Serena: "We got married too early, at least many people would say. I mean, marriage at 23 is a very huge and risky decision, after all. But we went for it anyways, since we had already been together for the last.. what, 5 years?
I had met him the first time when I was 18, and it was like we had become entrapped in a bond which we could never brake out of. Perhaps, I was emotionally manipulative and so was he. And maybe that's why.. we were meant to be. And yeah, we've hit some rough patches but being our goals aligned, we made it through... Besides, considering everything else that had happened in my life, I think I made the right choice.
I had stringed along so many. But I had already chosen the one.. one that I was bound to. I was always going to be with him, my beloved, endearing husband, Alex. But only I can call him that, you'll refer to him as Alexander. He's mine, anyways. Haha. He's all mine. Always was, always will be. We can't even divorce each other! Heheheheheee.... Do you think I'm crazy? I am.
You know... I.. had other options. I think I'd have been happier if I had chosen the guy that I had seen a happier, more vivid future with.. if I could've just come clean, been honest. I could've been happier with the guy who regretted losing me. He would've treated me like a queen. Could've been with my wonderful friend, who understood better than anyone... I forget why I chose him. Especially since he's the one who causes such pain."
Alex: "I.. have mixed feelings about her. I've been with her for 5 years and I feel like this already a mistake. I love her. I always have, I always will. She can cheat and escape from death, but not me. I won't let her ass leave me, never. She took an oath. And I'll make sure that she keeps her word. I've always made sure.
Why do I feel mixed feelings though? Because I'm being driven insane. I thought that nothing would change. But as I'd expected, she's grown a bit distant ever since we became serious and got married. She doesn't show it, doesn't even mention it, but I see her, the way she laughs with other men.. with HIM. WITH THEM. And I'm supposed to keep my calm with it because she FUCKING PROMISED ME THAT SHE WOULDN'T LEAVE. I'M SUPPOSED TO TRUST HER AS HER HUSBAND. But god, is it frustrating...
I understand that I'm not the best, that even my eyes.. wander at times. But she doesn't even try. She lets me. As if she's daring me to make a move. She's already my father's favourite, or rather, every man's favorite. But she'll love me like anything and I.. I'll make sure to remind her that I love her and she's mine. That's it works for us, after all. Sometimes, I wonder.. why did I even get married so early? Why, to her? Will i be able to make ends meet?"
"Maybe this is how a marriage is. Maybe we'll pull through... maybe we just need kids.. maybe then.. or perhaps, we were just destined to be apart. But I can't leave you, just as you can't leave me. You know too much, you've seen too much.. we can't leave, not anymore. There was never hope.."
We'll drown together in our miseries, and hope that we float, right?
Maybe.
I love you.
I love you too.
Good night, love.