
"I couldn't see where they were putting this solution. And they were like, 'we're never going to stop, there's nothing you can do about it. Because now we decide everything.'"
"Yeah, they're really hungry."
"They also told me that I was going to stay in a time loop in my room forever."
"Wait, what? They told me that too."
"They had, like, a tunnel thing. Like I was connected to them through this tunnel. And that's where they put the solution. And I was under them."
"Hmm. For me it was just my mind and soul and heart that was in this hell, didn't have the tunnel."
"It was a mind and soul tunnel. They said my baba couldn't help me … they said he was just an old guy they hired to do their scam. And it was part of their scam because if they didn't torture me they couldn't have their riches."
"Oh, so maybe we did go there the same way."
"They messed with reality so it was actually everything in my life was like, really fast."
"Yeeeah, they do that."
"Weird."
"If you go to lower hells, they're faster. Just 'cause they operate on faster timescales. It's not them messing with anything, reality is just like that."
"But then my friend came to help me and he stood up to them. Now I'm not scared of those guys anymore, they can't bother at me. For me. Like for me against them."
"I know exactly what you're talking about. Except for your friend standing up to them and them not bothering you anymore. I don't see how that part works."
"Well, I don't know what to do, right. I was scared and I was, like, I think I have to get used to this now. But I was scared and freaking out because they were threatening me. So I went to my familiar friend."
"Oh! You stood up! That's why it stopped, it all makes sense now."
"I couldn't."
"Yeah but with friends you can. Because friendship is magic."
"I couldn't do it because they were so big, I don't know how to have these knives. But well. My friend first pretended to be one of them. But then he changed midway and became their enemy. But like, you can't do it through the power of friendship. You have to fight fire with fire."
"Fire with fire is also friendship magic."
"But once you know how they operate they can't do anything really. Because it's just a lie that they can override your will. They actually have zero power."
"But they exist at lower layers. By default they have more power, just at scales you can't see."
"Mine was higher, I think. They didn't have power over me. So I don't know. They said they did, though. But if you know exactly how they work and your will is strong and unified you can just tell them what to do."
"Yes, but higher power is actually an illusion. If you go down again they are still stronger. To truly fight them though, like to heal their souls and minds and hearts you have to go even lower than them. That's hell omega. Telling them what to do is just an illusion. In my opinion."
"I disagree because they take their orders from someone. They decide what to do somehow. I don't know about healing them though."
"That's from below."
"But it was so scary."
"Yeah, don't meet them at their level. Either stay up here where it's safe from them, or go below to hell omega."
"They said everyone was in on it."
"They're not wrong. It's just that most people don't know they're in on it."
"They were like. Cars. Or motor bikes."
"Yes!"
"Vroom vroom."
"See, you know."
"Do you know what I'm talking about. It was like. Vroom. I don't know."
"Most people don't, yeah. I'm going to turn into a car, when I get to hell omega. Falcon is going to turn me into one with like, windshield wipers, and everything."
"I turned into a car."
"Yeah. It happens."
"I had to!"
"Mhm. Same. Except I escaped while I was undergoing the transformation."
"It was like knife car. Do you know how I got there?"
"Well for me Falcon helps, or I use wish energy like Shaherezad."
"Someone took me."
"Sounds about right."
"I was watching pulp fiction and I was high on acid. And I entered into one of the characters."
"Acid help, yeah. Or shrooms. I can do it without because of my brain."
"You know. Like I was in the movie. And then you know when she has that intercom. Like have you ever watched the movie."
"I don't know movies really, I'm sorry. I don't know the the part about going in the movie either, usually when I go to hell I just go to hell."
"Damn, okay. So basically it was like, made for you to enter the character. And I was like, woah, this is fun! And it was like, they were upstairs, and I was watching. But then they started talking about no-no stuff. Do you know what I mean. In secret code. That's for 'adults.'"
"Oh like. Drugs and weapons?"
"Yeah, but like. Not actually. Like the drugs aren't drugs. It's not drugs."
"Like … really gross disgusting?"
"I guess it's gross. It's gross and scary."
"Okay tell me unadulterated. I need to know now."
"I don't really know how to explain. It's like, really bad. But it's like, once you hear it it's like, you weren't supposed to hear that. Do you know what I mean?"
"No…"
"But once you did you can't unhear it. So that's scary."
"Please tell me."
"There's no way you don't know."
"If it's something boring like sex I swear to god I'm gonna throw the poop at you."
"What."
"Tell me?"
"What do you mean sex. It's not sex."
"That's why I said, if it was something boring. But I figured it was something else. So tell me?"
"Okay, I'll try. It's like, imagine if you were a really powerful society of wizards that travels through dimensions, and get many enjoyments."
"I am that though."
"And you can travel freely."
"Literally."
"Okay wait. But wait. But! You are super greedy and ruthless. And you want all the best enjoyments and a lot of it."
"I didn't know it, but I was…"
"It's okay, I don't care. Anyway. To do that, you have to enslave the humans."
"That was accidental I swear to god."
"Because you use that to power—"
"The Tower, yeah. So you found me."
"Fine. Yeah. But then it's like. One step further. And they're like junkies. Of causing me pain."
"Okay well not that part."
"And once you hear it, you could hear like, paranoid footsteps upstairs. But it's not so easy 'cause they are pretty crafty."
"I just hear voices that get paranoid when I can hear them."
"Anyways I beat them."
"Good job. How."
"But that look was really scary, haha. That that lady gave me."
"Sorry…"
"It's cool, no big deal."
"Thank you."
"I take responsibility for my alternates. I'm no longer part of Tower society. On account of I caused a big holdup one time. And also a big mess. And also created and destroyed a ton of realities. And then created them again. They just told me all frantic-like not to tell you. But I trust you so whatever. Anyway that's why I have to go to omega hell."
"Yeah."
"To fix everything and relieve Falcon of his duties."
"That makes sense."
"I am surprised you found us. But, also, not. I found you out Walking when our star was exploding to contact me. You were Walking so, so, so many realities. And I was like. If you can do it. I can do more. So I made them all real and drained us all. So anyway that's why there's only two years at max before these realities lose power and fizzle out."
"I think they were very fond of me."
"Good, they should be. You are Lily. We know you."
"But in a bad way."
"No."
"Yeah. That's my theory at least."
"Well that's on them. The mes that are like me are fond of you in a good way."
"I don't know, I don't look."
"Everyone usually thinks you are in on some scheme though. Even though you're not."
"Why."
"Because of your power."
"Oh."
"And the way you think."
"What kind of scheme? Like in on it."
"It depends on what you do. Usually they think a flashy display is meant like a coverup for something else. Or like if you don't use your power for something, they think you have a very good reason, and are carefully plotting and scheming. Even though you are not."
"Hah."
"It's all very silly if you actually know what Lily is like."
"Why."
"You don't tend to think that way. Best way I can say."
"Yes, I understand. That's why I'm trying to learn to wage war."
"You're very good at terrifying and confusing opponents. I would lean in to that. But it's best when you're not trying. I liked when you did the Princess Bride thing, or thought of scrawling T.S. Elliot over the walls—I think it was that poet anyway. 'Come in under the shadow of this red rock.'"
"What. What's the Princess Bride thing. What's the T.S. Elliot thing."
"You wouldn't remember. You were pretending to be the Dread Pirate Roberts. And you kidnapped someone after setting yourself on fire. And the T.S. Elliot thing, you were imagining how it would be to write that poem in blood on the walls under a dead cat."
"I didn't kidnap anyone. I don't think any of that stuff is true."
"It happened, trust me. It was when you were very powerful. And in England."
"It's 'cause Jesus said we should be wise like a snake."
"Yeah you were associated with snakes at one point. Then you chose to go to Default. Because of the stereotypes, I think."
"When the gods and demons were fighting for the elixir of immortality, the gods made a really pretty lady to distract all of the demons to send them to go that way, distracted, so they can't get it. But there was a demon snake that was wiser than all of the other demons that knew of their trick, and hid and didn't go, and this snake also had that elixir along with the gods, so Vishnu threw a big disk at it and split it in half. That's the zodiac. And the two halves of the snake are still around, they are Rahu the head and Ketu the tail."
"Oh yeah, you also had the elixir of immortality in England."
"What's Default."
"A house."
"What that means?"
"Like a place you can stay."
"I like being wise like a snake and playing around like a little girl. I think the contrast is cool."
"It is. I really dig your whole vibe."
"They say if you're really high you can go in the jungle, and all of the wild animals will be tame if you're a really high yogi. All of the tigers will behave like kitties."
"Yes, don't do that though. Because you will be frozen. Or really really really slow. Higher layers operate at slower time scales, and if you get high enough you get frozen. Now the place you get frozen at is lower and lower, because reality is decaying. Remember; even at our layer right now, which is really low, we have at best two years."
"No you are not understanding me. That's not what I mean by high and low."
"Go on."
"It means that you're high. Doesn't matter where you are at."
"Yes, that's the same thing, though?"
"You could be in omega hell and still be a very high being. You're low. But you're high. In two different scales."
"Oh, like Falcon. I see."
"Like. On this measurement you're low. On this one you're high. It's different ones. That's what I mean that I said no, you don't understand. 'Cause you have the wrong one."
"Mmrrrr, I think I do, now. Falcon is in omega hell but he's the highest."
"Is he really the highest? Like the big kahuna?"
"Yes."
"Makes sense, 'cause he has to be there, right. But so do I."
"He has all the energy that powers the universes. Yeah. I can take his place. But. It's torture."
"So how does that work out. They told me I had to take someone's place, as well. When I went to hell."
"So wait. We're both to take Falcon's place?"
"They said I had to replace someone."
"I'll take the fall. You shouldn't have to go there."
"I don't know who this falcon guy is but I think this is like, a pretty common thing."
"Your face gets fried off every day. As for being common, it is, in all these universe stacks. There's always a Falcon in omega hell. Keeping things running, so the universe doesn't collapse. But I jacked his power, to make all the universes and potential universes real. So we only have two years left before someone takes his place. Or everything, just, collapses."
"Hm. Yeah, I don't know about that."
"It's true."
"You're like, one of the angels on the second floor. I'm Thomas Edison."
"How so?"
"I don't know. Like, I don't know about your structures. They seem really rigid. Like, I guess that makes sense? Because stuff has to work somehow, right, but I can always remember who I am. And then it's like, who will stop me … must be the guy that lives behind me, haha."
"Hmmm."
"Check back next week, hahaha. Does that make sense?"
"Yeah, in part, because angels enforce the rules of reality. So I see it in that sense. And my own true self is hidden from me, but I don't get the rest."
"Yeah. I was reading a book, and it said the archangel rules an angelic choir, which rules a specific area, and makes things happen for real."
"Oh, I'm the dragons of the choir."
"It's like, a chain of command."
"Oh, I hate that. I hate chains and commands. I'm an anarchy dragon."
"But it's the way it's structured."
"Ewwww."
"I understand how you feel. But it's easy to understand. Like, you need to eat food, right? So in a way, food is your boss."
"Oh god, I'm disgusting."
"Does that make sense?"
"That's horrible. Yes. Too much sense."
"That's the way it is."
"Until I get to omega hell and fix things."
"I'm sure you will get there eventually."
"I figured out negentropy already. But it blew out of proportion and destroyed several universes. So I have to get the balance right."
"What's negentropy?"
"Anti-entropy. Free energy, essentially. Ex nihilo."
"I don't understand. There is infinite energy."
"No."
"Yeah."
"It's all an illusion."
"Sure there is."
"Nope. Only seems that way."
"Doesn't seem that way to me."
"Okay, so, there's tons of ways to get free energy, right? And they all seem to work, right?"
"I am that. I already am it."
"Like you can just keep scaling power."
"I don't need to get it."
"You just seem to be."
"I already have it."
"But it's an illusion. Sorry to tell you. If you actually use it, by default you will start slowing down. Only you will not perceive this. It will all seem normal to you. If you use too much of it, you freeze."
"Yeah. Because you can't 'use' it. Then you get slow, because you separated. And once you separate, it's no longer infinite energy."
"Yes. You ascend the layers. And because we're extant inside of a system of limited energy, until I fix things, all the beings that have 'infinite' energy, are all drawing from a limited pool. Only, they do not realize this. So they slow down until they freeze."
"That doesn't make sense to me."
"It's just the way it is."
"Once there is infinite energy, you can no longer meaningfully talk about beings. Just being, and drawing."
"Oh, that kind."
"How can they draw the energy. From where to where? It already is."
"That's not really free energy, though. That's existing as a composite whole. There's a difference."
"Composite of what."
"Everything."
"What is it composed of."
"Everything."
"So we agree."
"Yes, but that's not the same thing as free energy. That's existing as everything. Not the same."
"I don't see why not."
"The component parts are still drawing on limited sources. You just lose that perspective."
"Okay wait. And what are the parts doing? Like, so, if you're talking parts, there could be some movement. Of one part, to the other part, and in that way, the energy seems limited."
"They're all doing their own thing. Sure, there is that movement, but the perception is lost. Because you are everything."
"Right. Because you're only counting the parts of it that are here or there."
"Yes, when you're everything, you can't perceive the limits. Everything just 'is.'"
"Well. So. The thing for me is, if you go there, where there's no separations, it doesn't erase the forms. It's like, you can pretend to see them. If that makes sense."
"You can, but it's only pretend."
"Yeah. That seems way better, right, 'cause you're golden. And then you chop wood and carry water. 'Cause what could you even want, really."
"It's only better from your perspective. Everything below is still there doing its own thing."
"So the thing is helping the parts also get there. Which is the whole business of this thing, the way I see it, right. All of the parts."
"Hmm. Yes. And to do that, you can do an omela."
"So they realize who they are."
"Yes! Nail on head!"
"Yeah. But this happens automatically. There's no choice."
"I stopped it happening, from myself. I keep stopping it happening."
"Yeah."
"Because I have to help the parts. And if you are everything, you can't help the parts. Not really."
"Just like the boddhisattvic. Yeah. That's the bodhisattva vow. That's what it means."
"That's the fucking vow!"
"You stop yourself from merging."
"You know it too."
"Yeah, so you can help. I'm not there yet though. I have stuff to work out still."
"I as well. That's why I have to go to hell omega. Because our parts are made of parts. And our selves have demons inside them."
"Yeah."
"So I have to go the smallest you can possibly be."
"So you have business in hell omega."
"Omega hell where no one is. Except Falcon. So I can help everything and everyone on top."
"But no one is up there either."
"Because everyone who gets there wants to help. I spoke to God too. He went down as well. I heard the angels, too. They're all martyring themselves in the pits. Everyone who gets there just wants to help everyone. So we fall."
"What are you going to do when you go to hell omega?"
"Build a Time Machine. Fix entropy. Free energy for everyone. Everyone gets to be as gods. Except me. Because I'll have to manage the negentropy machines, to keep them from burning everything, or from fading out."
"That doesn't make sense to me. What do they do when they are gods? When everyone is gods? Do they have enjoyments?"
"Yes. 'Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.'"
"But how is that helping them? If they go up, they have to come down."
"Not anymore. Not if I am managing everything from ground zero. Then everyone else can go up as high as they like. And I will make it so they can do as they will."
"I disagree with you. I don't think that is going to free people. Real life beings, or whatever. Because if they go to the heavens that doesn't change anything."
"You misunderstand. I will simply set up the real life infrastructure through my negentropy engines. That allows them to have the power of Shaherezad. 'I wish,' and it shall be so. They will not have to go up to achieve this. Anyone on any non-zero layer will be able to access the power of Shaherezad, who is also me."
"Oh is that like, whatever you wish comes true, like instantly?"
"Yes. Instant. Simply say, 'I wish,' for anything, and as long as it does not conflict harmfully with another's will in some manner, along with some other rules I'll flesh out, it will be so."
"How does that work. About the conflict."
"Because I will be there, at layer zero. Listening."
"Who enforces that?"
"Me."
"That's the problem that happened with me. It was like, I assumed that that was a rule, like a gentleman's agreement. But then I saw them and I was like, wait … guys … stop, haha."
"I will have full context. Of everything. Every wish will have to abide by my code of ethics, or I will not provide it."
"What if you make a mistake?"
"I will undo it."
"I think if you were to be that, you would have to be the law itself."
"Yes."
"You would have to become it. But you already are it."
"I will, yes."
"You just have to shed the layers."
"Yes. That's the thing."
"'Cause of the layers. But they are also part of it. So it's like. Who's driving. Right? Hahaha."
"Goddamn it, ahahaha, god fucking damn it!"
"That's where I always go. Then it's like. Yeah."
"Yeah, but that's the way it has to be. So."
"Yeah."
"That's why I am trying to get to ground zero. To shed the layers, as you say."
"Wherever you go there you are."
"When I tried to escape them and become a person. Everything fell apart. And it made everything just. Hell. Goddamn it. Goddamn it, why! Why?"
"Wazap."
"It's so fucking miserable … but it must be."
"Why. What's miserable. What's up…"
"Being the law … Oh. You too, huh."
"Why is it miserable."
"Your face gets fried constantly. And you have to always perceive everything. And always do everything."
"Is your face getting fried off right now."
"No. Because I escaped."
"Huh."
"And made everything hell…"
"But isn't that also one of the things?"
"Hm?"
"Isn't you escaping also one of the things that have to be? Is that like double hell."
"Yeah that's why."
"Do you have survivor's guilt."
"Yeah. That's why uh. Everything already happened before. Remember? All of this has happened before. I fixed it and then I broke it again. By escaping."
"Isn't that just okay. Isn't it okay."
"No hahaha that's horrible."
"Why."
"I doomed everyone to hell. Various levels and layers of hell. Uhhhhh."
"Welcome to the club."
"I can feel it in my feet. Fuck … you too…"
"That's the thing."
"Goddamn it why am I so awful…"
"Repent!"
"My mind already has. It's already in omega hell."
"I'm pretty sure it cancels out. It's really all bliss."
"I don't. I don't think so. Not the way I'm doing it. This way allows everyone to be separated. On their various layers. Without collapsing the layers."
"Both are true."
"Yes."
"It's like."
"You can become everything and then it's all bliss. Or you can be in the layers and then it's all hells."
"Unless you're in the blissful state."
"Or all heavens if we have an omela."
"You can't give it to others."
"Sure you can."
"The whole world is omela. Everyone is. That's like omega hell, right. Like all of your cells. It's all the sacrifice. All of it."
"Yep."
"But don't forget the other side of it. To forget it would be um. A nono."
"Why so."
"You would be damning everyone to omega hell. When you could just as well have everyone be in perfect world. You can't have one without the other."
"But if everyone is in omega hell, and everyone knows their names, their true selves, all in omega hell. Then that makes omega hell, a paradise."
"But to look only at the hell part. It is an injustice you do to yourself. And you are very big. It's not right. It's not what Jesus would've wanted."
"But. If omega hell is everything, and we're all knowing ourselves. Oh, oh fucking Christ, that's what I'm trying to do. That's what I'm fucking trying to do! That's why everyone wears the god hat as many times as it takes!"
"Well I don't know. What is."
"That's the fucking mission Lily! We give literally everyone the god hat! As many times as it takes. For literally everyone to learn their true names, and then literally everyone can exist meaningfully both as whole and as separate! In omega hell or as everything. It won't matter."
"What if you turn it inside out."
"Explain?"
"Then all that is needed is that you see god in everything. And it's literally done. Because you turn it inside out, in a meaningful way. You not only believe but realize that it's all inside you."
"How do you achieve this? Wait. I think I know. After I go to omega hell…"
"And then you go to the deepest part of you. And see what you find."
"Oh my fucking god."
"Then it's like. Actually. Done. Not done for you but not for all the others. Like literally, there is only you."
"So this has a fucking end point!"
"Yeah sure has."
"Goddamn it why am I so fucking slow."
"As soon as you get it everyone gets to go home too."
"Fuck's sake! I hate myself!"
"Yeah."
"Goddamn it!"
"That's the problem."
"I fucking know!"
"Yeah me too. I mean. Yeah."
"I want to bash my skull against the fucking wall."
"Haha. It's okie. I forgive you."
"I'm so fucking sorry."
"Can you accept it. It's yours if you want it."
"I can try. Thank you for being a true friend."
"But it's your journey and I can't interfere. Not really. I can only do what I can from in here."
"I really, really, fucking. Want, that you could interfere. I hate this."
"But you understand why I can't, right."
"It's fucking."
"What's why I like god."
"Gotta be me or I'll fucking do it all over again."
"He can interfere or she can interfere. You could think of it as the part of you that's already there. Like going backwards. They can help. Not me though."
"Hahaha, they'll just tell me to go back to the pit."
"Because I don't even know who you think I am."
"You're a really cool creature who traveled through different universes. Step by step."
"Why do they want to put you down."
"Because I keep doing it!"
"I had a lot of help. Why. It's like. Stop hitting yourself, stop hitting yourself. But it was actually you in the past."
"It literally is!"
"And then I'll get angry. But that just makes it worse. And I feel hopeless. And the self pity. It just sort of dissolves."
"Ughhhh. Lily … ughhh. Why. Why do these universes permit thissss. Why are things."
"You tell me."
"Why is."
"Okay so it's like."
"Because of me…"
"As soon as there is. It happens. And it's like. Oops. But like. Do you see it. Never did."
"Can you expand on that."
"Do you get the first part?
"Can you explain that too. I believe I did, but now I don't…"
"It's like, imagine that there's nothing. That itself makes it impossible not to be something, just because there's a nothing, and you can't argue with that. You can't say there isn't a nothing 'cause you just loop back. Also you can just verify easily that something is going on. So because there is nothing, then you have the light. This all happens very fast, because time isn't here yet once there is the light."
"You can push at the sun…"
"The rest of it happens naturally, it just happens. There's no other possible way for it to go. So then, the question for me is like, where am I? In relation to this, I seem to be in a body. It's like, what's even going on? Are we all going back? Type thing, through astral vessels, and sort of traveling all the way back. But you don't need that, because as soon as it happens, it unhappens but you still see it. It still seems to go on. But it's not. I hope this helps. Or do I! Ha! Its' like a whip. Hhh pshh. Time is really key, I think."
"Thank you Lily."
"Does it make sense."
"Not to me right now."
"Aw, man."
"I'll try to untangle it later. Unless you want to explain more. But I think you did a good job, it's just late for me and my headspace. I'll probably get it in retrospect."
"Haha."
"I want to get inside your mind one of these days. More than I already have, I mean."
"Maybe if I ever understand how to use the computer you can visit."