School was closing in two weeks and I hadn't been there most of the term. It was too late for me to start so Ethan got extra print outs for me, in order to pass the exams at the end of the year I had to do this. I got extra help from all our friends, the ones who still wanted me in their lives. We had all the boys come over to "keep me sane" I guess it worked. I mean I didn't lock myself in my room and I didn't go hysterical. It felt good to have friends.
Luke asked to talk to me and pulled me into the other room. He sat me on the bed and told me that he really likes me but in a relationship with someone he seems to be in love with. He described her as the perfect figure I'm happy for him...but am I going to be alone...again. I had a crush on Tristan and he hurt me, Lukes seemed to have a crush on me but is in love....in FREAKING LOVE. How do I compare with miss perfect. I'm being awful but when was life going to be good for me. When was I going to be truly and fully happy. He told me I was cool and came over for a hug but I pushed him away, I wanted to hug him to feel his warmth but what I said was,"Dude you have a girlfriend, you can't go around hugging other girls" he paused and looked at me with confusion then laughed so hard he seemed to be in pain. He said "yeah she was first but I still care for you and your my best friend anyway. She shouldn't mind, if she does she isn't the right on for me." That made me feel better but I still couldn't hug him.
We got outside and I think the boys where talking about me because Tristan kept looking at me. I was kinda freaked out about this, I mean I watch romantic movies day in day out so obviously my brain came up with stupid assumptions which probably wouldn't happen to me. Right? He came up to me and said hi. I obviously said hi back...actually I said Bonjour and he looked at me weird. I then realized I wasn't speaking English then said "sorry wrong language" like an idiot. He laughed and said "you're still as cute as I remember. You where so small and adorable but really cubby." That kinda offended me but at least
he tried to complement me about my 'cuteness' that's what mattered I guess. I broke my awkwardness and actually spoke to him in English without mixing Italian in there. We talked about sport and how I was able to loose so much weight...he makes me sound like a fat arsslo even though I was just baby chubby. I WAS CUTE OK! He burst out laughing, tears in his eyes and tried so hard to keep a straight face to say " yeah yeah but you weren't" I turned red and he said " you didn't let me finish" so he continued "you still are cute." What did all this mean you may ask me...but I honestly don't know either.
I asked what he mentioned and he realised what he said and turned red too, he tried to explain but all he did was tell me how cute or pretty I was in different ways while turning more and more red after every sentence then I laughed and he cooled down, he as still a bit red but he seemed a little less bothered. He asked me why I chose him. Me being a complete dimwit I didn't understand what he ment and then he tried to explain without blushing but in order to do so he had to cover his mouth for some odd reason which made his words sound like they weren't even words. I said," do you mean my whole me liking you thing?" He nodded so I told him. "I knew you where trouble when I first saw you, but then you ended up paired with me for all our assignments and I decided to let you in. But to my surprise I started caring for you and realized that it was actually love...,I still am. You are like a brother to me and I would hate to let that go but anger consumed me." He stood there in tears when I realised that he was crying I ran in for a hug and he whispered in my ear "I'm so sorry, I love you too, I miss you too, please can we start again?" He let go of me all red and teary and said "will you be my Oreo once again?" I laughed and said yes (it's an inside joke we made when we where little)
So in that day I broke up with a guy who isn't even my boyfriend and made up with my long lost best friend. This day was the best so far but I'm not gonna jinx it.
After hours of talking to Tristan, Ethan comes up to join us and asks me why Luke seems so off ever since we talked. What was I supposed to say? I mean he told me that he can't be with me so was I so wrong to try to process all of what he had told me. Should I just be fine with the fact that he had a girlfriend while he was trying to get with me. I don't really care if they where in a rough patch or not, it was wrong for him to do this. To her to me. I went over to talk with him and tried not to sound so angry at him for what he had done. "Hey",he said with a weak smile on his face I replied with a "hi" I had to ask him "how does it feel to almost betray your girlfriend and lead your friend on?" After it came out I realised how rude it sounded and apologized then he said "no need to apologize, your right and honestly I feel awful because I really like you but I can't imagine my life without her. I hugged him and said "you don't have to choose, but I can't trust you anymore. I'm sorry" then I slowly walked away.
Dusk had come and Luke had to go home but Tristan was supposed to sleep over so I invited Hannah to even things out with the boys. I also did this to make them feel uncomfortable, we were all friends and both of them dated Hann which I didn't agree to but here we are. The sleep over was quite fun to admit. We made pudding and a lot of it so we could watch a nice romantic action movie under the covers. I believe that was one of the best parts. Then we built forts in the living room and attacked our "enemy lines" that was super fun too. This reminded me of when we were young all those fun times Hann and I would spend hours in my room just talking about Tristan and who of us would date him first, back then it was obvious that it was going to be her and they did date. I didn't miss out on anything though we all stayed friends which meant a lot more me. Now we are all grown up they are constantly talking about their exs. I honestly feel kinda left out...I'm the black sheep in all of this but I'm happy that things are just like they used to be.
Vacation will start in less than a week. And I need to start studying for the next term. I need to restart everything all in these few weeks. I had to go back to school knowing that people would mock me, knowing that Tristan and Ethan where the only people who would help me, knowing that I'd have to work 10 times harder just to keep my grades up. I'll be fine right? I'm tired of saying that without knowing if I was telling the truth. Ethan Tristan Hannah ND I started planning what we could do when I wasn't studying my ars off.