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Chapter 1 - Kieran Black

"You're fired. Leave the company premises while I'm still being nice."

The voice cut across the room without hesitation.

The woman stood with her arms folded, eyes fixed on the young man in front of her like she had already erased him from her mind.

He did not answer.

Not because he did not hear her.

He heard every word.

He was just tired.

"Kieran."

Her voice came again, sharper this time.

"I'm talking to you. Get out."

Kieran finally looked up.

His face looked worn down in the way only life could do to a person. Not old. Just used. Like he had been carrying things nobody saw for too long.

His lips parted slightly, but nothing came out.

What was there to say?

Sorry?

Please?

I need this job?

He had said those kinds of things before. Different people. Different days. Same result.

The woman gave him one last hard stare before turning to the side.

"You messed up a simple delivery, and then you disappeared for nearly twenty minutes. Do you know who that package was for?"

Kieran swallowed.

"The elevator stopped working."

She laughed once, and there was nothing warm in it.

"And that became my problem?"

He stayed quiet.

She stepped closer.

"You delivery boys always have some story ready. The train was late. The road was blocked. The phone died. Your mother is sick. Your bicycle got stolen. I've heard all of it."

Kieran's eyes shifted for just a second.

Mother.

That word always hit strangely.

Not painfully anymore.

Just empty.

The woman noticed the silence and mistook it for attitude.

"Don't stand there looking at me like I owe you something."

"I wasn't."

"Then stop acting like this job was beneath you."

Kieran let out a quiet breath through his nose.

That almost made him laugh.

Beneath him?

Nothing had been beneath him for years.

He had delivered meals in the rain. Carried office files up staircases when the building systems failed. Worked night shifts moving boxes until his back locked up. Cleaned tables, washed dishes, unloaded trucks, stood in store uniforms two sizes too big, and smiled through it because rent did not care about pride.

This job was not beneath him.

This job was food.

This job was electricity.

This job was one more week without sleeping hungry.

But he did not say any of that.

He had learned a long time ago that people only asked questions when they wanted to hear themselves talk.

The woman picked up a file from the table beside her and flipped it open.

"You know what annoys me the most?"

Kieran said nothing.

"You had a ridiculous resume for someone applying to deliver packages."

Her eyes moved over the paper.

"Top of your class. First-class degree. Recommendations from professors. Academic awards." She looked at him again. "And yet here you are. Carrying food, envelopes, and coffee."

Her lips curved, but not kindly.

"Do you know what that tells me?"

Kieran already knew.

She did not wait for an answer.

"It tells me all that paper meant nothing."

He looked at her quietly.

That one landed.

Not because it was true.

Because part of him was afraid it might be.

She tossed the file aside.

"You people always think the world will reward effort. It doesn't. It rewards value. And right now, you're replaceable."

The words stayed between them.

Hard. Ugly. Familiar.

Kieran lowered his gaze for a moment.

He remembered another office.

Not like this one.

Smaller.

Older.

A career counselor at the university had smiled at him while tapping his transcript.

"With this, your future is secure."

Secure.

It was funny now.

That had been two years ago.

Two years and dozens of applications.

Two years of interviews where they smiled at his grades and frowned at his clothes.

Two years of hearing, "You're impressive, but we've decided to move forward with another candidate."

Another candidate usually meant someone with connections.

Or a family name.

Or confidence polished by a life that had never bent them out of shape.

Kieran had none of that.

No parents.

No uncle in finance.

No family friend in government.

No one waiting to catch him when he slipped.

Just him.

Always just him.

The woman pointed toward the exit.

"I'm not repeating myself."

He nodded once.

That seemed to annoy her more than if he had argued.

She probably wanted a scene.

Wanted him to beg.

Wanted him to raise his voice so she could feel justified.

Instead, he bent slightly, picked up his worn delivery bag, and turned.

That was it.

No speech.

No last defense.

No broken pride on display.

Just movement.

"Kieran."

He stopped but did not face her.

She spoke with a colder tone now.

"Next time, learn your place before you walk into a building like this."

For a second, he stood there without moving.

Then he answered.

"My place?"

She said nothing.

He turned halfway and looked at her.

His expression was calm, but there was something in his eyes now. Not anger. Not even resentment. Just a tired honesty.

"I've been trying to find that out for a long time."

Then he walked away.

He did not hear anything after that.

Or maybe he did and simply chose not to care.

By the time he was outside, his phone buzzed.

One message.

Shift terminated. Final pay will be processed in three to five business days.

Kieran stared at the screen.

Then he laughed softly to himself.

Three to five business days.

He checked his balance.

It was bad.

Bad enough that the number almost stopped feeling real.

He looked away and slipped the phone back into his pocket.

There was no point staring at hunger before it arrived.

He started walking.

No plan.

Just forward.

That had been his life for a while now.

Move first. Think later.

A few blocks passed before he reached a bench and sat down.

His shoulders dropped the second he stopped moving.

That was the danger of rest.

When he kept walking, he could pretend.

Pretend there was somewhere important to be.

Pretend he still had momentum.

Pretend everything had not quietly fallen apart one piece at a time.

But sitting down made things honest.

He leaned forward and rubbed a hand over his face.

Twenty-four years old.

Top of his year.

First-class graduate.

Fired from a delivery job.

He let out another laugh, but it died quickly.

It was almost insulting how bad things had become.

He thought about his degree.

The nights he barely slept.

The mornings he studied on an empty stomach.

The campus library where he sat by the same corner every day because it was close to a power outlet.

The old laptop he kept alive for four years with tape, patience, and luck.

The professors who noticed him because he always submitted first and left last.

He had built that version of himself carefully.

Not because he loved academics.

Because he thought it would save him.

People said education changed lives.

For some people, maybe it did.

For him, it became something neat to write under his name before rejection emails arrived.

Kieran leaned back and looked ahead.

He remembered the orphanage.

That was where everything started.

No, not started.

Where memory started.

His life before that was just scattered pieces.

A white sheet.

A cold hand.

Someone saying, "Poor child."

Then years under a roof that was not cruel enough to be called hell and not kind enough to be called home.

The orphanage fed them. Housed them. Kept them alive.

That was about it.

If one of the younger kids cried too much at night, the caretakers shouted.

If someone got sick, they were given medicine late.

If clothes tore, they were stitched and passed down again.

You learned very early not to ask for too much.

Kieran had been quiet even as a child.

Not timid.

Just observant.

He learned which kids stole food.

Which caretakers slapped first and listened later.

Which donors smiled for photos and forgot their names right after.

He learned how to eat slowly so hunger would not come back too fast.

He learned how to hide coins.

He learned how to smile when charities visited, because smiling sometimes meant better food that week.

And he learned one more thing.

No one was coming for him.

Some children carried hope longer than others.

A few believed their parents would return.

A few kept old memories alive like candle flames.

Kieran did not.

He stopped waiting early.

There had been one man, though.

Old Mr. Vale.

He was not rich. Not important. Just a volunteer who came by twice a month to teach basic mathematics and reading.

Most of the children liked him because he brought sweets when he could.

Kieran liked him because he spoke normally.

Not the fake soft voice adults used around orphans.

Not pity.

Not performance.

Just normal.

One day, when Kieran was maybe ten or eleven, Mr. Vale had found him sitting alone with a torn textbook.

"You actually read those things?" the old man had asked.

Kieran had shrugged.

"There's nothing else to do."

Mr. Vale sat beside him.

"That's not true."

"What else is there?"

The old man looked at him for a moment, then smiled faintly.

"You can leave."

Kieran frowned.

"This place?"

"Yes."

"How?"

"By becoming too useful to be ignored."

Kieran remembered staring at him after that.

Too useful to be ignored.

Back then, that sentence had sounded like a secret map.

So he studied.

He studied like his life depended on it, because maybe it did.

He became the boy teachers remembered.

Then the teenager schools wanted to claim when he won things.

Then the young man professors praised with shining eyes.

He built himself piece by piece out of numbers, grades, discipline, and silence.

He did not drink.

Did not waste time.

Did not chase girls.

Did not skip lectures.

He watched others live full university lives while he lived like someone racing a clock only he could hear.

And for a while, it seemed worth it.

Scholarships covered some things.

Campus work covered others.

He survived.

He even graduated at the top.

That day should have meant something.

He still remembered standing there in borrowed clothes, hearing applause, shaking hands, smiling for photographs he could not afford copies of.

Other students celebrated with family.

Parents cried.

Friends shouted.

Phones flashed.

Promises filled the air.

"We're proud of you."

"You did it."

"This is just the beginning."

Kieran had smiled through all of it.

Then he left campus alone.

He had gone back to his tiny room, placed the award on the table, sat on the bed, and eaten instant noodles in silence.

That was the whole celebration.

Later, job hunting began.

That was where the truth returned.

The world liked excellence.

But it loved connections.

The first few rejections hurt.

Then the tenth.

Then the twentieth.

After a while, they blurred together.

Sometimes he got interviews.

Those were almost worse.

He remembered one clearly.

A polished man in a suit had looked through his papers and smiled.

"Impressive record."

"Thank you, sir."

"You don't have internship history in any major firm?"

"No, sir."

"No family connections in the field?"

"No, sir."

The smile had thinned.

"We'll be in touch."

They were never in touch.

Another time, a woman had asked him gently, "Who sponsored you through school?"

"No one."

"Really?"

"I worked and had a scholarship."

She had nodded like that explained everything.

As if struggle itself had made him less hireable.

As months passed, savings disappeared.

He sold things in order.

First the extra shoes.

Then the watch an old professor gifted him.

Then his better clothes.

Then the laptop.

That one hurt most.

After that, he stopped applying to places that needed polished confidence and started looking anywhere that paid.

Anything.

That was how he became a delivery boy.

Not because he wanted to.

Because being hungry strips dreams down to their bones.

His stomach tightened at the thought of food now.

He had not eaten since morning, and morning had barely counted.

Just coffee and something dry.

He checked his phone again.

Nothing new.

No miracle email.

No offer.

No missed call from fate apologizing for the delay.

He put the phone away again.

A few people passed him. None looked twice.

He was used to that.

There was freedom in being invisible.

There was also humiliation.

Depends on the day.

Today it felt like both.

He sat there a little longer before pushing himself up.

He still had his room for now.

One week already overdue.

His landlord had stopped pretending patience.

Another few days and the locks might change.

Kieran started walking again.

At some point, his thoughts drifted to Mr. Vale.

The old man had died during Kieran's second year in university.

Heart failure.

Natural causes, they said.

He had left behind nothing dramatic. No fortune. No secret letter. No hidden truth about Kieran's parents.

Just a small envelope with fifty dollars and a short note written in shaky handwriting.

For meals during exams. Brains work better when fed.

You'll make it farther than all of us.

— Vale

Kieran still had the note.

Not the money, of course.

The money had vanished into survival the same week.

But the note remained folded inside one of his books.

He did not know why he kept it.

Maybe because it was one of the only pieces of proof that someone had once looked at him and seen more than his immediate use.

His phone buzzed again.

This time it was his landlord.

He stared at the name for a moment before answering.

"Hello."

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